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alcoholism thread

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usdathashield said:
well ive fucked myself. its time for rehab unfortunately, or im pretty well fucked physically. dying for a drink i think, and unfortunately with my ulcer i cant even get down half a beer, let alone my godsend smirnoff vodka. maybe its for the best anyways...
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Especially if you are young, the regenerative powers of the body are astounding.

About kicking...it's not easy. Heroin is more addictive, and the withdrawl I am told, is hell. Lucky for me my compulsion is for booze.

But, if you're at a social gathering, nobody says, hey, let's have a....shot of heroin together. If you're at a business meeting, nobody says, hey, that deal sounds good...let's have a...shot of heroin. You don't turn on the TeeVee, 24/7, and see youthful, attractive people around the pool, all having a...shot of heroin.

You're surrounded by it. It's a social institution. That's what makes it so hard.
 
I am just starting to think I am an alcoholic. I have been a heroin and cocaine addict for most of my adult life, but have cleaned up on the hard drugs for the last year and change. it is hard for me to think I have a drinking problem, I do drink daily, but I have an insane tolerance to every fucking substance under the sun and the other day I was working with this band (playing the drums all day) and I drank all day. I think from 1 pm till very late I must have had at least thirty beers and half a bottle of gin and the sad part was I was not tanked at the end of the day. I just felt normal. I don't do irrational things when drunk and I handle myself on all substances very well, too well, I think. it is a mask that could be my downfall soon.\

that's another rough part, I play music somewhat professionally and almost three nights a week I am at some bar playing drums, which means I get free drinks the whole night. how can you not drink when you like to drink when you get free drinks all night? I don't know.

back in the day I knew that if I kept on using hard drugs I would spend the rest of my young life in jail, but I don't think like that with alcohol. if I ever got a DUI or did something very stupid while drinking I think I would try to quit. but it's hard to quit when everything seems to be fine, you know? I have come to the realization that I will probably be a hard-core drinker all my life. I suppose it's better than what I used to be addicted to. or maybe not. I guess time will tell.
 
i'm 20 years old. i have a drug problem. and an alchol problem. when i get in trouble for drugs, and get piss tested all the time.. i turn to alcohll,... i get drunk as fuck every night... i cant deal with real life without some sort of CNS depressant..im fucking hoplesss... my criminal history is 2 pages long and im not even 21.. please to anyone who is reading this... if you post on BL, you are too into drugs in the first place!! everyone here is an addict i swear to god, and if it doesnt fuck up your life right now, IT WILL. i have friends that are 35, and i can relate to the problems that they have. thats how bad i am.. anyways im druinnkin and rambling. TDS..... i live in the dark side..
 
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I am just starting to think I am an alcoholic. I have been a heroin and cocaine addict for most of my adult life, but have cleaned up on the hard drugs for the last year and change. it is hard for me to think I have a drinking problem, I do drink daily, but I have an insane tolerance to every fucking substance under the sun and the other day I was working with this band (playing the drums all day) and I drank all day. I think from 1 pm till very late I must have had at least thirty beers and half a bottle of gin and the sad part was I was not tanked at the end of the day. I just felt normal. I don't do irrational things when drunk and I handle myself on all substances very well, too well, I think. it is a mask that could be my downfall soon.\

that's another rough part, I play music somewhat professionally and almost three nights a week I am at some bar playing drums, which means I get free drinks the whole night. how can you not drink when you like to drink when you get free drinks all night? I don't know.

back in the day I knew that if I kept on using hard drugs I would spend the rest of my young life in jail, but I don't think like that with alcohol. if I ever got a DUI or did something very stupid while drinking I think I would try to quit. but it's hard to quit when everything seems to be fine, you know? I have come to the realization that I will probably be a hard-core drinker all my life. I suppose it's better than what I used to be addicted to. or maybe not. I guess time will tell.
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yeah mate, even if your not getting drunk, drinking that much is doing more damage to your body than any other drug could... gotta stop man do not let the alcoholism get hold, wont ever let go...
 
I have been blacked out drunk every night since Wednesday :(

I hate blacking out, I hate waking up hungover but I keep doing it to myself. Once I begin drinking, I want to be wasted. And I don't stop until I pass out.

I am not sure what the point of posting this is.
 
