the sun was smiling today, it seemed
"dont cry" he said as i awoke
today will be a happy day,
i told myself -- (what a joke)
here's an outfit that went untouched,
in my closet, tags still on the sleeve
"makes me look 5 pounds lighter"
(you made me feel fat), I think as i leave
car smells like a vanilla air freshener
that i opened the night before
no trace of your stale cigarettes,
i think as i shut the door.
could it be, that you are fading
in my memory where you rooted your soul?
today i feel free
no more driving (living) on cruise control
wind in my hair, sun in my eyes
someone beeps at me and i wink
this is what its like to be me, without you
this is freedom, i smile as i think
still there's a shadow that chases the sun
a darkness and sadness i know all too well
i feel your presence, i see your car
in my rearview, drive me straight back to hell
i finally find serenity, i dance with bliss
and here you are to take it away
a reminder of misery
to ruin every fucking day
the sun shines for me today,
yet you still seem to turn it all black
i was "ok" this morning...
and then you came back
my heart is in tatters,
the glue's starting to give
but i hold strong to smashed pieces
(this is no way to live)
friday night and i have a date
(think i'll wear that red lipstick tonight)
we go out, we drink, we stay out late
everything is perfect... so strangely right
my heart tingles with a familiar glow
(i had forgotten what it felt like to be romanced)
he took me in his arms tonight...
me and this stranger, we danced
tonight i was brilliant... i was charming
i was everything that you lack
tonight someone will think of me and i'm flattered...
...and then you come back
you shatter my hopes, you steal my joy
you fuck up a night i could have treasured
you always come back to break my heart
pour pain back into my soul unmeasured
will it always be so?
will you take away everything that i try to love?
how can i be noticed this way
always a pretty hand you cover with a glove?
i see you in your fantasy land
always smiling, never caring
as i struggle to make it through one goddamn day
without smashing things, without swearing
see what you've done to this girl
i'm so far off the happy track
and every time i start to get close
you always seem to come back
let it go... let ME go
let me find happiness without you
cuz i cant stand your shadow...
the sunlight is begging to shine itself through.
------------------
E-girl
IM: tiggersgurl2067
*Choice, not chance, determines destiny*
"November is all I know."
"dont cry" he said as i awoke
today will be a happy day,
i told myself -- (what a joke)
here's an outfit that went untouched,
in my closet, tags still on the sleeve
"makes me look 5 pounds lighter"
(you made me feel fat), I think as i leave
car smells like a vanilla air freshener
that i opened the night before
no trace of your stale cigarettes,
i think as i shut the door.
could it be, that you are fading
in my memory where you rooted your soul?
today i feel free
no more driving (living) on cruise control
wind in my hair, sun in my eyes
someone beeps at me and i wink
this is what its like to be me, without you
this is freedom, i smile as i think
still there's a shadow that chases the sun
a darkness and sadness i know all too well
i feel your presence, i see your car
in my rearview, drive me straight back to hell
i finally find serenity, i dance with bliss
and here you are to take it away
a reminder of misery
to ruin every fucking day
the sun shines for me today,
yet you still seem to turn it all black
i was "ok" this morning...
and then you came back
my heart is in tatters,
the glue's starting to give
but i hold strong to smashed pieces
(this is no way to live)
friday night and i have a date
(think i'll wear that red lipstick tonight)
we go out, we drink, we stay out late
everything is perfect... so strangely right
my heart tingles with a familiar glow
(i had forgotten what it felt like to be romanced)
he took me in his arms tonight...
me and this stranger, we danced
tonight i was brilliant... i was charming
i was everything that you lack
tonight someone will think of me and i'm flattered...
...and then you come back
you shatter my hopes, you steal my joy
you fuck up a night i could have treasured
you always come back to break my heart
pour pain back into my soul unmeasured
will it always be so?
will you take away everything that i try to love?
how can i be noticed this way
always a pretty hand you cover with a glove?
i see you in your fantasy land
always smiling, never caring
as i struggle to make it through one goddamn day
without smashing things, without swearing
see what you've done to this girl
i'm so far off the happy track
and every time i start to get close
you always seem to come back
let it go... let ME go
let me find happiness without you
cuz i cant stand your shadow...
the sunlight is begging to shine itself through.
------------------
E-girl
IM: tiggersgurl2067
*Choice, not chance, determines destiny*
"November is all I know."
