SeconalButalbitalPheno
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- Jun 20, 2023
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Hello,
I started using cocaine young and went to rehab at 18 for that. At 19 I than did crystal meth and Meprobamate for a year and realized I really really preferred my Milltown. This started a 13 year addi tion to Seconal, Butalbital, Phenobarbital, IM Pentobarbital etc. It was daily abuse and I ended up with a 1.8g tolerance and once I hit 2.5g I dropped and ODd on Phenobarbital. I've also done heroin, crack, Quualudes (found an old jar), Seconal/Ephedrine Salts (again old jar and they were amazing), Norco/Oxy, G, basically everything except hallucinogens which scare the shit out of me (bad salvia trip at 14). I definitely prefer barbiturates and was getting them very very reliably but my partner hates when I'm on them and my new psychiatrist checks all CURES (of course). I have severe PTSD from childhood sexual and physical abuse and being sent to a teenage torture school in Utah (long story). I also have pretty bad panic disorder that I deal with. I'm currently in DBT.
Current Meds Monthly:
*Prozac 80mg p.o AM (#60 of 40mg Fluoxetine caps)
*Minipress 17mg p.o. AM&PM (#90 of 5mg Prazosin hcl caps)
*Neurontin300mg Q.I.D. (#120 of 300mg Gabapentin tabs)
*Lyrica150mg T.I.D (#90 of Pregabalin 150mg caps)
*Valium 10mg Q.I.D. (#120 of Diazepam 10mg tabs)
*Serax 15mg P.R.N. AM anxiety (#30 of Oxazepam caps)
*Remeron 15mg p.o. PM (#30 of Mirtazipine tabs)
I also use:
#30 1mg Ativan
Cannabis daily
Kratom shots occasionally
Wish there was more but where I'm at it's all fent and crank.
I'm doing ok in this regiment, though I'd like to switch the Serax out for something that doesn't take an hour to kick in with the potency of Librium; in fact I think I'd rather have Librium. I was thinking Tranxene but that's just going to turn into what my Diazepam turns into so no point. Any ideas? I'm in the US. I cycle benzos so that my tolerance to Valium decreases every month (ex: Serax is weaker than Valium so when I use only Serax my tolerance goes down slightly to Diazepam).
Due to my PTSD I wake up super early every morning at like 6am even on non work days. She's pretty smart and we've tried Sonata (Zalepon) for early awakenings but I hate the hour long half life and don't like Z drugs all that much in general. Not looking for a benzo necessary as I am already RXd two but any advice would be greatly appreciated.
Thank you for making this site possible.
I started using cocaine young and went to rehab at 18 for that. At 19 I than did crystal meth and Meprobamate for a year and realized I really really preferred my Milltown. This started a 13 year addi tion to Seconal, Butalbital, Phenobarbital, IM Pentobarbital etc. It was daily abuse and I ended up with a 1.8g tolerance and once I hit 2.5g I dropped and ODd on Phenobarbital. I've also done heroin, crack, Quualudes (found an old jar), Seconal/Ephedrine Salts (again old jar and they were amazing), Norco/Oxy, G, basically everything except hallucinogens which scare the shit out of me (bad salvia trip at 14). I definitely prefer barbiturates and was getting them very very reliably but my partner hates when I'm on them and my new psychiatrist checks all CURES (of course). I have severe PTSD from childhood sexual and physical abuse and being sent to a teenage torture school in Utah (long story). I also have pretty bad panic disorder that I deal with. I'm currently in DBT.
Current Meds Monthly:
*Prozac 80mg p.o AM (#60 of 40mg Fluoxetine caps)
*Minipress 17mg p.o. AM&PM (#90 of 5mg Prazosin hcl caps)
*Neurontin300mg Q.I.D. (#120 of 300mg Gabapentin tabs)
*Lyrica150mg T.I.D (#90 of Pregabalin 150mg caps)
*Valium 10mg Q.I.D. (#120 of Diazepam 10mg tabs)
*Serax 15mg P.R.N. AM anxiety (#30 of Oxazepam caps)
*Remeron 15mg p.o. PM (#30 of Mirtazipine tabs)
I also use:
#30 1mg Ativan
Cannabis daily
Kratom shots occasionally
Wish there was more but where I'm at it's all fent and crank.
I'm doing ok in this regiment, though I'd like to switch the Serax out for something that doesn't take an hour to kick in with the potency of Librium; in fact I think I'd rather have Librium. I was thinking Tranxene but that's just going to turn into what my Diazepam turns into so no point. Any ideas? I'm in the US. I cycle benzos so that my tolerance to Valium decreases every month (ex: Serax is weaker than Valium so when I use only Serax my tolerance goes down slightly to Diazepam).
Due to my PTSD I wake up super early every morning at like 6am even on non work days. She's pretty smart and we've tried Sonata (Zalepon) for early awakenings but I hate the hour long half life and don't like Z drugs all that much in general. Not looking for a benzo necessary as I am already RXd two but any advice would be greatly appreciated.
Thank you for making this site possible.
