funny, who would have thought I would have been away from dope for over 3 months now!? not me. I havent went this long in years and years and year. sure, I am still on subox, so think what you want, but staying away from the dope is keeping me ALIVE and WELL! I am actually putting my life back together and only over the course of 3 months I've seen so many great things happen. but, of course, there are things being held back based on my past life.
as of now I am in the process of moving, but due to my criminal background and my BAD CREDIT, its not easy finding a new apartment or a new ANYTHING. I am lucky enough to be employed and make good $$ but I am lucky enough to work for a company that knows me well and knows I am good at what I do.. so I am thankful for that!
what else.. well, family is still family. they see me doing much, much better and they actually trust and believe me.. FINALLY! it feels great to be looked at as a son again and not a junkie who is up to SOMETHING SHADY!
work.. well, work is work but I actually enjoy my job. plus, I can get alot more done in the morning because I am NOT thinking about how I can score the dope later or during lunch and not feeling "sick". same goes for afternoons; although, when I used at lunch I would def come back and work HARD.. maybe even harder than I do now, ha. but that hard work cost me $100-200/day. just sickening thinking of the money spent and what I SHOULD have vs. what I DO have. fucking sad, man.
well, another update by me. things are still good.
yes, I have used benzo's and weed since my last post but as I said before, I still consider myself SOBER AS CAN BE! taking 10MG Valium and smoking a blunt never hurt no one, right? ha.
as of now I am in the process of moving, but due to my criminal background and my BAD CREDIT, its not easy finding a new apartment or a new ANYTHING. I am lucky enough to be employed and make good $$ but I am lucky enough to work for a company that knows me well and knows I am good at what I do.. so I am thankful for that!
what else.. well, family is still family. they see me doing much, much better and they actually trust and believe me.. FINALLY! it feels great to be looked at as a son again and not a junkie who is up to SOMETHING SHADY!
work.. well, work is work but I actually enjoy my job. plus, I can get alot more done in the morning because I am NOT thinking about how I can score the dope later or during lunch and not feeling "sick". same goes for afternoons; although, when I used at lunch I would def come back and work HARD.. maybe even harder than I do now, ha. but that hard work cost me $100-200/day. just sickening thinking of the money spent and what I SHOULD have vs. what I DO have. fucking sad, man.
well, another update by me. things are still good.
yes, I have used benzo's and weed since my last post but as I said before, I still consider myself SOBER AS CAN BE! taking 10MG Valium and smoking a blunt never hurt no one, right? ha.