ambivalence

I'm come to a state of ambivalence. Live, Die, whats the differnece anymore. According to S. its suffering either way. I feel my self slipping and I'm trying to hold on. I try to find projects to busy my mind since right now I'm on week 2 on leave without pay. thanks for the notification, not.Its not like its Christmas or I have bills or anything.

I'm thinking about mixing up a pill and alcohol cocktail...since being with people and finding a project didn't work.

I'm just trying to figure this world out...

 

Well that shit works better than ambien ever did.
See the issue with blogs is no one ever reads them.