an empty shell

[KiDdIe]

i feel so used, so empty
i'm so unsure of everything.
What's up, what's down
i just don't know anymore.
i'm and empty shell
no purpose
no point of direction
no use or the will to live } chorus
so what should i do?
keep living this life.
Slowly dying, slowly losing my mind
aching for something new.
heart stopping for nothing.
nothing to go on,
nothing to hold on to.
But is that what i deserve?
Did i do something so horrible
to cause this karma reaction
if so WHAT!!!!
what could i have done
that was so bad.....
is it that i'm the black sheep?
that spreads it's wool
through your veins.
entangled...
caught like in a spider trap.
is it my tretourase(sp) being
that signals this casue & effect reation?
a domino set if you will
all lined up to perfection.
am i branded for life with the disease of darkness?
i'm an empty shell
no purpose
no point of direction
no use or the will to live
so what should i do?
do i not take this life seriosly?
this world is to much of a joke not to.
Do i not feel guilty enough
that people die everyday.
as if death is something un-narutal
something to fear.
am i paying for my mother's sins
from a god i do not believe in?
i'm just an empty shell
no purpose
no point of direction