I apologize in advance if this topic has been initiated before, but all I could find were discussions comparing the chemistry and effects between Methamphetamine and regular Amphetamine. The answer I'm looking for is the extent of personality and brain chemistry changes resulting from the abuse of either chemical. Is it the same?
I really hate to admit this, but even after reading memoirs and watching documentaries emphasizing the destructive nature of meth, I still decided to pursue a script for Vyvanse. I'd been in college with no real direction, so I believed the Vyvanse would make a difference. It did, I could study for hours on end, and got B's in classes I flunked before. But now after a year, it's starting to get a out of control. Here's an example: After 3-4 days of abstinence, I feel like my normal self. I could go to the gym, eat well, have no cigarette cravings and no impulsive behavior. The only problem is I cannot for the life of me get my school work done. However, when I dose again, school work is not a problem. The problem is every part of my life that doesn't revolve around academics. I chain-smoke a pack a day, feel like death if I attempt my normal work-out routine, and the thing causing the most problems is compulsive gambling. Normally, I HATE doing these activities, but it seems as though the amphetamine is developing a new person in me. On top of all this, I sometimes re-dose multiple times in a day (I'm currently prescribed 40mg)
I just wanna know if this is typical in Meth Addiction as well, and if I'm doing permanent brain damage or predisposing myself for future psychiatric conditions(parkinsons, stroke, etc.) I tried to quit b4, but the school work always leads me back to it. I've tried Piracetam as an alternative, but it gave me nothing but drowsiness and bad headaches. If anyone has any recommendations for study-aids, any advice would be greatly appreciated.
I really hate to admit this, but even after reading memoirs and watching documentaries emphasizing the destructive nature of meth, I still decided to pursue a script for Vyvanse. I'd been in college with no real direction, so I believed the Vyvanse would make a difference. It did, I could study for hours on end, and got B's in classes I flunked before. But now after a year, it's starting to get a out of control. Here's an example: After 3-4 days of abstinence, I feel like my normal self. I could go to the gym, eat well, have no cigarette cravings and no impulsive behavior. The only problem is I cannot for the life of me get my school work done. However, when I dose again, school work is not a problem. The problem is every part of my life that doesn't revolve around academics. I chain-smoke a pack a day, feel like death if I attempt my normal work-out routine, and the thing causing the most problems is compulsive gambling. Normally, I HATE doing these activities, but it seems as though the amphetamine is developing a new person in me. On top of all this, I sometimes re-dose multiple times in a day (I'm currently prescribed 40mg)
I just wanna know if this is typical in Meth Addiction as well, and if I'm doing permanent brain damage or predisposing myself for future psychiatric conditions(parkinsons, stroke, etc.) I tried to quit b4, but the school work always leads me back to it. I've tried Piracetam as an alternative, but it gave me nothing but drowsiness and bad headaches. If anyone has any recommendations for study-aids, any advice would be greatly appreciated.