Colonel Contin
Bluelighter
I recently quit a moderately heavy, four-year, daily opiate
habit using a suboxone taper (ending roughly two weeks ago). As of recently, often when I look at things they appear to be a product of some advanced CGI and seem to retain little of their organic essence. Everything appears to move in slow motion, and colors are vivid as surrealist painting or a palette one may associate with cartoons. Aside from the hallucinogenesque anxiety it tends to cause me, it is actually quite enjoyable (and I have a very sparse history with psychedelic substances
so I don't think they are playing much of a part, if any).
In all seriousness, while I have no reasonable suspicion that I may actually be 'dead', I sometimes find myself wondering if what I am seeing is real, or if I have crossed over (or maybe just lost it). I can't kill myself for answers, because death is the end of knowledge and exclusively offers the experience of itself - an induction into the league of the pallid elite
.
Can anybody relate to this?
(PS: I don't smoke a whole hell of a lot of pot, nor do I smoke it regularly so I don't think it is much of a factor... though it does exacerbate the anomaly
)
In all seriousness, while I have no reasonable suspicion that I may actually be 'dead', I sometimes find myself wondering if what I am seeing is real, or if I have crossed over (or maybe just lost it). I can't kill myself for answers, because death is the end of knowledge and exclusively offers the experience of itself - an induction into the league of the pallid elite
Can anybody relate to this?
(PS: I don't smoke a whole hell of a lot of pot, nor do I smoke it regularly so I don't think it is much of a factor... though it does exacerbate the anomaly
