I took AMT for the first time couple days ago. I had 3 hits - In a capsule(about 30-40mg), smoked it(about 40-60mg) and smoked it on the top of the bong(about 60-90mg). Felt the first hit after about 30-50 mins, just enough to see, what it could be like. Then smoked the next hit and had visuals after. Me and my mates were doing it for the first time, it was 4 of us. 2 of them never took psychedelics, therefore I didn't recommend to take a third hit (they took two). Me and my other friend are more experienced drug takers (not addicts though :D), our favourite drug is acid (lsd), and we heard that AMT is similar to acid. And it was, in a way... After they all took 2 hits, I took another one, but because your tolerance builds up very fast during the night, my last dosage was enhanced, furthermore, it was on the top of the weed, and I took it in a bong.
At first it was quite fun, we laughed a lot, but then I clicked that I start to hear my mates voices in my head. I thought it was telepathy, so I started to test it, by trying to make them to do things in my mind. To be honest, at that moment I started tripping balls... It felt and looked like they actually hear me in their heads as well, but they didn't. It was just me going paranoid in my head, because I took that third hit. Then, my mind was like a spiral-sort-of-thing. It felt like what is happening now was meant to happen and I just forgot about the worries and lied down to listen to some music. Then I started to worry even more, because I know for a fact, that room was silent, therefore I shouldn't hear anything, but I heard my mates voices even louder and clearer. At that point I've started to lose my mind. I did things that I wouldn't normally do, like, went aggressive, because my mates didn't hear me in their heads. Then I felt like something was going terribly wrong. At that point I've noticed that I was stuck in the loop - life-death cycle was the most common thought in my mind. It felt like I was going to die, if I either go to sleep, or take more AMT. Luckily I realized it in time and tried to pull myself together. My brain was telling me - "If you don't want something to happen, make it change, start from yourself" or something like that. I said out loud: "No, drugs, bad" and this thought was my second main component of the loop.
I have lost my mind on my first time on acid, and it felt a bit harder to get out from the loop and snap back to reality, but on AMT it was like, I know what is happening, I know it's a drug and it will wear off soon, I know I'm in the loop, but I couldn't do anything about getting out from it. Then my friends started to worry about me, and the one with psychedelic experience tried to bring me out from it. He said, he was going to call someone, and I realized, that if he calls ambulance, it wouldn't end up well. I started to think, what can I do to prevent it. Then again, the loop idea appeared in my head and my brain started to simulate the possible outcomes and look for the most efficient solution. It was anti-loop. Loops appear mostly when you just kind of flow with the trip (and I think that loops on lsd are a lot more enjoyable
), so in my mind I was trying to change myself and it kind of worked. I just gave up my stubbornness and and followed friend's advises - drink water, go outside for some fresh air and lie down, get my thinking straight. But because I still was in the loop, it took me a while to do these simple things. Smoking a joint after I gave up was heaven-like.
In my opinion, comedown from AMT compared to the comedown from LSD was like heaven. I don't mean that LSD comedowns are that bad, but on AMT you go really, really deep in your mind and explore it. Just exploring it makes it feel so weird, its like tripping on a different level. It felt like I was in a different dimension. I would never get that paranoid when I'm sober (I'm a well balance-minded person, it's hard to shake my mind balance
) but that time it was as if I was someone completely different, even my mates told me that :D
Anyway, AMT is very,very intense drug. Compared to acid, I'd say it's like at least 3-4 times more intense, and you don't really get the self-rewarding feeling, like you get on acid. In general, I wouldn't recommend it as a first psychedelic, but its alright to take after you take other psychedelics quite a few times. I took acid about 6-8 times, took MDMA about 4-6 times, and that kind of gave me enough experience to handle the intentness and trips (even though I've lost my mind, I sort of enjoyed the trip). Just like on acid, I've enjoyed my bad trips. Its all the mater of not over-thinking stuff. Whatever was happening was just a drug.
In the comedown stage, when my mind was a bit more sober, I could tell that I enjoyed the drug, even though it was quite rough
. I wouldn't take it again just for the sake of taking it, but if at any time in the future I'd be offered to take it, I probably would, since it wasn't planned and I know how losing your mind on AMT feels like.
As for the previous post, when you get in the bad trip, your brain does tells you to reprogram yourself in a way
