Cocaine Am i doing too much cocaine?

[dlights]

Hey guys,

Im new here and wanted to find out if im abusing coke alot.
My hook gives me 1g for <NO PRICES>. (very good stuff btw). i buy halfs every week an half-two weeks and i finish it usually with a buddy. Would this be considered a dangerous problem? Apart from addiction issues. Ive been doing it like this since 4 months ago and dont want to fuck myself up lol.
sometimes i might get mild cravings but i control it. i strictly do it spaced out to avoid addiction. Now its just a fun occasional habbit(not addiction). lol thanks for any help

 

[Albion]

Your cocaine use sounds like it's on the more frequent side of 'casual'. I'm gonna assume you're insufflating and not IVing the coke (which would be a different story entirely). Cocaine is cardiotoxic, especially if you drink on it since ingesting cocaine and alcohol simultaneously creates cocaethylene, which is even worse for your heart than cocaine. Ultimately weekly cocaine use will start to take its toll, no doubt about it. Right now though I'd be more concerned about the damage it's doing to your bank balance and that alone is good reason to cut down. The fact you've been doing this for 4 months means its likely you have some psychological dependence and it's become embedded in your weekly routine. Stopping this routine is likely to make you crave the cocaine even more than you already do right now, but the longer you continue using routinely like this the harder it will become to stop.

You don't want to end up at a point where you're forced to stop due to health concerns (be it your heart or your nose or both). You do sound like you're verging on the tipping point of addiction. I'd seriously consider easing up now whilst the stakes aren't that high.

 

[dlights]

Your cocaine use sounds like it's on the more frequent side of 'casual'. I'm gonna assume you're insufflating and not IVing the coke (which would be a different story entirely). Cocaine is cardiotoxic, especially if you drink on it since ingesting cocaine and alcohol simultaneously creates cocaethylene, which is even worse for your heart than cocaine. Ultimately weekly cocaine use will start to take its toll, no doubt about it. Right now though I'd be more concerned about the damage it's doing to your bank balance and that alone is good reason to cut down. The fact you've been doing this for 4 months means its likely you have some psychological dependence and it's become embedded in your weekly routine. Stopping this routine is likely to make you crave the cocaine even more than you already do right now, but the longer you continue using routinely like this the harder it will become to stop.

You don't want to end up at a point where you're forced to stop due to health concerns (be it your heart or your nose or both). You do sound like you're verging on the tipping point of addiction. I'd seriously consider easing up now whilst the stakes aren't that high.

i appreciate the advice. i have 100% control of my mind and easily stop cravings when i see them coming. addiction is no issue. "Whatever the mind can concieve and believe, the mind can achieve."

just want to know if my amount of cocaine use is as dangerous.

And regarding the cost; i reward myself. Out of my paycheck i will reward myself with half a gram. If im on low balance or need to save my flow, i dont buy. (another sign there isnt an addiction issue).

 

[morphonorconic]

That is how it starts with cocaine. Occasional use turns into using every weekend, weekend use turns into all of the time. Cocaine addiction is perilous; it swiftly and deceptively takes over your life.

Slow down before you begin to lose control. Those of us who have been there can tell you this is not a path you want to venture down. It leads straight down, and the way back up is slow and difficult.


Edit: A half gram at a time is not particularly dangerous, to answer your question. Of course cocaine in any amount presents risks.

 

[Znegative]

I also just wanted to quickly bring up that a lot of cocaine these days is being cut with levamisole, a de-worming agent that can be very corrosive to tissue. Here is an article relating to it.

 

[Albion]

i appreciate the advice. i have 100% control of my mind and easily stop cravings when i see them coming. addiction is no issue. "Whatever the mind can concieve and believe, the mind can achieve."

You may not realise how many people before you have made this statement in one way or another, and fallen deep into addiction.

just want to know if my amount of cocaine use is as dangerous.

Honestly, not particularly, at least not from the physical side of things.

And regarding the cost; i reward myself. Out of my paycheck i will reward myself with half a gram. If im on low balance or need to save my flow, i dont buy. (another sign there isnt an addiction issue).

But it is a sign that cocaine is on the brain.

 

[dlights]

thanks for the replies. I agree the smartest choice is to quit completely(but who are we kidding this is coke). i have a half with me and this will be my last time until the end of summer. And imo, those laced stories are just to scare people. Im not saying its bullshit, but i havent heard of anyone that has (or even heard of temselves) those problems. Plus, my dealer and his dough are legit, top shelf.

