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An insanely long story about my love life and supernatural shit. Help.

Joey24x18

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This is going to be a long story.

It all started about three years ago. I was on probation for a felony and met this girl on Facebook. I'll call her B1. We hit it off and started dating almost instantly. I ended up going on the run because my parents wouldn't let me leave the house to see her, and basically lived in this girls closet for 6 months while she hid me from her family.
We both have a lot of problems. Drug addictions, mental issues, etc. But we get along perfectly. We never argued. Had a great sex life. I ended up getting caught and serving 6 months in the county jail. When I got out, she started acting distant and inevitably broke up with me because she was worried about me getting locked up again.
About a month before I went to jail, I had been introduced to a new girl, B2. Has the same name as B1. Lol. B1 was out of town for a month. B2 and I had a deep connection from first site. From the moment I met her she was obviously into me. Before I even said one word to her our eyes were just fixated on each other. But she's my opposite. We did make out once, and I felt terrible for cheating on B1 but it just happened. We started dating immediatly after me and B1 broke up. When I met her strange things started happening. Whenever I'd randomly look at a clock it'd either be 1:11 or 11:11. Since the moment I met her I have been experiencing the strangest coincidences daily. Just weird shit, like I'll be walking down the street and when I walk under a street light it'll just turn off. Or one time we got into a crash, and the next day I was talking about it to one of my coworkers. As I'm talking about the car crash, my work mates car magically came out of park, rolled down the parkinglot, and smashed into our building. A couple days later a kid from my 9th grade English class came in to eat, and we were talking about how crazy our teacher used to be, when out of nowhere, this fucking crazy teacher who I hadn't seen in SIX YEARS comes running into our restaurant in a flamboyant red dress and cusses my boss out crying because she didn't hire her son. Lol.
This shit kept happening. Constantly. The clock thing is the weirdest. I'll see stuff like 1:11, 2:22, 11:11 etc and It's always when something significant is going on. I've even started tracking them. Like one day I'm riding around with some homies making sales, when we passed a cop by a park. I look at the clock and I notice It's 1:11. We go get something to eat, and on our way back to our neighborhood we pass another cop by the park and I notice its 2:22. We go to my buddies house and smoke, and on our way to drop me off, I notice were about 15 seconds to passing that same park and It's fucking 3:33. I shit you not I had a gut instinct and threw an ounce and a half of bud out the window into the woods, we go around the turn, and there's a cop right in front of us and he bluelights us. They search the whole car and find nothing. It was as if the universe was giving me hints about what was going to happen. My homeboy didn't even see me throw the shit out and thought we were going to jail lol
There so much more crazy shit that's happened, I'd have to write a book to explain it all. But this girl, B2, is something different. It's as if she's me, in female form, from another dimension. After dating for 4 months, I had my first experience with DMT. It was a breakthrew experience and opened my eyes to all of the coincidences about this girl I had been overlooking. Get this shit:
My birthdays 1/11, her birthday is 1/10.
We met on 10/11/2012.
I grew up down south, she grew up up north.
I have blonde hair, she has strawberry blonde hair.
I have blue eyes, she has greenish blue eyes.
I lived with my mom/dad, she lived with her aunt/uncle.
Ive slept around, this girl was a virgin.
I'm a druggie (recovering at this point lol), she's super straight edge.
I could keep going, but It's like every thing about us has this "similar but different" aspect to it. She notices all the coincidences too, but she seems to ignore them. She'd always tell me her one wish in life was to meet her true love, and that I'm it. That was her explanation for it all.
Me on the other hand, I was mind blown by it all. I researched for days on in trying to find an explanation. Eventually, I found one.
 
