I used to abuse MDMA fairly regularly. Everything was fine, I was happy, ect. One day it all came crashing down. On the suicide mondays (two days) after rolling I took a nap. I had a dream inside of a dream inside of a dream. In the dream I would be doing some random things, but somehow I would always fuck up and I would wake up, then wake up (still not conscious, still dreaming). The final portion of my dream was me and a bunch of people pulling off a bank heist. We had guns and I we talked briefly before going into the bank. I told everyone that we had the guns as a precaution, and do NOT shoot anyone or everything we worked for will end. No deaths and we can escape fine, there will be no blood. We pull off the heist and we're escaping, somehow I get cornered by a cop, I shoot him in the head with a rifle. I messed up. It's all my fault. My life flashes before my eyes, then I wake up....then I wake up....I get up and question my existence (I didn't think I existed, because it is very possible for everything to be a dream.)
Do not abuse MDxx.
Agreed.
But it's just a ton of fun to do it each weekend...I dunno I kinda have an addictive personality I guess...
You ended up where you are now because you "do lines of other drugs every day", not because of the MDMA abuse. Don't blame your problems on MDMA.I can totally understand where your coming from.
In high school I did E a couple time randomly through grade 10 and grade 11 I probably started doing them 5 times a month, I wouldnt be able to count the total amount i've done by now (2 yrs out of highschool).
Even though I was trying to be careful not to abuse it at first, I eventually started to care less and take more. 1 pill didnt make me feel as good anymore and I got careless and started taking 5 and up each time and would drink and do lines of coke at the same time.
There's also a few times where we would try soo hard to find some that put us in dangerous situations, I've gotten bad pills laced with god knows what making me bad trip for hours and hours.
Now, I do MDMA everynow and then, but I do lines of other drugs every day fro the past two years, and it all starts from when the wanting to do it more and more gets out of control to the point where you depend on it and its harder to have fun without.
So, in conclusion as fun as it is, you don't wanna end up where I am now it sucks. I would say keep it on occasions and don't let the dosage or frequency increase.
-P. xo
You ended up where you are now because you "do lines of other drugs every day", not because of the MDMA abuse. Don't blame your problems on MDMA.
The most useful observation one can make in this thread, from my perspective, is that all of the people who have abused MDMA before are suggesting that you not, and those that have not seem much less concerned. This is a pretty good indicator of some sort of reason.
I also noticed that I would have trouble forming sentences, or trying to explain things. Like the thoughts were there but they would get jumbled on their way out of my mouth.
