SoupMane
Bluelighter
NOT MY PROUDEST MOMENT 
okay first of all im drunk as shit and i dont care to hear any clever remarks about my reports boring you, what you did is unsafe and reckless, etc etc i know what i did was very stupid and possibly dangrerous to my health blah blah fuckinass blah and if my reports bore you than please kindly get the mothershit out...
with that said...
I awoke at 5am because my girl had to go to work...this meant i had to skate 2 dozen or so blocks home...so naturally i pop 30mg amphetamine and 20mg ambien, pack a bowl, kiss my girl goodbye, strap on my headphones and i procede to skate and smoke myslef home...
As it usually does on ambien, time passes very quickly...idont really feel much from the amps because of my massive amphetamine tolerance, but i will admit i didn't really feel like going back to sleep for several hours like i normally would have (yeah, i sleep on amps alot, its probably not a good sign). i dicked around on the internet for awhile and before i knew it, it was around seven...my little brothers were leaving for school and because i didn't really get much of an effect from the 20mg ambien (at least not of the intesity i was looking for) i decided to pop another 20mg as well as another 30mg amphetamine. i packed several bowls and went outside to smoke...
as much as an hour later, still i am not feeling the desired ambien effects i am chasing! Ambien can go several ways when you take it...sometimes it just feels like a weird out of place benzo high... and sometimes it feels like a fullblown psychedelic... anyway i was getting the first of the two which was not what i was looking for
i can't tell you what happened to the time, but only a few hours later i found myself on bluelight reading about the sollubility of ambien...uh oh! yeah i popped another one and snorted one...not my proudest moment, snorting ambien, that is...
once again several hours flew by, i recorded a few hip hop tracks, worked on the website, and before i knew it, 'twas around 5pm and somewhere in there i managed to neck down another 30mg amphetamine. now until this time i had pretty much forgotten about it, but i started to come out of my ambien haze (i STILL hadn't gotten desired effects!) HOLY SHIT WAS I FEELING GEEKED. Waaaaay too much adderall, and now my stupid ass had to deal with the consiquences! On top of that, i was starting to feel the effects of sleep deprivation. A general feeling of discomfot and dysphoria spread over me. I became very panicky. I should also note i'd been smoking very decent green this entire time. Time was passing VERY slowly, my head was fucking racing, my vision was starting distort (not pleasant at all), I began to wonder/worry if i was feeling ambien withdrawl and began to wonder about ambien addiction. These paranoid thoughts eventually passed, but nonetheless i felt sketchy as SHIT, there was no relaxing. My muscles were all tense, my jaw sore, etc etc.
My buddy mc creamator came over to fuck around on the mic with me. The good company eased me a little bit, but i was SICK of feeling sooooo amped out, my stomache ached as i had barely eaten, i longed for sleep although i knew it was impossible. I couldn't take it any longer, i decided i didn't care about the consequences, i had to take two more ambien...
I popped them and we started playing around on the mic, computer, etc. I waited a few minutes for the ambien to work its way into my system and i packed a bowl. We went outside to smoke it and when we came back into the house I WAS INCREADIBLY BLASTED. THIS time i REALLY felt the ambien, i also felt very amped and sleep deprived, but the thc complimented the ambien strongly! I finally was feeling the effects that i wanted from the ambien... then i realised i may be feeling even more than i had bargained for!
I was very confused in general, i found it near impossible to stop laughing, and i felt my headspace quickly shift and morph until i was in a state i can only describe to you as tripping. Please save the 'ambien is nota psychedelic' debate for another time, in my extensive experience, ambien especially when combined with other chemicals can produce an experience very very similar to a psychedelic/dissassociative experience...
I started talking gibberish. C noticed i was definately acting weird, but i had given him 20mg ambien as well and he had already indulged in plenty of xanax and grapefruit juice so he wasn't acting all that normal either. My corner-of-the-eye visuals quickly became full-blown OEVs that would last a few seconds and then fade, leaving me thinking "what the fucking was that, what the fuck is actually happening? seriously..." C's head appered to have cybernetics in his face, and he was wearing a futuristic red space-helmet with antennas on either side. This is when i knew i could no longer believe what i was seeing was real...I took another ambien for good measure...
