Or always have I been? Fuck, I keep getting panic attacks, intense moodswings. My sleep patwtern has never been good, but Slept for 4 hours since Friday or Saturday.. I don't know.
I saw shadow people for the first time last night, riding back to my house. fucking weird. Paranoia keeps embarrassing me, I keep pranging out my friends/housemates are talking the piss out of me and are against me. I am either hearing the truth, Last night was bad.. It takes so much energy to move, so hard to type I've got double vision trying to type this.
Uhmy vision keeps going black too. I haven't had anything to my recollection food wise since Friday. I have no money till Friday, just a fuck load of drugs. Binging constantly. Staying up for days. What the fuck.
What the fuck, literally the whole day I felt great and now the dooming sail of shit has arrived. How do you get rid of this physical constant feeling of doom?
Wow I am pathetic. I keep taking huge overdoses, I just figure fuck it, I can't go on like this.
When did I become this? Is it obvious I have a problem?
Argh I'm just going to get so fucked I can sleep.
Also, my speech is getting terrible. I just can't communicate.
Fuck this, this is why I love drugs. They relieve that horrible guilty feeling. I
I saw shadow people for the first time last night, riding back to my house. fucking weird. Paranoia keeps embarrassing me, I keep pranging out my friends/housemates are talking the piss out of me and are against me. I am either hearing the truth, Last night was bad.. It takes so much energy to move, so hard to type I've got double vision trying to type this.
Uhmy vision keeps going black too. I haven't had anything to my recollection food wise since Friday. I have no money till Friday, just a fuck load of drugs. Binging constantly. Staying up for days. What the fuck.
What the fuck, literally the whole day I felt great and now the dooming sail of shit has arrived. How do you get rid of this physical constant feeling of doom?
Wow I am pathetic. I keep taking huge overdoses, I just figure fuck it, I can't go on like this.
When did I become this? Is it obvious I have a problem?
Argh I'm just going to get so fucked I can sleep.
Also, my speech is getting terrible. I just can't communicate.
Fuck this, this is why I love drugs. They relieve that horrible guilty feeling. I