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(I ran out of space. If this is against the rules lemme know lol)
There's apparently a theory known as Twin Flames. I was not one to believe in the supernatural back then, but it was scary how what I was reading on the internet was describing my situation to a tee. It was saying that Twin Flames would have very similar but different aspects to each other. That you would go threw a spiritual awakening and notice alot of coincidences when you met. That you'd be introduced by a close friend (we were Introduced by a guy I had been best friends with since 2 years old), and that there's usually alot of 1s in your birthdays and they'd be synchronized in their place on the calendar. Tell me that's not some crazy shit?
Before she even met me, my friend had told her all about me. When she first heard my name (Joey), she thought he had said "Jelly". To this day that has been her nickname for me. But that's not the weird part, the weird part is my initials are JAM. Lmfao
The twin flame theory coincides with another popular theory, which is the 11:11 phenomenon. This is where people constantly see repeating numbers on clocks, receipts, movie tickets etc etc. Which perfectly explains why I was seeing those numbers. Everywhere.
We dated for two years, got an apartment together, we were happy for a while. But the opppsite sides to us were too much. We clashed and argued about so much shit. And at the begining of this year we broke up and i moved out.
So TWO DAYS after I move out of our apartment, Im at walmart shopping for some munchies, and who bumps into me? B1. I hadnt seen this girl since we broke up more than two years before. We get to talking, and she had been dating a guy for two years just like me, had been experiencing coincidences just like I had, and they had ended up breaking up ON THE SAME DAY me and B2 did. Except she says this guy is a clone of her. And ive seen pictures, this guy looks exactly like her lol she says they would finish each others sentences on a regular basis and always knew what the other was thinking. They were both "emo" and depressed. And both had a similar very traumatic experience early on in life.
So i start dating her again, two days after me and B2 break up. This was in febuary. We still got along perfectly, never argue. But i could not stop thinking about B2. Its as if she is pysically implanted into my brain I love this girl so much. So me and B1 break up, and now me and B2 are talking again. She tells me she still loves me too. That she doesnt love this new guy shes dating. But she hasnt left him yet.
Im sleeping over at our old apartment every now and then, hanging out with her on the DL. She flirts with me like crazy. But we have not hooked up. I feel like shes friendzoned me, and Im losing my mind.
She was basically the reason I broke up with B1, because B2 would text me and tell me she still loved me. And talk all bad about her new boyfriend, but now that Im single, she says shes not going to break up with this guy for me because she has to give him a "chance".
My life right now is bumpy. Im single now. Im an ex felon, but making thousands of dollars a week online as a powerseller on ebay. So im not in the fucked up homeless/running from the law position I was when I first met these girls. Mentally though, Im a wreck. Im on the tail end of a six or seven month phenibut addiction. Ive tapered down from 3g a day to 1.65 grams a day and the anxiety and restlessness is definitally present. Bad withdrawal is in my future, and it has me on edge and mentally unstable.
Im not sure why Im even writing this. I cant tell anyone IRL because theyd think I was batshit crazy. So I guess basically:

1. These coincidences? They happen constantly. Im pretty sure im not imagining them, because when Im with close friends I will start pointing shit out and theyll get freaked out and agree with me its weird as fuck. One is even convinced Ive sold my soul to the devil and thats why it happens. Lol. When I hang out with B2 the coincidences become very pronounced.
 
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2. What the fuck would you do if you were in my position right now? I legitmitally love both B1 and B2. I would take a bullet for either of these girls. I hang out with both of them as friends. B1 is going through her own struggles and im trying to support her as best as i can. She got out of a mental facility a week before we started dating again. B2 may just be fucking with my head right now. She texts me every day, practically begs me to come hang out with her at night, and even texts me shit like "im horny" at 1am. All while she has a boyfriend. Im pretty sure if I legitmitally tried I could steal her back from him pretty easily.

But should I? If i do, my historys about to look like: I dated B1 then B2 then B1 then B2 again lol wtf kind of shit is that?
And to make it even weirder, before B1, I was dating a sexy ass Latino chick with THE SAME NAME as B1 and B2. And no i didnt plan the whole name thing. All of these girls just pop into my life when I least expect it. She moved away for a job, and I started dating B1 like a week after. I'm just waiting for this chick to randomly show up next time I go out somewhere and make my life that much more complicated. Lol. I'm losing my mind guys. B1 and B2 are both incredibly attractive sweet girls. I don't even know if I'm really trying to pick between them or trying to figure out what the hell is up with my life right now. The phenibut has my head feeling all weird and foggy. I'm sure withdrawal isn't going to be a pleasant time.

What would you do? I doubt anybody read this far. But I'd love some opinions. Am I just going insane?
 
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This was great. You're funny.

This is going to be a long story.
worth every second it took to read it.