We proceeded to record a hip hop track over this dope beat i was really feeling...it was as if i 'knew' what i was 'supposed' to say before i said it, so i felt as if we were laying down a real good track... rofl i should have known i listened to it thenext day and sure, we stayed on beat, but we both rapped about absolute nonsense (taking ambien and chiefing with god and his friends, taking alprazolams from his mom, etc etc)! The track is definately a good laugh tho knowing the condition we were in. I wont post a link here since BlueAdonis seems to think im 'shamelessly self-promoting in a happyland dairy playground' or something along those lines, but if you want to hear it pm me or email me [email protected] ...
My mom knocked on the door. She was bringing me my evening meds. Yeah, two more ambien...of course i swallowed them without a second thought. Well Cees had to go home so i smoked out with him one last time and sent him on his way, making plans to instant message him that night. I did so, and once again i was startint to come out of the ambien-haze and i did not like it one bit. I skated over to his house and ate .75mg xanax and drank some grapefruit juice which i had never done before, which is suprising becuase of my extensive benzo experience coupled wiht the fact that im a fiend and i want to get the verymost out of every chemical i posess... anyway,
smoked a few more bowls, skated home, and as ALWAYS even a TINY amount of benzos wreaked havok on my judgement. I suddenly found myself thinking it would be a great idea to take 4 of thse otc sleeping pills i found in the cabinet. They contained pseudo-e, some delierient (i think the one thats in nyquil or something), and dxm. Please Note: I do not condone or think that my behavior at this point was cool, i would never, ever abuse delierients or the like anymore in a clearer state of mind as i hate the living shit out of them...i just seemed to forget that fact..., but i would be reminded soon!
Give it an hour or so...its now aroud 2AM and im still sitting on my computer! My eyes burn, my head is basically swimming, im exausted yet still sorta amped...my judgement is horrible! i decided to eat 100mg diphenhydramine. sutpid, stupid, stupid. please dont do it, spare yourself the bullshit.
Somewhere in the back of my head i knew that i'd better be sleeping soon or i was very possibly going to have a very hellish experience. By 3am i hadbeen on the computer for almost 22 hours straight or something redicilous like that. I layed down and passed out.
The next day I FELT LIKE ASS. Assed out, strung out, very tired, head still swimming...i felt significantly dumber. I moaned as i slowly remembered why i felt so horrible and then ifelt even worse because of the retarted actions i had taken the night before.
okay first of all im drunk as shit and i dont care to hear any clever remarks about my reports boring you, what you did is unsafe and reckless, etc etc i know what i did was very stupid and possibly dangrerous to my health blah blah fuckinass blah and if my reports bore you than please kindly get the mothershit out...
with that said...
I awoke at 5am because my girl had to go to work...this meant i had to skate 2 dozen or so blocks home...so naturally i pop 30mg amphetamine and 20mg ambien, pack a bowl, kiss my girl goodbye, strap on my headphones and i procede to skate and smoke myslef home...
As it usually does on ambien, time passes very quickly...idont really feel much from the amps because of my massive amphetamine tolerance, but i will admit i didn't really feel like going back to sleep for several hours like i normally would have (yeah, i sleep on amps alot, its probably not a good sign). i dicked around on the internet for awhile and before i knew it, it was around seven...my little brothers were leaving for school and because i didn't really get much of an effect from the 20mg ambien (at least not of the intesity i was looking for) i decided to pop another 20mg as well as another 30mg amphetamine. i packed several bowls and went outside to smoke...
as much as an hour later, still i am not feeling the desired ambien effects i am chasing! Ambien can go several ways when you take it...sometimes it just feels like a weird out of place benzo high... and sometimes it feels like a fullblown psychedelic... anyway i was getting the first of the two which was not what i was looking for
i can't tell you what happened to the time, but only a few hours later i found myself on bluelight reading about the sollubility of ambien...uh oh! yeah i popped another one and snorted one...not my proudest moment, snorting ambien, that is...
once again several hours flew by, i recorded a few hip hop tracks, worked on the website, and before i knew it, 'twas around 5pm and somewhere in there i managed to neck down another 30mg amphetamine. now until this time i had pretty much forgotten about it, but i started to come out of my ambien haze (i STILL hadn't gotten desired effects!) HOLY SHIT WAS I FEELING GEEKED. Waaaaay too much adderall, and now my stupid ass had to deal with the consiquences! On top of that, i was starting to feel the effects of sleep deprivation. A general feeling of discomfot and dysphoria spread over me. I became very panicky. I should also note i'd been smoking very decent green this entire time. Time was passing VERY slowly, my head was fucking racing, my vision was starting distort (not pleasant at all), I began to wonder/worry if i was feeling ambien withdrawl and began to wonder about ambien addiction. These paranoid thoughts eventually passed, but nonetheless i felt sketchy as SHIT, there was no relaxing. My muscles were all tense, my jaw sore, etc etc.
