Woke up today feeling a bit more normal but still have that nasty feeling creeping in the background, but on a better note got to jam some tunes yesterday. We really weren't in tune so much but i guess everyday can't be perfect. Playing guitar is probably one of the things i really gave up on that i loved so much since i got into to stupid pills. I just lost my ambition to play started and started doubting myself on how i was playing. I have always been a bit of a negative thinker, but i have used it to my advantage to create song and write these crazy quotes and such i used to write all the time. I never let the negativity run my life. I was just able to turn it on and off as i please, but after getting in to benzos things just sunk to the lowest place i could ever be at. I am still pretty depressed right now but i am trying like i hell to fight it. Feeling like your stuck is the hardest part, but i really do try to push on. Its just so much harder now. It seems like the more the symptoms clear up the less depressed it become. The hard part is not thinking about tho. Its always on my mind
