I went over to my friend's house last night and he is actually doing good. You would think after all he went through he would of been in a negative mood, but he was in a good mood. He seemed to be more worried about me than himself. He kept on asking me, "Are you SURE that you did not get hurt at all?" I told him I was fine.
Me and him went to the girl's house who mom smokes. She was smoking good buds with us. But when we got there, the girl's cousin came over. She is a cheerleader at my school and she is FINE. Well, as soon as she comes over, she started crying saying how scared and worried she was.
My friend however is only 20 (I am 17, just knew him from friends) and he wasn't going to college or anything and he had no health insurance, so the hospital bill and everything for him is crazy. I haven't told him yet, but I will be getting a $275 paycheck Tuesday and I'm going to be giving him $175 of it to help him pay the bills. I know he is having trouble and I would give him all the money, but I do need money for gas, with it being as expensive as it is.
I really hate how my dad treated me after the wreck. When I got home that night, he didn't ask me if I was alright or anything, he just yelled at me telling me that I shouldn't be out all the time. I'm not sure if he was angry just because his son had a experience so close to death or if that is just how he is. But it pisses me off. My mom was actually in tears and still is in tears. She doesn't like it when I leave, but I'm guessing she will get over it in a little while.
And inside the car, there was a bag with a half oz of weed in it. My friend didn't get that bag after the wreck even though we got the 2 ozs of weed another person had. But I guess the police did not find the bag or whatever because my friend has not been charged with it or whatever.
And I know that if drugs did cause the accident or made it worse, it was most likely the Valiums. My friend has done them before and I have to. But whenever you take them, sometimes you do not feel as messed up as you really are, so maybe that is the problem.
Keep note that I'm not sitting here saying don't drive while stoned on marijuana. I would not recommend driving high period, but I don't think it makes someone very dangerous behind the wheel. But I would NOT recommend anyone driving stoned if the road is wet or foggy.
I posted this thread because we all go to these forums for the same purpose, to talk about the drugs we like. I just want to make sure that none of you all have to go through what I went through, if you haven't already. Sometimes you just need to be reminded about how serious things can be.
And I must say that I am happy that I did not get flamed for this thread. Because I didn't want people to come here saying, "You can drive fine high you idiot." I have gotten that response from other people at school and everything when I tell them. But you have all have supported me through this.
The wreck gave me a few bad dreams last week, but they seem to get away. But I am thinking about seeing a doctor because whenever I am riding with somebody or driving, I just sometimes freak out. Like yesterday, I just pulled over. I guess I just have anxiety due to the crash, but I am hoping that I am overcome it. If I don't within the next few days, I'm going to see a doctor to see if he prescribe me something that maybe will help my anxiety. I don't want Valiums or Xanaxs while driving obviously, but I would like something to just calm my nerves and help the anxiety. Are there any drugs that could help me with that?