Am2201 and 5fpb22 addiction and recovery help:(

[tony2dope]

To cut this fairly short I have been addicted to synthetic cannibinoids in pure powder form for 4 years, give or take 2-3 grams a week.

Started on am2201 powder on tobacco bongs then once banned switched to 5f pb22 in roll ups dosing every hour from 4pm and then throughout the night at roughly 1 hour intervals.

Using alone in my flat, finally decided I was a slave and it had to go as its all I did smoke and sleep.

I'm 31 years old male 6'2 and around 14 stone in weight I have a fairly healthy diet but not much appetite during addiction so have lost weight ,attend gym twice a week and resistance train. during day would not smoke it.

So cold turkey no meds or benzos, been hell last 5 days didn't sleep or eat for 3 got an hour sleep and a snack day 4.

Symptoms have been as follows:
Severe anxiety/paranoia
No appetite
Shaking
Crying
Suicidal thoughts
Complete insomnia
No concentration
Restless legs
Watering eyes and nose
Difficult to walk
Hard to talk slight stammer
Racing fluttery heart
Delusions
Stomach pain
Kidney pain

Not really craved the drug infact it repulses me at this second I felt a bit better today which is 5 days clean and did sleep last night with a roast dinner and some 5htp but feel extremely out of it mentally, eyes out of focus 1000 yard stare etc

So I'm hoping to hear from anyone else with a similar long term cannabinoid addiction did you recover fully? How long until mental capacity improves? Will I ever return to normal?

Will add prior to this addiction I have used 6-apb and Mxe fairly extensively before bans and cannabis since 18 daily, also tried most other drugs and research chrmicals over the years but not heavily had a 3ml a day GBL habit for 2 years during early 20s but only one dose a day

I have doc appointment Friday with psy doc what is he likely to suggest?

I just want my life back, I'm expecting damage has been done but it's such an little known chem compared to heroin, crack etc I'm struggling to find much detail on long term addiction and recovery.

Will add I did stop for 3 months last January but used benzodiazepines and had family support (this time nothing) similar withdrawal but I can't remember how I felt and only swapped it for alcohol and etizolam before quickly relapsing :/

Anyone?

 

[herbavore]

Hi Tony, major props for attempting this anew. I'm sorry that I don't have anything to offer in the way of experience but I didn't want you to get discourged at the lack of responses so far. Sometimes when you see the number of views and no responses it can feel like no one cares. It's an illusion based on the sheer numbers of people that browse these forums as both guests and members and eventually someone will connect with your experience. So hang tight.

One of the best things that you can do is to try to engage in enough activity that you are not completely focused on the symptoms you are having in WD, because that only increases your anxiety about damage, etc. Try to focus on taking small steps to put in place support for staying off once you've suffered through. What will you need to do that?

 

[DrGreenthumb]

I've heard of quite a few people who quit synthetic cannabinoids & were ok after a harsh withdrawal period which might last for a few weeks. Some real cannabis will probably help a bit.

 

[tony2dope]

Thankyou for the responses, physically at nearly a weeks abstinence I don't feel overly bad first 3 days were unbearable.

I'm now eating some nutritious food but the insomnia is driving me crazy! Crying spells are fewer.

Once I start sleeping again I know the real recovery can begin but am apprehensive to use benzos as last time they seemed to cause quite a bit of rebound anxiety during the day.

My main problem and something I need to bring up with the docs on Friday is maintaining clear of drugs and alcohol long enough to fully recover instead of waiting 3 months and either starting back on the noids (far to easy and cheap to order) or finding some other substance to drown my sorrows in!

I'm hoping to be prescribed something that can get me motivated as I feel my gravitation towards drugs has always been caused by low dopamine (not serotonin as gp seems to insist)

Have been prescribed numerous ssri in the past and they make me feel terrible sluggish and unmotivated.

As for real cannabis unfortunately it's unattainable due to ridiculous costs, under weight deals and the fact I live in drug free shared housing

 

[tony2dope]

To add i did find some encouraging stories by typing k2 addiction into Google quite a few long term addicts stories about and some very encouraging tales of full recoveries, I'm aware this k2 is a blend similar to what used to be sold as spice in uk but the effects mentioned seem very similar to mine.