Hey guys i have a couple troubles on my mind, I dont use any drugs since december im just 18 , i started smoke weed when i was 14 and in the past years i tryed mushrooms, cocaine, weed mixed with metadone, salvia div, ketamine , mescaline and in september i tryed for my first time Mdma , the first time was quite good but i just tried a small dose, the second time after a week i was in a rave party i just drinked 1g in a bottle of wather and i felt so good then after a couple hours i was going down so bought another gram and i snorked it and then i ate some pizza and smoke some weed, and after 20 min i was so sick I had the feeling to vomit but i couldnt vomit the pizza was stucked in the middle of my chest then i couldnt move my legs and i had terrible anxiety my friends bringed me to the parking and i begins drink so many wather, i started to have bad hallucinations like everything around me moves up and down and it rolled for 3-4 hours , the baddest trip of my life, then i just lay down on a bench for all night along like a zombie.
The days following i had so much anxiety during the days like rapid heartbeat breathless etc. and when i try smoke weed the anxiety was stronger. in november i went for my second time in amsterdam for my last trip but it wasnt so fun the anxiesty was still there every time i puff some joints. When i come back i stopped with everything even alchool, i went to a psychologist for 2 month but i had to stop cause of money ( i was paying him not my parents).
During al this time i still have a strange anxiety like dizziness, depersonalization i feel like im totally out from the real and some times from my body and the fact who make me angry is that im not even smoking weed, the few times when i hang with my friends everyone smoke or get high and i just stuck like a dumb thats why im not hangin out anymore my life is like school-gym-house and im so tired about that
PS. sorry for my bad english
The days following i had so much anxiety during the days like rapid heartbeat breathless etc. and when i try smoke weed the anxiety was stronger. in november i went for my second time in amsterdam for my last trip but it wasnt so fun the anxiesty was still there every time i puff some joints. When i come back i stopped with everything even alchool, i went to a psychologist for 2 month but i had to stop cause of money ( i was paying him not my parents).
During al this time i still have a strange anxiety like dizziness, depersonalization i feel like im totally out from the real and some times from my body and the fact who make me angry is that im not even smoking weed, the few times when i hang with my friends everyone smoke or get high and i just stuck like a dumb thats why im not hangin out anymore my life is like school-gym-house and im so tired about that
PS. sorry for my bad english
