I can't take it anymore. I've wanted to get out since last year, but I can't find the right tool and no way am I going to try to end it any other way, cause chances are it won't kill me, it'll just damage me more. I want TO GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE!!! Without the risk of staying alive. It's too much. Are you all part of the same 'group' who is just out there to make my life a nightmare. I didn't know life would end before 20, I was always told I would live till roughly 80, now i still have 3 years till 20 and i just know, it's an arrow or a pinpoint into nothingness followed by death... I was fooled into thinking I would live till 80, or at least 70, lol. maybe itll be suicide, something will get me before 20. I need to get out of this dream but I can't wake up, it's all too late and fuckin ruined, I ruined the life of an emotional, bright, innocent boy but when you grow up you need to realize some things. Call me a pussy but im not realizing anything, i'm ending it.
This stupid scattered boring ruined piece of shit life, all I wanted was a week of opiate bliss and then I could go through hell. But nooo opiates will ruin you in the end. All the other drugs are so much better for you... HAHAHA its always a dead end everywhere.
Note + edit:
Other drugs are not necessarily better for you. I was being sarcastic because it's so difficult to get an opiate prescription or just to get an opiate period, in my situation. I was craving it really badly during that little bit of benzo WD... and I crave it in general. A pre-addiction, I guess.
This stupid scattered boring ruined piece of shit life, all I wanted was a week of opiate bliss and then I could go through hell. But nooo opiates will ruin you in the end. All the other drugs are so much better for you... HAHAHA its always a dead end everywhere.
Note + edit:
Other drugs are not necessarily better for you. I was being sarcastic because it's so difficult to get an opiate prescription or just to get an opiate period, in my situation. I was craving it really badly during that little bit of benzo WD... and I crave it in general. A pre-addiction, I guess.
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