My buddy mc creamator came over to fuck around on the mic with me. The good company eased me a little bit, but i was SICK of feeling sooooo amped out, my stomache ached as i had barely eaten, i longed for sleep although i knew it was impossible. I couldn't take it any longer, i decided i didn't care about the consequences, i had to take two more ambien...
I popped them and we started playing around on the mic, computer, etc. I waited a few minutes for the ambien to work its way into my system and i packed a bowl. We went outside to smoke it and when we came back into the house I WAS INCREADIBLY BLASTED. THIS time i REALLY felt the ambien, i also felt very amped and sleep deprived, but the thc complimented the ambien strongly! I finally was feeling the effects that i wanted from the ambien... then i realised i may be feeling even more than i had bargained for!
I was very confused in general, i found it near impossible to stop laughing, and i felt my headspace quickly shift and morph until i was in a state i can only describe to you as tripping. Please save the 'ambien is nota psychedelic' debate for another time, in my extensive experience, ambien especially when combined with other chemicals can produce an experience very very similar to a psychedelic/dissassociative experience...
I started talking gibberish. C noticed i was definately acting weird, but i had given him 20mg ambien as well and he had already indulged in plenty of xanax and grapefruit juice so he wasn't acting all that normal either. My corner-of-the-eye visuals quickly became full-blown OEVs that would last a few seconds and then fade, leaving me thinking "what the fucking was that, what the fuck is actually happening? seriously..." C's head appered to have cybernetics in his face, and he was wearing a futuristic red space-helmet with antennas on either side. This is when i knew i could no longer believe what i was seeing was real...I took another ambien for good measure...
We proceeded to record a hip hop track over this dope beat i was really feeling...it was as if i 'knew' what i was 'supposed' to say before i said it, so i felt as if we were laying down a real good track... rofl i should have known i listened to it thenext day and sure, we stayed on beat, but we both rapped about absolute nonsense (taking ambien and chiefing with god and his friends, taking alprazolams from his mom, etc etc)! The track is definately a good laugh tho knowing the condition we were in. I wont post a link here since BlueAdonis seems to think im 'shamelessly self-promoting in a happyland dairy playground' or something along those lines, but if you want to hear it pm me or email me [email protected] ...
My mom knocked on the door. She was bringing me my evening meds. Yeah, two more ambien...of course i swallowed them without a second thought. Well Cees had to go home so i smoked out with him one last time and sent him on his way, making plans to instant message him that night. I did so, and once again i was startint to come out of the ambien-haze and i did not like it one bit. I skated over to his house and ate .75mg xanax and drank some grapefruit juice which i had never done before, which is suprising becuase of my extensive benzo experience coupled wiht the fact that im a fiend and i want to get the verymost out of every chemical i posess... anyway,
smoked a few more bowls, skated home, and as ALWAYS even a TINY amount of benzos wreaked havok on my judgement. I suddenly found myself thinking it would be a great idea to take 4 of thse otc sleeping pills i found in the cabinet. They contained pseudo-e, some delierient (i think the one thats in nyquil or something), and dxm. Please Note: I do not condone or think that my behavior at this point was cool, i would never, ever abuse delierients or the like anymore in a clearer state of mind as i hate the living shit out of them...i just seemed to forget that fact..., but i would be reminded soon!
Give it an hour or so...its now aroud 2AM and im still sitting on my computer! My eyes burn, my head is basically swimming, im exausted yet still sorta amped...my judgement is horrible! i decided to eat 100mg diphenhydramine. sutpid, stupid, stupid. please dont do it, spare yourself the bullshit.
Somewhere in the back of my head i knew that i'd better be sleeping soon or i was very possibly going to have a very hellish experience. By 3am i hadbeen on the computer for almost 22 hours straight or something redicilous like that. I layed down and passed out.
The next day I FELT LIKE ASS. Assed out, strung out, very tired, head still swimming...i felt significantly dumber. I moaned as i slowly remembered why i felt so horrible and then ifelt even worse because of the retarted actions i had taken the night before.
