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Greenlighter
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- Oct 18, 2014
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hi everybody im new here im having problems big problems and slowly but surely there ruining my life , i had a heavy night snorting mdma 1 gram to myself . id previously abused mdma approx 20 times in 5 months so i wasnt to worried .
then the night night turned and i stopped being able to talk or take in what anybody was saying i started analyzing everything and getting paranoid ,i didnt understand what was happening i started throwing up and then the comedown started i was locked in my head for 5 days not eating rocking back and forth sweating profusely.
i now draw blanks in conversation cant respond to people when i talk in general convo and if i do i have to think about it way to much and that leads to a silence i cant flow anymore whenever im around anybody i feel awkward i get overwhelming anxiety and i almost get paralyzed by my thoughts i just feel like everything i say is stupid and that what im saying to people doesnt match what there saying ive lost my personalty a great deal to i have no motivation to do anything at all i cant enjoy anything either i really dont understand wats happenning to me why cant words just come out naturaly why am i analyzing the body language of people and why do i think there judging me i dont understand this i cant relax please help
then the night night turned and i stopped being able to talk or take in what anybody was saying i started analyzing everything and getting paranoid ,i didnt understand what was happening i started throwing up and then the comedown started i was locked in my head for 5 days not eating rocking back and forth sweating profusely.
i now draw blanks in conversation cant respond to people when i talk in general convo and if i do i have to think about it way to much and that leads to a silence i cant flow anymore whenever im around anybody i feel awkward i get overwhelming anxiety and i almost get paralyzed by my thoughts i just feel like everything i say is stupid and that what im saying to people doesnt match what there saying ive lost my personalty a great deal to i have no motivation to do anything at all i cant enjoy anything either i really dont understand wats happenning to me why cant words just come out naturaly why am i analyzing the body language of people and why do i think there judging me i dont understand this i cant relax please help