jeebus13
Bluelighter
I have been kind of a hollow shell of myself
for the past few days...
like the real me retreated to some
distant place behind my eyes and won't come out.
Until last night.
I heard a song that cut me open
and pointed to the me I used to be
and made it howl at the moon.
Now, I wonder if there aren't two of me
dancing side by side at the water's edge
but the faces don't get any clearer.
I have given away everything that I had
and I still feel like I'm carrying something
huge and dense and heavy...
almost softness
but not quite as simple.
Emotions that were once a burden
are carrying me on their shoulders
like a child at a parade.
Almost found something real last night...
maybe tonight will find me a better man.
I hope I never forget
and I am screaming at myself to remember...
"Nightswimming,
deserves a quiet night."
for the past few days...
like the real me retreated to some
distant place behind my eyes and won't come out.
Until last night.
I heard a song that cut me open
and pointed to the me I used to be
and made it howl at the moon.
Now, I wonder if there aren't two of me
dancing side by side at the water's edge
but the faces don't get any clearer.
I have given away everything that I had
and I still feel like I'm carrying something
huge and dense and heavy...
almost softness
but not quite as simple.
Emotions that were once a burden
are carrying me on their shoulders
like a child at a parade.
Almost found something real last night...
maybe tonight will find me a better man.
I hope I never forget
and I am screaming at myself to remember...
"Nightswimming,
deserves a quiet night."