I'll call her B1.
let's call her "Boono"
basically lived in this girls closet for 6 months while she hid me from her family.

lol
I had been introduced to a new girl, B2. Has the same name as B1.
we'll call her "Boono" as well

We did make out once, and I felt terrible for cheating on B1 but it just happened.
Did Boono catch you making out with Boono or were you just left to sully around with all of that pent up guilt indefinately?

When I met her strange things started happening. Whenever I'd randomly look at a clock it'd either be 1:11 or 11:11... I'll be walking down the street and when I walk under a street light it'll just turn off. Or one time we got into a crash, and the next day I was talking about it to one of my coworkers. As I'm talking about the car crash, my work mates car magically came out of park, rolled down the parkinglot, and smashed into our building. A couple days later a kid from my 9th grade English class came in to eat, and we were talking about how crazy our teacher used to be, when out of nowhere, this fucking crazy teacher who I hadn't seen in SIX YEARS comes running into our restaurant in a flamboyant red dress and cusses my boss out crying because she didn't hire her son. Lol.
This shit kept happening. Constantly. The clock thing is the weirdest. I'll see stuff like 1:11, 2:22, 11:11 etc and It's always when something significant is going on. I've even started tracking them. Like one day I'm riding around with some homies making sales, when we passed a cop by a park. I look at the clock and I notice It's 1:11. We go get something to eat, and on our way back to our neighborhood we pass another cop by the park and I notice its 2:22. We go to my buddies house and smoke, and on our way to drop me off, I notice were about 15 seconds to passing that same park and It's fucking 3:33. I shit you not I had a gut instinct and threw an ounce and a half of bud out the window into the woods, we go around the turn, and there's a cop right in front of us and he bluelights us. They search the whole car and find nothing. It was as if the universe was giving me hints about what was going to happen.

Did you toss out your weed at 4:44? If that's the case, there's one small hole in your story (and only the one): You wouldn't have had any weed left at this point because at 4:20 you would have smoked it all.

No matter... Anyhow, this one time I was racing RC cars on a little track in the bed of my truck while I was driving down the road and they collided, head-on. At that exact moment, I got into a head-on collision with another truck that was driving down the road... I looked at the clock and it was "7:77"... talk about weird!

There so much more crazy shit that's happened, I'd have to write a book to explain it all.
yes, please, yes.

Get this shit:
My birthdays 1/11, her birthday is 1/10.
We met on 10/11/2012.
I grew up down south, she grew up up north.
I have blonde hair, she has strawberry blonde hair.
I have blue eyes, she has greenish blue eyes.
I lived with my mom/dad, she lived with her aunt/uncle.
Ive slept around, this girl was a virgin.
I'm a druggie (recovering at this point lol), she's super straight edge.
I could keep going, but It's like every thing about us has this "similar but different" aspect to it.
I don't know, I think some of your 'coincidences' may just be 'incidences'.


(I ran out of space. If this is against the rules lemme know lol)
for future reference, you can just shrink the font so more text will fit, but I forgive you.:)

When she first heard my name (Joey), she thought he had said "Jelly". To this day that has been her nickname for me. But that's not the weird part, the weird part is my initials are JAM. Lmfao
no, no, LMFAO

Except she says this guy is a clone of her... ive seen pictures, this guy looks exactly like her lol
To avoid confusion, then, let's call him "Boono 2.0" (since they're clones)

So TWO DAYS after I move out of our apartment, Im at walmart shopping for some munchies, and who bumps into me? B1. I hadnt seen this girl since we broke up more than two years before. We get to talking, and she had been dating a guy for two years just like me, had been experiencing coincidences just like I had, and they had ended up breaking up ON THE SAME DAY me and B2 did.
So, let me get this straight... Boono was breaking up her identical twin, Boono 2.0, and, at the very same moment, Boono and Jelly were breaking up on the other side of town? Typical

So i start dating her again, two days after me and B2 break up. This was in febuary. We still got along perfectly, never argue. But i could not stop thinking about B2. Its as if she is pysically implanted into my brain I love this girl so much. So me and B1 break up, and now me and B2 are talking again.
naturally... but now I'm confused. At first you were dating Boono, but you cheated on her with Boono and before you knew it, you and Boono were dating... then you broke up with Boono on the same day Boono and Boono 2.0 broke up so you started dating Boono, but you couldn't stop thinking about Boono, so you broke up with Boono, and started dating Boono again?