 

[tricomb]

Actually, most cocaine these days is "laced", adulterated is the proper term(as laced implied another active ingredient).

In 2008–2009, levamisole was found in 69% of cocaine samples seized by the U.S. Drug Enforcement Administration (DEA). By April 2011, the DEA reported that the adulterant was found in 82% of seizures.

Source: CDC & one from ABC news

NSFW:

 

[Halif]

hi dlights, sometimes when there's a question in your mind about whether you're doing too much, that can be you telling yourself that it's time for a break. Listen to your clever mind! Enjoy the break and then enjoy the stuff you love later

 

[livetheopiatedream]

never think youve got 100% control! i started thinking i did, many will have had the same experience im sure lots would agree on this point!
i dunno, at any frequency inside of a month, if ur really lookin forward to ur 'high' days, etc means u need to respect that drug and be afraid shitless of what problems it might cause even if it gets out of control for one weekend, cause maybe next time itll b a 3 day run, then 4, then 5. maybe u think ur not really craving it so its ok to do it. well ur likely just justifying it to urself. i dunno i just want u to b careful basically cause i know what can happen n it aint pretty. life goes down the shitter quicker than u think it can.

id reccomend at least addin a extra week in between uses, make it every 2-3 weeks, if ur comfortable with that, and its easy for u, then thats excellent
if its not easy... maybe thats exactly why u need the break
either way, check to see if its not a problem for u, that way u know how mentally addicted u really are

peace love n luck

 

[J.D.]

hi dlights, sometimes when there's a question in your mind about whether you're doing too much, that can be you telling yourself that it's time for a break. Listen to your clever mind! Enjoy the break and then enjoy the stuff you love later

I have to agree. If you are posting Bluelight asking if you are using too much coke....you've probably put a lot of thought into it and realize you are. I don't think many here will tell you, nah, you're fine. Coke is crafty and will snag you in a heartbeat, no matter how full your wallet is.

Be careful, be safe!

 

[pbuilder]

Something I've quickly come to realize, no matter how much cocaine you do, it will never be enough.

You will buy more and more every time you use, and at the end of the weekend, still feel like you didn't do enough. That's why cocaine is so addicting.

I went from buying quarter grams off pals to buying half balls within 2 months, and that was only using on weekends.

I don't know how the hell it happened, but it seemed so pointless to buy anything less than at least a gram and a half so quickly, because I just want more more more.

 

[treezy z]

hold up... half gram or half oz? a half gram every week to two weeks isn't that bad, it's definitely a habit though considering you use it regularly, i've run into problems doing mdpv (never could afford coke) for 2 day binges every 2 weeks in terms of cravings. if you're doing a half ounce (14 grams) every week-2 weeks i hate to break it to you but you're a cokehead.

 

[Titus]

IMO if your wondering if your doing too much it's probably a sign that your thinking your doing too much. This could be a good thing as you have a chance to act sooner rather than later.

I used to have a MASSIVE coke addiction. It started very occasional. Then went several years without doing it. The went to holiday weekends.......eventually I was doing 1/2 ounce a week, all to myself, all up my nose. This went on for 1 1/2 years. It stopped being fun somewhere around the holiday weekend to every weekend shift. And that was BEFORE the heavy use set in. None of the heavy use was fun. NONE OF IT. The psychological addiction to cocaine, is, IMHO, harder to kick than the physical addiction to dope. And the cociaine induced paranoia/psychosis is, IMHO, worse than heroind withdrawls.

My opinion could very well be tainted because I had access to much more coke than I have had access to dope. But I suspect if I had an unlimited supply of dope I would be able to be functional in a much more 'functional' way than what I tried to be as a 'functional' coke user. With dope I can use and work and have a home life and friends life and family life and recreational/hobby life, etc, etc, etc...

With coke, forget it. I was like that gollom dude or whatever the hell his name was with 'my presious', and I was kinda skinny like that mo fo for a minute there too. The shit coke does to the psyche can no way come close to the shit that heroind does to it.

I've heard of programs where they give heroin addicts heroin in switzerland and their lives improve. In the usa they give them methodone or suboxone and their lives improve and their families lives improve and societies risk goes down.

