boozeboy said:
Not sure if you're being sarcastic here
Yeah, I was being sarcastic. I try not to do that these days. It's an old habit. No harm intended.
A childhood friend of mine told me this and I thought it made sense at the time and it just stuck with me. I might be totally wrong though.
How does your childhood friend know what happens inside the mind of everyone who isn't heterosexual?
Perhaps blindly presuming that we fully understand the mechanisms behind sexuality is a defence mechanism in itself?
I do apologize if I offended anyone.
You didn't offend me to the extent that you made me doubt myself or feel shame but I can't help but think it's maybe a bit insensitive to post an off-topic comment about how there's something wrong with gay and lesbian people... in a thread about someone who says he has spent four decades being shamed by people about sexuality.
If you'd posted it earlier in my life, it would've triggered me. I'm in a good place now.
Maybe just try to be more sensitive with others in future? They might not be in a good place.
Yeah, that's what I was raised on.
RAISED on. Right. That's what I'm saying. It's not who you are. That's not the real you. That's just layers of bullshit.
The real you is the best you. It is the best way to live.
People are afraid if you peel away the layers there will be nothing left (or you won't like what you find). This is, predominantly, I think, why people are afraid of change.
Strip away the ego. The real you is waiting. It is the best you. Now, go forth and suck a dick!
You made me question my own sexuality. Damn. Throughout my life I have found certain men attractive for sure but never sexually..
I mean I could never imagine myself getting penetrated or penetrate another man. It just seems awkward to me.
Everybody is bisexual, once you strip away those layers.
A truly heterosexual person (without layers) would naturally find women with hairy legs and no make-up attractive.
That is all social conditioning.
As for anal, I've never been interested in doing that with a man until very recently. We are taught to be homophobic from an early age. There was a lot of anti-gay peer pressure when I was in high school. My brothers said anti-gay stuff. My grandfather said it. My uncles said it. My dad said it... Then there's all the STI fear. I grew up in the 80s during the HIV era.
I've only ever done hand/mouth stuff with guys. Now, I'd like to give and receive. Why not? Life is short.
As far as awkwardness goes, sex with women can be awkward and sex with men can be awkward. The biggest contributing factor to this is how repressed they are and whether or not that makes them incompatible with you. If you know what you like and you aren't ashamed (at all) of your body, then it's not going to be awkward with me. I would happily walk down the street naked. I would have no problem fucking someone in the middle of a festival surrounded by hundreds of people. Awkwardness comes from within.
I like fucking women in the ass. Fucking men in the ass isn't more awkward. If anything, it's less awkward because the guy is probably going to be more into it than the girl (if we're rolling a dice).
This is the most intriguing sentence you wrote.
It either means: you look at porn while masturbating because you're afraid of looking at your penis; or, you enjoy looking at your penis...?
Yes. But I wanna get married and have children one day, so if I see an attractive young woman around my age with a nice big buttocks and nice breasts (I don't care if she's slightly overweight) I know she'll give birth to healthy & strong offspring.
I always thought I had to have kids with women, but now I don't care. I will have kids with whoever I'm with. I can choose a surrogate with big buttocks and nice breasts.
By the way, you can't tell if a woman is going to give birth to strong and healthy offspring based off of that criteria alone.
I'm scared of putting anything into my rectum (seriously) even my own hands.
Scared of it feeling good?
Scared of poo poo?
There's that fear again.
Fear of sexuality.
Your bowel movements are bigger than your fingers.
Get a finger up there next time you jerk off.
Jesus, you're talking about cumming on your own face (I was joking about that, before) and you haven't EVER mined the old underground caverns?
Sometimes I would cum on my stomach, let it dry off and walk around town smelling like fish.
Wow... Just, wow.
You may be a filthier pervert than I am.
NOT A PHASE, at least not for me, I am still wholeheartedly attracted to women and I love eating pussy. But I’m with a man now, who I’m intensely attracted to. I still do a double-take when a hottie walks by, tho 
