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Jabberwocky

Jabberwocky

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well im on day 3-4 of opiate wd and last night i actually slept , im not having any cravings just no energy and a bit off skin crawling.I took steps to not fall back, i let a friend know, i let my doctor know, i deleted all numbers off my phone and im actually feeling great.im excited to get back to the old me, the one who did pt every morning and took care of themselves...im so turned from opiates that i cant say 100% but pretty damm close that i refuse to put my body and mind there again. i'd like to think that my husband is looking down on me with a smile on his face:) he died but i didn't but the route i was going i was next, he wouldnt want that for me. the benzo's helped soo much, 2 nights not sleeping and my mind going wacko was enough, my doc put my clonzepam up 1mg until i got this outta my system
due to my ptsd and not wanting ssri's clonzepam has helped me tremendously with sleep and keeping flashbacks at bay, ive been on the same dose for a few years and i hate the groggy feeling so i even started a taper before this but right now opiates out of my system was my goal...i guess my strong will and stubbornness paid off :)

i know im not outa the woods yet but i can't let myself go down the road that took my husband from me. the pain he caused me i cannot cause my family
thank you to everyone that gave some advise and support,,it truly ment alot
i know its not over yet but i beat the worst and now a friend knows so im not alone in this:0
 
that's awesome that you deleted your phone numbers. I think that was actually the biggest step for me (that and getting on subs).

we're wishing you all the best.
 
^^ You are a True badass strong woman Jane. I will follow your progress quietly as you are a inspiration.
 
that's awesome you're doing so well!
There's nothing like waking up in the morning NOT SICK.
It's beautiful!
Much love to you!
 
Day 5 and I'm feeling a bit better
No energy though, went for my run this morning and my legs were rubber lol
Stiff and sore but didn't wake in a sweat. Still no cravings ?
 
If you do get cravings--and you will at some point, it's perfectly normal, just remember this : cravings are nothing but a passing thought that only have power if we feed them.

That reminder helped me so much when I would get cravings

To break it down--people newly in recover are going to at times crave their DOC. Cravings are merely a passing 3 second thought. Until you latch onto that thought and let your mind go further. When you start focusing on the "good" feelings and ignoring the consequences. That is when cravings really gain power.

So what to do? Well, if you have a craving, recognize it and try to "change" your thought. Think of something else that will distract you. Talk to someone. Pick up your phone and play a game. Anything that will push that thought away.

If you can't push it out of your mind at first and keep going back to the "positives" , well then also force yourself to remember the end of the line too. Whatever your bottom was--be it being broke, sick, locked up, miserable, etc. But for me, I found that the best way to deal with them was to immediately involve my brain in something else. Kind of like how one distracts a toddler about to throw a tantrum.... ;)

Just wanted to help, it's great that so far you aren't craving, but once the newness/joy settles down into everyday life you may...

And also--you're doing great! Just keep on doing what you're doing!
 
Yeah quitting heroin is the easy part, IMO...it's staying quit that's the challenging part. I can get past acute WD fueling myself with only my own resentment towards myself for getting addicted to drugs, and I deserve everything I get goddamn it. Then six months later, after not using heroin for half a year...the Hunger comes back. ;)
 
Jane, keep updating us, ok? Stay strong, woman. After what you've been through, you can move forward. Ever heard the phrase "The only way out is through"? It's true.
 
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