alleviation of thought

[celestial.nrg]

*the paneless window*
things look a lot different
when you’re on the outside
looking in thru
the paneless window
and giving advice is simple
when you’re not in that situation.
The lightbulb flickers
and usually it triggers
those untapped memories...
insighting the suffering of..
vampiric tendencies
due to
lack of reflection.
But no one understands you
because...
things look a lot different
when you’re on the outside
looking in thru
the paneless window.
There are 3 sides to every story...
your side..
her side..
the truth.
and that lightbulb it keeps its flicker
and it has already triggered
the untapped memories
constantly pushed aside
and you run
and you hide
and you incessantly deny
that you had any faults or flaw.
And you argue that
no one understands you
because...
things look a lot different
when you’re on the outside
looking in thru
the paneless window.
excuses @ their finest...
regurgitation and cliche idealistics
claiming your “stake” to idiosyncracy
when you are lost like the rest of us...
Take off that mask and show me
who you really are...
what do you believe in?
what do you stand for?
I do understand you,
better than you understand you...
and the constant babble
equivilates to you
not saying much.
I’m trying to be there for you
but you just don’t give a fuck...
because
things look a lot different
when you’re on the outside
looking in thru
the paneless window
and FUCK ME for trying to understand.
I love you,
I’m there for you...
I can’t face what you’ve went thru...
for you.
I’m not her.
I’m trying to be all I can possibly be...
for you.
for us.
why couldn’t I be enough?
to help you tackle the nemisis
created before our genesis...
and stop the flickering of the lightbulb.
‘cause you see...
things aren’t so different
when the person on the outside
was once placed
inside
the paneless window.
sometimes u feel better sharing your dramas w/ the world... nikKi

 

[E-girl]

and giving advice is simple
when you’re not in that situation.

how true this is.
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E-girl
IM: tiggersgurl2067
"...there are 2 paths, you can go back, but in the long run... there's still time to change the road you're on..."

 

[zero9zero]

damn!
dope screen name!
dope work!
keep it up.
dave

 

[Noodle]

Nice play on words. There is a lot to reflect on here and read and reread. It is an interesting picture, I feel from your words.
Your style seems familiar. Have you posted before?
cheers to you btw just 'cause

 

[celestial.nrg]

big thanks to everyone who took the time to read..
no I've never posted in the words section before..and actually I'm brand new to these boards.. but I dig the fact that there is a words section so we get the oppotunity to share the side that we don't show too often.
It's a recent.. hurtful situation..and the picture is vivid..because the situation was a little too real. u know? well thanks again for the feedback.
-nikki ;D
email & aim: celestial [email protected]