So been using IV for a month, about 3 or four times a week. It's great. I love it. I've kept dream journals for the part month and almost in every one I dream about H. I'm fucking scared. It consumes so much of my mental process, so much time spent thinking on it, the preperation, which vein I should use etc.?
Everything feels okay when I'm on it, like that patience and general appreciation I lack in every day life is finally there. Also after a shot im not chronically fatigued, it's a relief and I can finally move on and enjoy my life. Its been 3 days since my last shot and have no withdrawals. But I don't think I can do this semi regulary, it seems either or for me...
I don't have anyone I can talk to about this at all, which is the worst part. I'm so sick of lying about what I've been doing. It's like junkie behaviour is being projected onto me by other people's prejudices. Its the first thing I think about when I wake up, I say today no, it happens anyway.
Does this sound typical in terms of addiction development? I would love any insights from you guys I really need some help, what is actually bad about being addicted as well, assuming you have an infinite supply? In Europe so fentanyl isn't really a concern.
Thanks in advance for responses, really need the support right now
Everything feels okay when I'm on it, like that patience and general appreciation I lack in every day life is finally there. Also after a shot im not chronically fatigued, it's a relief and I can finally move on and enjoy my life. Its been 3 days since my last shot and have no withdrawals. But I don't think I can do this semi regulary, it seems either or for me...
I don't have anyone I can talk to about this at all, which is the worst part. I'm so sick of lying about what I've been doing. It's like junkie behaviour is being projected onto me by other people's prejudices. Its the first thing I think about when I wake up, I say today no, it happens anyway.
Does this sound typical in terms of addiction development? I would love any insights from you guys I really need some help, what is actually bad about being addicted as well, assuming you have an infinite supply? In Europe so fentanyl isn't really a concern.
Thanks in advance for responses, really need the support right now