sm0kestack
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What's up everyone? I am just looking for a matter of opinion here. I am very experienced with opiate usage and opiate withdrawal. I have been to detox several times, and have done cold turkey WD in jails cells multiple times, but during the last year or so my use of both opiates and bupe, pretty much has not ceased at all completely.
A little background if my opiate usage up until about a year ago. I first struggled with opiate dependency from when I acquired an OC habit back in February 2009. From there, inevitably I moved up to shooting OC and heroin both. In 2009 I had also became familiar with suboxone. Since then I had quite a few withdrawals and dry time from multiple incarcerations and prison stints. The longest one being a 2 year stretch which ended in October 2013.
Fast forward to about a year ago, July 2015. I had never been legally on suboxone, and decided I would give it a shot. So I got into a program. I started on 8mg per day, but never really actually took that much the average I would take usually was 6-8mg per day, most of it by IV ROA. I stuck through this program for 2½ months before getting discharged because I relapsed. I relapsed for 1½ months, using anywhere from as little as .1g to as high as .5g of usually medium-high grade H per day. I would still use subs for those rainy days as a bridge, still usually no more than 6mg.
Fast forward to November 2015. Of course, my H use started getting the best of me again, and I managed to get into yet another sub program. They prescribed me 16mg/day, and of course I know this is overkill and I just stuck with what I usually took 6-8mg/day. I did pretty good in this program, I managed to abstain from heroin for almost 5months, with just 2 small slips.
Fast forward more to March 2016. A series of events led me to get uncontrollable cravings and urges to get high. I relapsed again. I quit that program, and started seeing another doctor. A cash doctor once a month, and of course, I only used my subs on those rainy days as a bridge when $$ wasn't right. My habit size still the same amount as before. Anywhere from .1g-.5g/day average quality dope. It has been like this up until now.
About a month ago, I had failed a UA, and my insurance won't pay for my suboxone script no more, and I can't afford to pay straight out of pocket. I had just IVd my last 1mg of sub almost 18 hours ago. Sunday I had used 8mg SL route, then 2mg IV, so 10mg total. Monday I IVd 6mg in 3 2mg intervals. Tuesday I IVd 4mg, 2mg 12hours apart. Wednesday (yesterday) I IVd 1.8mg at noon, then 1.2mg at 8pm at night.
Today I have nothing, it is now 130pm, and I notice some slight WD symptoms coming. That flushed skin burning feeling like I'm a little hot, and I have slight sniffles, but nothing bad by any means. I know the bupe usage of the last few days is still holding me. But I was just wondering if I just decided to jump off now, what kind of WD do you guys think I would be in for? And when do you think it would start and how long do you think it would last? Do you think going and scoring H is imminent? I am already starting to have slight cravings. I really just want off everything, this shit has become a lifestyle to me and I have lost so many friends (12 in less than 2 years). Makes me fear that I may be next.
Throw me some opinions, I appreciate it folks. Thanks.
A little background if my opiate usage up until about a year ago. I first struggled with opiate dependency from when I acquired an OC habit back in February 2009. From there, inevitably I moved up to shooting OC and heroin both. In 2009 I had also became familiar with suboxone. Since then I had quite a few withdrawals and dry time from multiple incarcerations and prison stints. The longest one being a 2 year stretch which ended in October 2013.
Fast forward to about a year ago, July 2015. I had never been legally on suboxone, and decided I would give it a shot. So I got into a program. I started on 8mg per day, but never really actually took that much the average I would take usually was 6-8mg per day, most of it by IV ROA. I stuck through this program for 2½ months before getting discharged because I relapsed. I relapsed for 1½ months, using anywhere from as little as .1g to as high as .5g of usually medium-high grade H per day. I would still use subs for those rainy days as a bridge, still usually no more than 6mg.
Fast forward to November 2015. Of course, my H use started getting the best of me again, and I managed to get into yet another sub program. They prescribed me 16mg/day, and of course I know this is overkill and I just stuck with what I usually took 6-8mg/day. I did pretty good in this program, I managed to abstain from heroin for almost 5months, with just 2 small slips.
Fast forward more to March 2016. A series of events led me to get uncontrollable cravings and urges to get high. I relapsed again. I quit that program, and started seeing another doctor. A cash doctor once a month, and of course, I only used my subs on those rainy days as a bridge when $$ wasn't right. My habit size still the same amount as before. Anywhere from .1g-.5g/day average quality dope. It has been like this up until now.
About a month ago, I had failed a UA, and my insurance won't pay for my suboxone script no more, and I can't afford to pay straight out of pocket. I had just IVd my last 1mg of sub almost 18 hours ago. Sunday I had used 8mg SL route, then 2mg IV, so 10mg total. Monday I IVd 6mg in 3 2mg intervals. Tuesday I IVd 4mg, 2mg 12hours apart. Wednesday (yesterday) I IVd 1.8mg at noon, then 1.2mg at 8pm at night.
Today I have nothing, it is now 130pm, and I notice some slight WD symptoms coming. That flushed skin burning feeling like I'm a little hot, and I have slight sniffles, but nothing bad by any means. I know the bupe usage of the last few days is still holding me. But I was just wondering if I just decided to jump off now, what kind of WD do you guys think I would be in for? And when do you think it would start and how long do you think it would last? Do you think going and scoring H is imminent? I am already starting to have slight cravings. I really just want off everything, this shit has become a lifestyle to me and I have lost so many friends (12 in less than 2 years). Makes me fear that I may be next.
Throw me some opinions, I appreciate it folks. Thanks.