My crazy sleeping patterns kept me from drinking tonite [woke up too late to buy beer at the stores].

i actually haven't spent a dollar on alcohol for 2 weeks [not to say i haven't had a drink or two most days]. tomorrow's a holiday, though.

an alcoholic friend of mine recently had a breakdown, got pulled over DUI with a loaded gun. just got out of psych. care. nothing unusual for him, or many others I suspect.
 
usdathashield said:
yeah and well alcohol feeds on depression unlike any other drug i have encountered. kind of makes it feel good and makes you want it really when you start drinking daily.
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Is this just how you feel when u drink or is it a fact? Cause if so, fuck it all makes sense to me now. Every time i get depressed (again), which is more and more lately, all i want to do is go out and get absolutely fucking blind. This year my drinking has been getting worse and worse every time i drink. And ive been drinking for nearly 7 years now. 2 months ago, i was the worst id ever been, i probably should have gone to hospital, but my friend came home with me in the taxi and made sure i was ok then left, 8) ... but anyway, yeah. I dunno, maybe its all the drinking thats making me depressed again. Its not every day, but its weekly thats for sure, and i can drink A-LOT of vodka. and shot after shot after shot after shot. Hmm, this is starting to make me re think my drinking :| :(
 
i have an alcoholic friend that is going to die within the next few years if he doesnt stop. his pancreas is severly enflamed and he gets very sick every few weeks. he cant stop drinkin though...
 
I've had a drinking problem for many years now,and it has basically destroyed my life.It is now 2:30 in the morning,i passed out drunk around 8:00 after drinking all day.i woke up hungover and cloudy and couldn't get back to sleep,so i hit the fridge and am now on my 2nd beer.i've been drinking at least a 12 pack everyday for the last 2 months.earlier this evening i was drinking tequila and countless beers....fucking booze man,it's bad shit.probably as bad as heroin,i'd probably be better of as a heroin addict than an alki.I like drugs too ofcourse but the main staple is alcohol...it's a god damn curse!:X
 
lo lso runk i love being drunk from 10 am now its good becuase thionga are better anbd my stomach doesnt hurt than kgod devil helps me out a lot whe i need it


i mena i speak for us all wjhen i say that u ca all keep the drugs, we will keep the alcohol uno?
 
*shrugs* you know it's well, sort of pointless, he needs to wake up to it, he hears our words on an intellectual level but doesn't feel that way, and so , I'll be OK is (I suspect) his mantra.


Personally he seems to me to be a pleasant guy ! I wish him luck and also hope he doesn't die !
 
it is kind of pointless, countlee s overdoeses doesnt seemto matter, what can one do when alcoholism becomes as serious as meth or heroin addiction, its almost getting to the p[oint of a junkie shotting into collapsed veins, drinkin past a ulcer or gasttriositous im off all drugs tho so hal the battle is done

i dont really want it jus tneed it, and it almost seems like a sick joke on god behalf by making my stomach bad. unfortunatly this time was just not able to escape the cravings, i dontreally get cravings, just a sceaming inside or a dull moan to end soberism at any cost

part of the problem is i went 2 months without drinkin,m and it didnt do shit. once alcoholism si on u, it never leaves, thats what makes it differrent from every drug. alcoholism is weird as shiut. im just sorry its tattoed on my mind for my eternity which may not last very long, fuck i mean whats wrong tihg feeling good if u just need it
 
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i feel for all ya. the last week i've tried more than a few different drugs...havent drank in a week...but after awhile...nothing ends up doing it like the alcohol does.

part of not drinking was because i was out of town staying with a guy whos doing the AA thing. he said we could drink, just not around him, but i have more respect for what hes doing than that, so i just refrained.

come to think of it...maybe if i just had someone trying to stay sober around me like that, i'd be sober more often.
i know first hand what its like trying to stay sober when ppl are drinking/drunk around you. makes it real damn hard.
 
usdathashield: Sushii is absolutely correct in saying that you are risking your life by drinking. Such behaviour WILL result in death; it is inevitable and unavoidable. You cannot run from it or hide from it. You will die so painfully, in a hospital where there will be NO alcohol, that you'll regret ever drinking.

It took a brush (and maybe a quick handshake and a chat) with death to wake me up. There'd been a few brushes before that, so I'm quite sure that death was fed up of bumping into my shoulder...

And when that dark abyss looms before you.
Your only thoughts will be those of loneliness, pain and regret.
For we all die alone.
One chance is what we get, and to burn it up too quickly is not a crime, but a tragedy.
We work so hard for knowledge and understanding, simply to discard it as we hide within oblivion.
 
...And when I opened my eyes, the crab had turned into a beautiful mermaid. And we sat and ate sushi together on the warm sands of the riverbank. Oh, and later, we hugged and said our goodbyes; I watched her flap and splash all the way off into the horizon before I sighed and realised that I was, and am, a complete and utter trollish bastard... <sigh>
 
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You DO realize being insulting towards people about problems they have usually doesn't help, right?

Even if you disagree with someone's actions and would never consider doing them in your right mind, it doesn't give you free reign to personally attack the person.
 
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