With coke addicts, societies risks go down I would guess if they were given coke, or a coke like substitue, but I bet there would be addicts pounding on the doors day and night every 10 minutes (each addict, every 10 minutes) demanding the next line. What would the 'solution' be? Giving them an oz a week? They come back a paranoid wreck with the dea on their ass (in their own minds)? Would there be a way to get them into any type of supportive type of counseling that would help them or their families in any way? Would there be a way to get them to engage in medical care, preventative care, taking vitamins and eating right (or at least minimally so)? Heart attacks and shit would still be common risks for the heavy bingers. As bad as thiings are for me with doe, it's a blessign I was able to get away from the coke (by using massive ammt's of benzo's to try and shake the psychological addiction). Surprizingly I did do a sm. ammt of coke like 2 yrs ago with some dope with a friend and didn't fiend for it afterwards.... so for me that 1 time again use didn't trigger auto coke madman response. But I ain't tryin to be a coke addict, so I KNOW, FOR ME, I need to not try to be a coke user/casual user/wahtever cuz it ain't NEVER EVER gonna happen for ME. This much I know about myself.

This is not a substance to be taken lightly. I still can't beleive I'm alive or that I survived. I could go on forever. But my message is it will be way worse for you than you think it will be, just like it was for me. You probably won't get as deep as me, my circumstances were sort of unique when it came to my relationship to coke.


BT, IMO, theh oly ppl who can do coke without 'problems' are the ones who do it and dont' crave more when it's gone. The one's who don't think about when their next use is gonna be. If that's not you, watch the fuck out brother. Watch the fuck out.

 

[dlights]

i mean half Gram not oz lol. I'd probably die if i was doing an oz or more a month

@Titus, nice reply. Damn you did half an oz a week for 1.5 yrs? i don't know how someone would be able to live through that loooll bravo man. I'm definitely laying off coke and keeping it strictly for rare uses. Like you said, the people who can do coke without problems, are the ones who do it and dont crave it when its gone. That's me, so i'm lucky there haha. I finished the half gram i told u guys about a few nights ago, and haven't craved it yet. And im not thinking about when ill get the chance to do it again. I know i will do it again (lol again...this is coke we're talking about) but i dont know when. Definitely not any time soon though.

My godfather used to be addicted to coke and ive seen what it turns people into. My buddies wanted to do it a few times and i'd watch their behaviors and mood changes while on it. Sometimes i would suggest doing it in a fast food restroom one at a time, to avoid being caught outside. We would split up our shares, and one by one enter the restroom, sniff, and exit and repeat. Those times, i would go in but come out clean and pretend i've got it all in my nose, just so i can 1. Avoid use and 2. with an unaltered mind, study them even deeper.

I know it shouldnt be fucked with and i guess i let it carry me away a little. My cousin would tell me stories of how he and his friends would do grams and grams a day. How he'd snort a full gram in one session. How long hes been using and i felt like, my use would be MUCH less harmful. Although it was less harmful, it did get me playing with it a little more than i should have been.

Good thing is, i suffer no problems. My nose never bled, id always wash it 30 minutes after each by gently splashing warm water into my nose with my palms, and blowing out gently. Id have a stuffy nose in the morning-afters, but it went away in a day or two (only in the mornings pretty much though). I feel a little strain on my heart and mind though, definitely a good amount of serotonin loss and brain exhaustion lol. I take vitamin C and Calcium pills daily, with a pretty good and healthy eating regime including fruits(the stuff thats good for everything). Although i'd lose apetite while using, i havent had trouble eating the next day or even a while after the buzz.

I'll be fine though

 

[Titus]

i mean half Gram not oz lol. I'd probably die if i was doing an oz or more a month

@Titus, nice reply. Damn you did half an oz a week for 1.5 yrs? i don't know how someone would be able to live through that loooll bravo man. I'm definitely laying off coke and keeping it strictly for rare uses. Like you said, the people who can do coke without problems, are the ones who do it and dont crave it when its gone. That's me, so i'm lucky there haha. I finished the half gram i told u guys about a few nights ago, and haven't craved it yet. And im not thinking about when ill get the chance to do it again. I know i will do it again (lol again...this is coke we're talking about) but i dont know when. Definitely not any time soon though.

