Hello everybody,
I would like to ask you all something that has been bothering for a long time. The reason why I am asking this question here is because no-one around me is educated enough about drugs to give me good advice.
I am 20 years old. I enjoy researching and experiencing new drugs. I don't do them that much though, which makes me justify my drug use to myself. But somewhere in my mind, I know that using drugs might skew my logic in some way.
When I say drugs, I am not talking about anything "hard". So far in my life, I have used cannabis, psilocybin mushrooms, LSD, 2C-B, JWH-018 (also certain other synthetic cannabinoids that may have been in the herbal incense I used long ago), MDMA, alcohol, Xanax, Adderall, Kratom and Phenibut.
I have not insufflated anything in my whole life, and don't want to. I don't want to try coke/crack, meth and opiates. I also am very careful with my benzodiazepine usage as I have felt the addiction after three weeks of usage.
I quit smoking cigarettes three months ago. I used to smoke at least a pack a day. This addiction lasted five years. I now hate it so much to the point that I am almost sure I'm not going to ever smoke again. Even tobacco in spliffs disgusts me.
A downside of me quitting cigarettes is that I replaced cigarettes with marijuana. I smoke about 3-4 joints every day, spread throughout the day.
I am also trying to eat more healthy. I have lost about 20 pounds since I quit cigarettes.
I first took shrooms two weeks after my 18th birthday, and did LSD two months after that. So far in my life, I have done MDMA about 8 times, LSD about 10 times, and psilocybin mushrooms about 20 times.
Over the last summer, I had an LSD experience that made me decide that I want to explore the psychedelic world more. I have been taking mushrooms much more frequently now, and I have become a lot calmer and tolerant. I don't judge people like I used to anymore. All in all, my personality changed for the better. My friends, my parents, and the people around me have all commented that I have gotten significantly calmer and older, that I look as if I have somehow maintained peace within me.
I want to use psychedelics that will take me to a different level. I was looking into DMT and San Pedro and I decided that I want to use it.
The people around me are telling me that I am getting out of control. I don't feel the same way as I think that they are very subjective due to certain things they believe in. Such as illegalization of all drugs, and that they are all equally "evil" and "bad" for you.
My question is, am I wrong when I want to use psychedelics, experience things that not everyone has experienced, and improve my inner self. I really value psychedelics as I think that they can teach us a lot about our own.
Am I going the wrong direction by choosing to use psychedelics and smoke weed instead of going out partying on the weekends, drinking alcohol, smoking cigarettes, doing coke or other potentially harmful and addictive drugs.
Any advice will be appreciated.
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I would like to ask you all something that has been bothering for a long time. The reason why I am asking this question here is because no-one around me is educated enough about drugs to give me good advice.
I am 20 years old. I enjoy researching and experiencing new drugs. I don't do them that much though, which makes me justify my drug use to myself. But somewhere in my mind, I know that using drugs might skew my logic in some way.
When I say drugs, I am not talking about anything "hard". So far in my life, I have used cannabis, psilocybin mushrooms, LSD, 2C-B, JWH-018 (also certain other synthetic cannabinoids that may have been in the herbal incense I used long ago), MDMA, alcohol, Xanax, Adderall, Kratom and Phenibut.
I have not insufflated anything in my whole life, and don't want to. I don't want to try coke/crack, meth and opiates. I also am very careful with my benzodiazepine usage as I have felt the addiction after three weeks of usage.
I quit smoking cigarettes three months ago. I used to smoke at least a pack a day. This addiction lasted five years. I now hate it so much to the point that I am almost sure I'm not going to ever smoke again. Even tobacco in spliffs disgusts me.
A downside of me quitting cigarettes is that I replaced cigarettes with marijuana. I smoke about 3-4 joints every day, spread throughout the day.
I am also trying to eat more healthy. I have lost about 20 pounds since I quit cigarettes.
I first took shrooms two weeks after my 18th birthday, and did LSD two months after that. So far in my life, I have done MDMA about 8 times, LSD about 10 times, and psilocybin mushrooms about 20 times.
Over the last summer, I had an LSD experience that made me decide that I want to explore the psychedelic world more. I have been taking mushrooms much more frequently now, and I have become a lot calmer and tolerant. I don't judge people like I used to anymore. All in all, my personality changed for the better. My friends, my parents, and the people around me have all commented that I have gotten significantly calmer and older, that I look as if I have somehow maintained peace within me.
I want to use psychedelics that will take me to a different level. I was looking into DMT and San Pedro and I decided that I want to use it.
The people around me are telling me that I am getting out of control. I don't feel the same way as I think that they are very subjective due to certain things they believe in. Such as illegalization of all drugs, and that they are all equally "evil" and "bad" for you.
My question is, am I wrong when I want to use psychedelics, experience things that not everyone has experienced, and improve my inner self. I really value psychedelics as I think that they can teach us a lot about our own.
Am I going the wrong direction by choosing to use psychedelics and smoke weed instead of going out partying on the weekends, drinking alcohol, smoking cigarettes, doing coke or other potentially harmful and addictive drugs.
Any advice will be appreciated.
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