...oh wait, nevermind, that makes total sense. Moving on.

Im on the tail end of a six or seven month phenibut addiction. Ive tapered down from 3g a day to 1.65 grams a day and the anxiety and restlessness is definitally present.
yeah, that phenibut stuff is no joke... fell into that trap myself.

Im not sure why Im even writing this. I cant tell anyone IRL because theyd think I was batshit crazy.
not if you told it with the same zest you've brought to the table here ;)

2. What the fuck would you do if you were in my position right now? I legitmitally love both B1 and B2. I would take a bullet for either of these girls. I hang out with both of them as friends. B1 is going through her own struggles and im trying to support her as best as i can. She got out of a mental facility a week before we started dating again. B2 may just be fucking with my head right now. She texts me every day, practically begs me to come hang out with her at night, and even texts me shit like "im horny" at 1am. All while she has a boyfriend. Im pretty sure if I legitmitally tried I could steal her back from him pretty easily.
You're going to have to choose, man. It's Boono or Boono... personally, I would probably go with Boono.

to make it even weirder, before B1, I was dating a sexy ass Latino chick with THE SAME NAME as B1 and B2. And no i didnt plan the whole name thing. All of these girls just pop into my life when I least expect it.
Her name was Boono?!?! What the fuck? My mind is blown, I just don't know what to say.

I'm losing my mind guys. B1 and B2 are both incredibly attractive sweet girls. I don't even know if I'm really trying to pick between them or trying to figure out what the hell is up with my life right now. The phenibut has my head feeling all weird and foggy. I'm sure withdrawal isn't going to be a pleasant time.
Yeah, withdrawal from phenibut can be quite unpleasant. I would suggest tapering slowly and jumping off at under 500mg. Use some neurontin or another gaba-a agonist very sparingly to ease the jump. Just don't go CT with no safety net... the suicidal ideation can be a total nightmare.

What would you do? I doubt anybody read this far. But I'd love some opinions. Am I just going insane?

I read every word... ravenously! The perceived level of enthusiasm you delivered with this made the experience engrossing. Marvelous. Anyhow, I think you'll just have to take a serious survey of your feelings and attempt to make a decision once and for all. If it were me, I wouldn't want to destroy Boono's relationship just so I could sweep in. I feel like the guilt would prevent the relationship from proceeding healthily. But it sounds like you are holding to affection for both Boono and Boono, so I don't know. It seems like you're always going to be thinking from that "Boono's grass is greener" frame of mind. You should probably see if Boono and Boono would be willing to sign on for a three-way sort of order... hell, if you're lucky they may let Boono join in, but you know what they say, "BoonoX3's company, and BoonoX3 and Jelly's a crowd"

Good luck buddy, Cheers!
 
Your response just made me laugh for a good 5 minuets. Lol.

There was a time when I was living with B1, she left me asleep in her bed to go buy us zaxbys. I woke up to her locked door being fucked with and heard her grandma and her aunt talking on the other side. I jumped up and hid at that part of the door where if they opened it I'd be behind it. Fucker's walked in and shut the door, to see me, a strange 18 year old dude in only his boxers, standing there.
The grandma was sane and just yelled at me to get out. A split second later her crazy aunt started punching me in the head screaming at the grandma to call the cops. I jumped on the bed and tried to break the fucking window to get out with no success. So I threw my bookbag on, all while getting slammed in the head by a crazy ass lady, and barged threw the grandma who was on the phone with the cops.
I had to run up a flight of stairs to get to the front door. So I booked it with the lady at this point screaming and grabbing the strap of my bag, STILL PUNCHING ME. She let go half way up and fell down the stairs. I made it about 10 houses down the road when I saw a cop coming around the corner. I jumped under the bushes in someone's front yard, in only my boxers and a bookbag in broad daylight. The whole block was flooded with cops within 5 minuets. They started jogging around with dogs and ran past me atleast 10 times.
While I was laying in the bushes, the owner of the house came out and MOWED HIS FRONT YARD. Didn't even notice me. The cops stopped and asked him if he had seen anyone running half naked around. Lol. I layed there for 2 hours. Then I got up and started jumping fences to get to a secluded little pond in my neighborhood my crew chills at. My buddy had heard what happened and was already waiting on me there with clothes. Lol
When I finally got busted for my warrents, I ended up having a new assault charge. The aunt had said I pushed her down the stairs. Lol. My lawyer beat it though. The funny thing is her grandma has severe dementia now, and the aunt moved. So I've been over there alot lately, and she doesn't even recognize me. XD

But Yeah. I know. I have to chose. B1 and B2 hate eachother. So a three way is unfortunately out of the question lol I'm about ready to just move out of state and never date another B again in my life. I have a weakness for these girls though smh

Seriously though, your response made my night. Thank you.