My godfather used to be addicted to coke and ive seen what it turns people into. My buddies wanted to do it a few times and i'd watch their behaviors and mood changes while on it. Sometimes i would suggest doing it in a fast food restroom one at a time, to avoid being caught outside. We would split up our shares, and one by one enter the restroom, sniff, and exit and repeat. Those times, i would go in but come out clean and pretend i've got it all in my nose, just so i can 1. Avoid use and 2. with an unaltered mind, study them even deeper.

I know it shouldnt be fucked with and i guess i let it carry me away a little. My cousin would tell me stories of how he and his friends would do grams and grams a day. How he'd snort a full gram in one session. How long hes been using and i felt like, my use would be MUCH less harmful. Although it was less harmful, it did get me playing with it a little more than i should have been.

Good thing is, i suffer no problems. My nose never bled, id always wash it 30 minutes after each by gently splashing warm water into my nose with my palms, and blowing out gently. Id have a stuffy nose in the morning-afters, but it went away in a day or two (only in the mornings pretty much though). I feel a little strain on my heart and mind though, definitely a good amount of serotonin loss and brain exhaustion lol. I take vitamin C and Calcium pills daily, with a pretty good and healthy eating regime including fruits(the stuff thats good for everything). Although i'd lose apetite while using, i havent had trouble eating the next day or even a while after the buzz.

I'll be fine though

In fairness I didn't read all your post word for word. I read this one though. Just wanted you to know where it can bring a person when at age 19 did it, loved it, but could nver see himself being addicted to it. Although I had the underlying psychological issues that lead people to addiction, sounds like your def not that type of person, of if you are, no where close to the degree I was/am.

Sounds like your in an OK place to me based on this post of yours. If both using and no using are ok, if your not one of the one's in the group who's angling for the next time you guys are gonna blow lines, if your able to pass up doing lines when presented the opportunitey (un fucking immaginable to me), if you can go home before the coke is gone, if things like this are kind of part of who you are then I think your one of the ones who can be a social coke user. And coke is a great drug, especially mixed with alcohol.

Based on the extreme expierience I had with the substance I just feel an obiigation to point out the potential risks, even to those who think it doesn't exist for them (usually people it DOES exist for but are in denial, I"m not getting that sense from you in this post- lucky you, I"m jealous lol). I think that as long as you stay conscious of those types of things you''ll be fine. Rock on bro~
Titus

 

[J.D.]

Titus: Excellent post. I'm not going to quote it - but every word is so true. I hope it helps someone avoid what most of us here have not be able to.

Something I've quickly come to realize, no matter how much cocaine you do, it will never be enough.

You will buy more and more every time you use, and at the end of the weekend, still feel like you didn't do enough. That's why cocaine is so addicting.

I went from buying quarter grams off pals to buying half balls within 2 months, and that was only using on weekends.

I don't know how the hell it happened, but it seemed so pointless to buy anything less than at least a gram and a half so quickly, because I just want more more more.

I had a nasty coke habit as well, but was able to walk away from it. I knew when I was done (of course I had lost everything positive in my life before making that decision) - and stopped. There was no physical withdrawal, but the psychological mindfuck is hell.

That was about 20 years ago. Now I am hooked on dope. I thought I'd be so "cool" and "edgy" to do some dope. (It's not cool, edgy or pretty, by the way.) But the point of my post is how my use escalated. My ex and I started sharing a little bit of tar. (Tar is all we have here.) Then we figured why bother make the trip to the city for such a small amount. We doubled our volume, and of course doubled our use. We're not together anymore, but both still using. It finally came to the point where we were buying about 4 times as much (each), and rationalized it to ourselves by saying why bother our dealer so often when we know we'll be coming back? Now every spare penny I have goes to dope. As does most of my time - either planning to get it, getting it, procuring rigs, etc., and of course, using. It's a goddam full-time career.

And like Pbuilder said, I don't know how the hell it happened, but now I just want more more more.

Walk away while you can. It's exhausting being a junkie/cokehead.

 

[tricomb]

^ Great posting, I really admire the insight you offer this forum JD.

 

[buttershots21]

Bottom line, if your asking if your taking too much or if you have a habit, you probably do. What's lightweight to one may be too much for you. Probably should sit down with yourself and have a serious discussion on where you want to really go with this, because it can suck you in quick. It's much easier to fall into that hole than it is to crawl out of it. And the deeper the hole, the harder the crawl up. Just sayin.

 

[Swain]

If you keep the 'addiction is not even remotely an issue for me' mindset you will find your self anally raped eventually/