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An introduction to yet another member to "our elite race of our own..."

anjalimaya

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Jan 1, 2011
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New York City, NY (Brooklyn)
That quote was from an Alice in Chains song. My favorite band. I prefer to not mention my real name but I am a 32 year old woman living in New York City (since July 2010) born and raised in Southern California and will be soon making a move to Northern England to finish my PhD in Cultural History at the University of Liverpool.

Why am I here? Because I still use. Because I have lost myself to use. Because sometimes I feel the need to reach out, to understand other people's experiences, because I am not ashamed of this part of myself but I understand the stigma despite how unfair it might be.

Another quote from that song..."what's my drug of choice? Well, what have you got?"

Truthfully, I skipped the whole marijuana as a gateway drug and went straight into meth usage at 13. Then I got into ecstasy. I got into vicodin which led to more vicodin which lead to oxycontin, which lead to heroin. So I guess if I was in an NA meeting I would introduce myself as a heroin addict. But right now, I am not strung out on it. And I enjoy meeting people or at least chatting with people that have similar stories or not similar stories but get it. they get that darkness and they are willing to try to survive it.

I have a lot of theories about drug use, about culture, about people. I just hope that it is a good forum to do that in.

Thanks.
 
Welcome to Bluelight!

I have written a lot about my own personal struggles with the misfortunes of heroin addiction and more in this thread.

I welcome you to do the same. The Dark Side is an excellent place to explain where you have been in life, where you are at now, and where you envision yourself in 5 years. :)

Do you enjoy living in New York City? I have visited there, it is a great place.
 
Long live Kurt.............I like AIC as well :) Welcome to Bluelight! When I was coming up I had no idea that my favorite bands were all herion addicts as I was an acid king myself.
 
Hi : )

I have succumbed to this "culture" as really, mine. It's not easy :/

How have you maintained your mental faculties to be successful in academica? I have been failing and getting Incompletes for years now. Tired of wasting money on university. I'm suspecting brain damage : (

Personally, I did not smoke pot until I was almost 19, have done everything in the last 8 years except Meth. Prescriptions are the mainstay.

My brain damage has come full circle and now I can see that... I'm feeling :?

Glad you are here!<3
 
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