Jimity
Bluelighter
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I assume this is the right forum to post in, but I'm sure someone will tell me if it isnt.
Ok, first things first. I'm 19. Six feet tall, 56kg (I've ALWAYS been underweight), male, and physcially healthy.
I need some advice. Obviosuily it has to do with drugs. I only started using drugs about 6-8 months ago. My general useage is my going out to clubs once a month or maybe twice if im lucky and pilling. I'll usually take 1-2 pills, some amiyl nitrite and smoke a couple of cones. During the week I might smoke 2 or 3 cones at a mates place once or twice a week. Thats about it.
All my drug using friends dont say a word about how much I use, however, everyone else that knows I use drugs tries to brand me as an addict. I've been completly shunned out of one circle of friends who I thought were close friends. Lately, their insults, talking behind my back and rumour milling has begun to get to me, and made me wonder if I *am* an addict.
For instance, the other night, a customer at work discovered I was a spacecadet and decided to go tell my boss, seconds after swearing he would never disclose it. This led to her saying "Be careful who you tell things to", (even though I never told him). Then the next day a workfriend of mine tells me my other boss believes I am bringing my "Drug related problems" into the workplace. I was completly unaware I *HAD* drug problems.
Everytime the topic of drugs come up, and I try to defend myself (I research my drugs, I test everything, I dont use drugs alone etc etc), they tell me I am in denial and "thats what a junkie would say". It drives me insane.
My drug use doesnt affect my health, fininacial security or work life (besides people talking about me behind my back). Whats the go? DO I have a problem? I dont think I do, but I'd love some advice on the topic.
Ok, first things first. I'm 19. Six feet tall, 56kg (I've ALWAYS been underweight), male, and physcially healthy.
I need some advice. Obviosuily it has to do with drugs. I only started using drugs about 6-8 months ago. My general useage is my going out to clubs once a month or maybe twice if im lucky and pilling. I'll usually take 1-2 pills, some amiyl nitrite and smoke a couple of cones. During the week I might smoke 2 or 3 cones at a mates place once or twice a week. Thats about it.
All my drug using friends dont say a word about how much I use, however, everyone else that knows I use drugs tries to brand me as an addict. I've been completly shunned out of one circle of friends who I thought were close friends. Lately, their insults, talking behind my back and rumour milling has begun to get to me, and made me wonder if I *am* an addict.
For instance, the other night, a customer at work discovered I was a spacecadet and decided to go tell my boss, seconds after swearing he would never disclose it. This led to her saying "Be careful who you tell things to", (even though I never told him). Then the next day a workfriend of mine tells me my other boss believes I am bringing my "Drug related problems" into the workplace. I was completly unaware I *HAD* drug problems.
Everytime the topic of drugs come up, and I try to defend myself (I research my drugs, I test everything, I dont use drugs alone etc etc), they tell me I am in denial and "thats what a junkie would say". It drives me insane.
My drug use doesnt affect my health, fininacial security or work life (besides people talking about me behind my back). Whats the go? DO I have a problem? I dont think I do, but I'd love some advice on the topic.