All in the family

Hit me again, do you feel like a man? Always on the run, are you having fun? You never shut up unless your dope sick and when you're not i could care less if you chocked on a dick. Who are you to take an innocent young girl and introduce her to Satan's sister. Sweet Lady H, the little bitch. I use to miss her. When you would slam the door and walk out again i would slam the needle and nod out again. Why i did it all, only God knows. I guess i numbed everything i was scared to show. I wanted to let you know how i felt but your sister kept me so far away from feelings. You said you loved me, but you put her about move. Oh sweet Lady H, the rush you gave me running through my veins, calling my name, making me fucking insane. But i've made my rounds, im done with the both of you. Ive danced with the devil and ive fucked him too. So many times i've tried to hold onto the sleeve of your arm, but all i got was broken promises, lies and fist fights. I thought I loved you, but nah fuck you. I'm done with you, and you're sister too. You dragged me down as a team, making me scream when neither of you were there for me. But as the days go by and i clear my mind without either of you here, i realize im better off. I know you're still out there tieing off, so ill say a little prayer and hope to God he will have mercy on you for all the things you have never wanted to become.



To make a long story short, a boyfriend and I were addicted to heroin, he was horrible to me, and so was the drug. I wrote this May 20, 2011 when i was in a program called Teen Challenge(which i recommend to any addict). I finished the program, and relapsed 3 months later. I am still in my addiction but i know God is faithful to get me out once again.
 
also i really dont know how to use all this blog stuff i just got this thing a few minutes ago ha. And im not a poet either so sorry for run ons and all that jazz.
 
I also cant get away from the devil in oral form. My soul wants it gone but my mind and body wont let it. The worst thing for us to have is money. Its been 6 yeaars now. Idk what to do?
 
one big thing you will need to learn to cope with addiction. notice i sad cope and not beat.

you have to begin to take responsibility. while your bf may have introduced you to H im sure he didnt forcefully make you get high. its a shitty thing to do (introduce someone to H) let alone a young naive girl, or someone you supposedly love, but in the end it is ultimately something you need to take responsibility for.
 
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