Alice

[CARESS]

Alice
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I looked into the mirror -
And the mirror said to me,
"Just swallow the little pill -
If you want to be free."
"Jump down the rabbit hole -
If you want to get away,
From the glaring light -
As sun warms the day."
"Do you want to feel pretty -
And smile like all is fine?
Have men falling at your feet,
And begging for your time?"
"The tingle of the softest brush,
As someone touches your skin.
You laugh, you smile, your cheeks will blush.
Now let the fun begin!"
So I swallowed the pill -
Without a second thought.
And I began to think happily,
Of the pleasure I had bought.
And I became beautiful -
All the world was fine.
The mirror had told the truth -
Men wanted to be mine.
But as the pleasure faded,
I went to the mirror again.
And how it laughed and mocked me -
Saying, "Now let the CRASH begin!"
Then I was no longer beautiful.
I was pale with makeup smeared.
So I screamed and cried at the mirror,
"What's happening?!" thru the tears.
But the mirror kept on laughing.
And my face turned hard as stone.
So I thrust my forehead forward -
And gave it a crash of its own.
******As my world fell into sparkling stars all around me, I smiled.******
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Bluelighters,
I had to learn that E couldn't give me what I was missing in my life. It is there for my fun but not as an emotional supplement. Thanks for taking the time again.
Luv,
Caress
[This message has been edited by CARESS (edited 04 April 2000).]

 

[PiHKAL]

The most honest and realistic portrayal of E use I have ever read. I *know* that we all feel the same way sometimes, you have just managed to wrap emotions with beatiful words

Peace..
PiHKAL

 

[raver_goddess777]

that i must say is an excellent peice of literature. this was very well said, it ment a lot to me, and now it's in my book of poems. thanks, keep up the good writing!
*bon bon*
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[Starfucker]

Good job. I think a lot of us are realizing this right now and I find that very interesting. I read in Simon REynolds's Generation Ecstasy about the effect of drugs on the music and (for lack of a better word) the scene. I think maybe we are being smart enough to get out (or at least slow down) before it all gets out of our control.
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Love is a dangerous angel. -Francesca Lia Block

 

[CARESS]

Thanks and HUGE hugs for your support, guys! I thought I was losing my mind.
Caress

 

[Squeaks]

Caress Once again You Shine!!!! I liked the poem alot. I too find myself to be Alice(in so many ways you know what I mean) But sometimes I cant escape the hole. I go to far and I don't even realize it until its too late. I wish I had a mirror on quite a few occassions to look into.!
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So how many licks does it take to get to the center of a Tootsie Roll Tootsie Pop?..... The world may never know!

 

[5FACES]

One feels on top of the world when all E'd out. When coming down, my friends and I and many other people I KNOW, WE ALL GET PISSED AS FUCK CUZ YOU ALWAYS WANT TO FEEL THAT GOOD. It's completely true you can't let E rule you.

 

[tHEvOID]

I've found surrounding yourself w/ amazing people really helps the "come down". When you start thinking "why was I so happy(thats what I start thinking at least

) You can look around and find a bit of your E has survived. Everyone needs substance(not to be confused w/ substance abuse

) , a piece of the great times in your life that lives on.
PLUR
BILLY R

 

[NJshygirl]

wow is all i can say

that was reallly awesome
xoxo
nj

 

[CARESS]

Bluelighters -
Thank you all so much for your responses. You always make me feel at ease when I share with you.
Squeaks and Void, I'm very happy that you two are some of the positive people I surround myself with. I got big hugs for ya both!
Caress