Hello,
I've tried researching and so on but I can't find any answers. I am a regular user of ice. I don't know if I'm addicted. I'm thinking I want to go to rehab, but don't want to look like an idiot!
I'm using around a gram a week or so, so nothing extreme. I go to sleep thinking of how I'm going to get on tomorrow or who I can hang out with that will shout me and so on. I wake up thinking about it. I think about it too much really.
I last up to 1 day or to 2 1/2 days and After that I need to sleep, so use vallium to help. Once I wake it's go time.
Last night I was so depressed because I couldn't get anything and ended up having a teary.
I've lost all of my real friends and are now hanging out with heavy users. I can see their life and don't want to end up that way.
I started smoking ice when I was 18. Mainly weekends. I would generally start on a Thursday night, go straight to work Friday from being out an then do it all again, until Sunday when I'd sleep and frequently called in sick Monday because I was too tired. I ended up loosing my Job which is fair. Also lost my car because I wasn't making my loan payments. Not long after I had a huge weekend that sent me loopy for about a week. I was hearing and seeing things and knew everyone was out to get me. That scared the shit out of me and I didn't touch it for about 4 months. In those 4 months I drank every day because it gave me something to do and I didn't have a job so I could do what I wanted. I started smoking ice again, mainly weekends. Then started during the week here and there. It wasn't something I constantly thought about, but was more than happy as soon as somebody mentioned it to get on. I then moved in to a share house with a guy that smoked daily and with it being in my face flat out it was hard to say no. I can't say no when it comes to that. I know I make my own decisions and nobody is to blame but myself. It's rare I ever have to pay for it which makes it even harder.
I've moved back home now, which doesn't change much just means I have to listen to my mum constantly whinge. She is a bit over the top. She hides her purse and will buy me cigarettes, not give me money to do it myself. If she asks me to pick up takeaway she will give me the exact money for it. That's because one night she was sleeping and I took $$$ but I left her a note.
I am thinking rehab might be a good idea and that way I will get my friends back and my mums trust. I don't want to do it and look like an idiot because most people there will be extremely worse off than me.
Please help!
I've tried researching and so on but I can't find any answers. I am a regular user of ice. I don't know if I'm addicted. I'm thinking I want to go to rehab, but don't want to look like an idiot!
I'm using around a gram a week or so, so nothing extreme. I go to sleep thinking of how I'm going to get on tomorrow or who I can hang out with that will shout me and so on. I wake up thinking about it. I think about it too much really.
I last up to 1 day or to 2 1/2 days and After that I need to sleep, so use vallium to help. Once I wake it's go time.
Last night I was so depressed because I couldn't get anything and ended up having a teary.
I've lost all of my real friends and are now hanging out with heavy users. I can see their life and don't want to end up that way.
I started smoking ice when I was 18. Mainly weekends. I would generally start on a Thursday night, go straight to work Friday from being out an then do it all again, until Sunday when I'd sleep and frequently called in sick Monday because I was too tired. I ended up loosing my Job which is fair. Also lost my car because I wasn't making my loan payments. Not long after I had a huge weekend that sent me loopy for about a week. I was hearing and seeing things and knew everyone was out to get me. That scared the shit out of me and I didn't touch it for about 4 months. In those 4 months I drank every day because it gave me something to do and I didn't have a job so I could do what I wanted. I started smoking ice again, mainly weekends. Then started during the week here and there. It wasn't something I constantly thought about, but was more than happy as soon as somebody mentioned it to get on. I then moved in to a share house with a guy that smoked daily and with it being in my face flat out it was hard to say no. I can't say no when it comes to that. I know I make my own decisions and nobody is to blame but myself. It's rare I ever have to pay for it which makes it even harder.
I've moved back home now, which doesn't change much just means I have to listen to my mum constantly whinge. She is a bit over the top. She hides her purse and will buy me cigarettes, not give me money to do it myself. If she asks me to pick up takeaway she will give me the exact money for it. That's because one night she was sleeping and I took $$$ but I left her a note.
I am thinking rehab might be a good idea and that way I will get my friends back and my mums trust. I don't want to do it and look like an idiot because most people there will be extremely worse off than me.
Please help!
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