So, my love hate relationship w opiates began 10 years ago. I've done heroin, oc's, recently liquid morphine that I took from a dead person. Not proud. But Vicodin straight for the past 5 years. Sometimes 2 a day. Sometimes 30. Bc it's 50 feet away from me in my home. At all times. Unless I steal all her pills and she runs out.
After snatching a bottle of liquid morphine, I feel like I've hit my low. Like wow. I'm out of all opiates and have thoughts of committing crime. Lol. It's not funny, but it kinda has to be. Bc I'm just not the type.
My question is, I'm over physical wd mostly, sore legs, tired, anxious, no appetite. Cold all the time. But the mental aspect is kicking my ass. It's all I can think about. Counting down the days til she gets her rx refilled. So I'm thinking about getting into the subutex maintenance program. Otherwise I will steal this persons pills until either she dies or I do.
I guess I'm asking am I doing the right thing? Is it worth it to kick the mental masturbation since I'm almost over the physical effects? Or is it just another expensive monkey on my back?
After snatching a bottle of liquid morphine, I feel like I've hit my low. Like wow. I'm out of all opiates and have thoughts of committing crime. Lol. It's not funny, but it kinda has to be. Bc I'm just not the type.
My question is, I'm over physical wd mostly, sore legs, tired, anxious, no appetite. Cold all the time. But the mental aspect is kicking my ass. It's all I can think about. Counting down the days til she gets her rx refilled. So I'm thinking about getting into the subutex maintenance program. Otherwise I will steal this persons pills until either she dies or I do.
I guess I'm asking am I doing the right thing? Is it worth it to kick the mental masturbation since I'm almost over the physical effects? Or is it just another expensive monkey on my back?