*Cosmic Mist*
Bluelighter
My coffee slowly congeils as the money slips from hand to hand, and the stamps slam together in unison. I fell into this life, much the same way as all the others - more through necessity than desire...
...despiration than aspiration...
...a lack rather than fulfillment...
Quiet! The lull before the storm - a moment of peace, sitting quietly writing through my mind's eye the thoughts that i cannot think right now.
$1000? Small change! My last client gave me $20 000, and with a smile what's more! SO why won't you smile for me? I've been here for 2 1/2 hours waiting for you, and you don't even know my name! I could be anyone for all you know, and i hold your life in my hands...
I mean nothing to you, which is fair enough i guess... i merely allow you to perforn your essential daily functions, so that you may return to your home and/or office at peace, content in the knowledge that your needs are fulfilled... for the meantime at at least...
I feel so dirty! You ppour your money down my throat until i asphixiate in a pool of my own anxious nervosity! You come and go as you please - each time you see me, i wear this mask for you - cheap lipstick, false smile, and mascarra that runs deep below my eyes. Can't you tell i'm upset - that i've been crying? Do you even care? I don't recognise myself any more...
Still you don't know who i am - still you don't care. But i am human too, i have a name and feelings, much the same as you. Don't deny me this fundamental right, for i am human just like you...
...despiration than aspiration...
...a lack rather than fulfillment...
Quiet! The lull before the storm - a moment of peace, sitting quietly writing through my mind's eye the thoughts that i cannot think right now.
$1000? Small change! My last client gave me $20 000, and with a smile what's more! SO why won't you smile for me? I've been here for 2 1/2 hours waiting for you, and you don't even know my name! I could be anyone for all you know, and i hold your life in my hands...
I mean nothing to you, which is fair enough i guess... i merely allow you to perforn your essential daily functions, so that you may return to your home and/or office at peace, content in the knowledge that your needs are fulfilled... for the meantime at at least...
I feel so dirty! You ppour your money down my throat until i asphixiate in a pool of my own anxious nervosity! You come and go as you please - each time you see me, i wear this mask for you - cheap lipstick, false smile, and mascarra that runs deep below my eyes. Can't you tell i'm upset - that i've been crying? Do you even care? I don't recognise myself any more...
Still you don't know who i am - still you don't care. But i am human too, i have a name and feelings, much the same as you. Don't deny me this fundamental right, for i am human just like you...
