Angelight
Bluelighter
So tonight i layed here, thinking of all the things i have become.
Am i still strong these days?
Am i still the person i have built?
I am confronted with fear, and boldness.
I am certain of a light that shines today.
I layed here and i wondered where i am going.
I layed here and thought if i will be at peace with this journey.
I layed here and fathomed all the heartache that has been replaced.
And i layed here and i wondered if it was something that i could call my own.
I walked across a valley of emotions.
You held my hand half the time, and slept the other half.
I wanted to recycle all the garbage lingering in my mind, and turn into something that i could make beautiful.
I wanted you to help me, you don't know if you can.
I wished you could open up my mind.
I wished you could travel through all the crevices of every thing that was burned in me.
I layed here and prayed that i would be me again.
I wanted to decide on a name for us.
I wanted to decide on a positive story for our lives.
Tonight i can't write the story...tonight i don't even know how to start it.
I lived through everyone elses words, and i lived through everyone else's whispers.
No one could tell me my own, i couldn't make my own.
So i layed here tonight and i looked at the ceiling.
I layed here tonight and was amazed at what i discovered in myself.
I layed here tonight i realized there was no other place i rather be but in a house we would build together.
I wondered if the place would ever stand.
I hope one day it does.
I layed here and decided that i could heal with you.
I layed here and decided that we would do this together...again...and always.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
angela
[This message has been edited by Angelight (edited 09 November 2000).]
Am i still strong these days?
Am i still the person i have built?
I am confronted with fear, and boldness.
I am certain of a light that shines today.
I layed here and i wondered where i am going.
I layed here and thought if i will be at peace with this journey.
I layed here and fathomed all the heartache that has been replaced.
And i layed here and i wondered if it was something that i could call my own.
I walked across a valley of emotions.
You held my hand half the time, and slept the other half.
I wanted to recycle all the garbage lingering in my mind, and turn into something that i could make beautiful.
I wanted you to help me, you don't know if you can.
I wished you could open up my mind.
I wished you could travel through all the crevices of every thing that was burned in me.
I layed here and prayed that i would be me again.
I wanted to decide on a name for us.
I wanted to decide on a positive story for our lives.
Tonight i can't write the story...tonight i don't even know how to start it.
I lived through everyone elses words, and i lived through everyone else's whispers.
No one could tell me my own, i couldn't make my own.
So i layed here tonight and i looked at the ceiling.
I layed here tonight and was amazed at what i discovered in myself.
I layed here tonight i realized there was no other place i rather be but in a house we would build together.
I wondered if the place would ever stand.
I hope one day it does.
I layed here and decided that i could heal with you.
I layed here and decided that we would do this together...again...and always.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
angela
[This message has been edited by Angelight (edited 09 November 2000).]
