Mental Health Always alone...

[soccerfocus5]

I've become a fake person, feel like im treated (deservedl so ) like an invalid- I hproject egoism to keep pepple from seeing how fucked u iam.

drugs make it worse in the long run rx and street, even those ephemera of life where I forge the gravity of my life are far outmached by the otherwise crushing isolation

 

[ad lib]

Hey soccerfocus5, I'm so sorry you're feeling this way.

Why is it that you feel you are "fucked up"? I can assure you're not. I don't think any person is truly fucked up. We are each individuals who have our own quirks, talents, etc.

Do you work? Go to school? Have children?

Drugs do tend to isolate and make issues worse, and this is because they only treat symptoms, not causes. When we take drugs, we feel happy, normal, etc. that's why we choose to continue using. However, there's a reason that we wanted to invoke those feelings in the first place, and that's because we're masking our issues with chemicals. Once the chemicals wear off, we're left with the underlying causes that have made us start using in the first place- depression, anxiety, etc. once you treat those problems, the easier it will be to quit using.

 

[BabyGurl3171]

Sorry you're feeling this way. I've been there. We tend to use drugs as an escape but what you gotta come to realize is the main cause ur escaping will be there, possibly even worse when the high wears off.

Do u have a psych or counselor u can talk to?

You're not "fucked up". Life is just hard and we all get that feeling time to time, hence why we "escape" by using.

I know it's hard and I can't really say much as I've relapsed after 2 yrs clean. But I can tell u being sober isn't too bad. It took awhile but after a bit I laughed again n was truly happy for once. I no longer needed to use to escape n it felt good.

Feelings are scary to face at first but just take it a day at a time. Hell, sometimes I have to take life an hour at a time.