And no, B1 has no idea I made out with B2 while we were dating. One of the main reasons I broke up with B1 recently, is because I had regained contact with B2 and refused to let myself end up cheating on B1 again. So now I'm just single. Lol.
 
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I'm glad you liked it. The level of detail you've incorporated just had me so stoked I felt like it warranted a thorough reply... like "she left... to go buy us zaxbys", that's priceless for some reason. The story only gets more ridiculous the more of it you tell. I wouldn't even believe it, but it's just too silly to have been fabricated. I'm going to have to subscribe to your forum posts or something.

I'm glad Boono never found out you made out with Boono. That could have been tragic. It's a wonder she didn't catch you at 12:34 or something strange like that.

But yeah, you'll have to choose. I know it's gotta be tough... they both sound so alluring, but you can't just bounce back and forth or you're just going to end up single and Boono, Boono, Boono, and Boono 2.0 are going to wind up having a gang-fuck in your honor, and you'll know they're doing it just to drive you insane, but they're just going to be enjoying it so damned much. And you'll just be sitting there alone, crying and spankin' it.

I'm sure hiding under that bush getting blasted with lawn clippings must have sucked, but it sounds vastly superior to getting simultaneously strap-grabbed, yelled at, and punched by Boono's psycho aunt... that woman sounds like a fucking beast!
 
Lol I know man. Im just bouncing from one to the other over and over. I feel like even if I meet a new girl at this point she's going to find out about my history and be scared as fuck to try and date me. I'm not sure how or why B1 and B2 take me back after everything thats happened. I may as well just try and come to an agreement that I date B1 for half the year and B2 the other half. Doubt that would go over well though. Lol.
 
I would just like to bump this thread, and say that I've fucked it up with both these girls and neither of them want anything to do with me now.

Life. Lol.
 
No matter... Anyhow, this one time I was racing RC cars on a little track in the bed of my truck while I was driving down the road and they collided, head-on. At that exact moment, I got into a head-on collision with another truck that was driving down the road... I looked at the clock and it was "7:77"... talk about weird!

I keep trying to picture that in my head.....

That's some crazy shit yo =D
 
Okay. I have to bump this thread again.

B1 is now pregnant, and hit me up today saying her and her new boyfriend broke up and that we should go get a place together. I'm 98% certain she wants to get back together.

B2 also hit me up today, saying we should be friends with benefits.

How fucking weird is it that they both are trying to get with me on the same exact day? My mind is fucking blown. I just don't understand my life man. Why does it always come down to me having to chose between one or the other?
 
most readable thread in a long time. yes the withdrawl can make you go crazy, yes it will be awful but you will get through it

as for the co-incidences your not the only one who gets these and talking about them in real life will make you sound crazy so here is a good space to vent.

get your addiction sorted out first and then worry about women after
 
Im actually off phenibut now. I tapered off back in July. It was a terrible experience Lol
 
Don't let your delusions take you away. Man... People see those numbers and it means nothing. Think how many numbers you see a day. Hundreds of digits, clocks, gas prices, receipts, on your computer.., chances are youll see "special" numbers. you will notice and remember 12.34 or 11:11 cuz they're "special" whereas you'll forget "random" (3.28 12.05) times and numbers and forget them. I forget what it's called, confirmation bias?

You give meaning to events. Events themselves are meaningless. Don't get carried away looking between the lines
 
Okay whooooooo. Come at me again, after you get yourself some Valiums! mhm!
Seriously, ask your doctor if taking them would be right for you, >.< because they just make you more relaxed, to the point that none of the numbers, nor the synchronicities, even matter any more. <3

Pick one girl, quit wasting time!! stop wasting their time! jeez :|
 
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