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lolitsjohn said:
I don't think I have a real problem yet. Maybe just a seedling of one. I'm 17, a high school senior who gets drunk every weekend. But so does everyone else.
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I think this is where the problems begin, for many people. It's totally acceptable - encouraged, even - to go out and get shitfaced on weekends when you're young and of drinking age. It's almost a rite of passage. You're abnormal if you don't do it.

It sounds ridiculous, but I've always been glad I discovered drugs around the time all my friends were going out and getting blind drunk every weekend. Some of them did it for the last few years of highschool all the way through university - and I don't doubt it did damage. Despite the multitude of innaproriate and unhealthy reasons I use alcohol at the moment, I never went through the extreme binge-drinking stage that many of my friends did.

What these cultural expectations regarding alcohol use do, in my opinion, is make it really hard for people to see when they might be developing a problem with their drinking. It also makes it terribly easy to play down or justify alcohol abuse. The onus is on you to come clean and stop drinking - not an easy thing to do for most young people, given how parties and pubs and clubs play such an important social role. Obviously that decision is yours and yours alone when it comes to drug abuse too, it just seems that even mild-to-moderate drug issues are taken more seriously than anything regarding alcohol.
 
By the time I had my first drink, I'd already been popping E's, eating shrooms, snorting/selling ketamine, smoking herb, etc.

Only once I outgrew all those things, had to quit smoking herb, found myself out of opiate hookups, and of legal age to purchase alcoholic beverages, did I suddenly develop a drinking problem. In Uni, when I wasn't working nights, I was drunk.

Eventually I moved far away, hoping to leave my old life behind .. but living next to a grocer, there's only so much to do when you're off drugs, have few friends, only work 40 hours a week, etc.

These days I can't stomach hard liquor [makes me puke], and have never been a fan of wine, unlike all my family, who drink tons of it.
I've never been one to drink to the point of blackout [save a few wild parties / special occasions] ... I really don't even enjoy being drunk anymore.
But whenever I'm straight off the illicits [as I am again now], rarely a day goes by where I'm able to avoid drinking a beer or three.

Just got back from the store with two Big Blues ... so much for Monday's plan [I purposely didn't buy beer with my groceries yesterday ...]

I'm not sure if I should be relieved or more resentful that I no longer drink "to excess," as many would say ... I certainly don't get wicked hangovers, and probably am not harming my liver like those kegging days of college .. but there's something depressing about being unable to shake the daily intake of my favorite frosty malt beverages.

*sips*

But at least its legal 8)
It'll hold me over until the next time I can / do use something better, at least ...

p.s. I also find it ironic that I try to eat healthy, run quite a bit [5-7 miles of hills a couple times a week .. today is an off day] .. by all appearances, I'm quite normal .. but I'm as much of an addict as the jailbirds I deal with at work every day.
 
This thread is a good idea. I am drinking right now and lately have been wondering "why do i like to drink more than 4 drinks almost every night?" "is it to sleep or am i trying to escape from something?" Either way not the best of situations since i am a heroin addict, although not physically dependent on it at the moment.
 
Mistaking my pioneer djm 800 for the pisser was the low point for me that made me realise I needed to take a break.
 
jesus fucking christ am i lucky to be alive. im getting some fucked up pins and needles sensations in my different spots in my head (which panicked me im gonna go to a doc but check this out (via wikpedia)

Paresthesia or paraesthesia (in British English) is a sensation of tingling, pricking, or numbness of a person's skin with no apparent long-term physical effect, more generally known as the feeling of pins and needles or of a limb being "asleep".

Other known causes of paresthesia (aside from pressure on the affected area):

* Alcoholism
* Anticonvulsant drugs such as topiramate, sulthiame, and acetazolamide


since im feeling excellent physically (working out, eating a good diet) im gussing that my pins and needles sensation (only had it once or twice for a few times in 2 different spots in my head)

my post above was also because i overdosed on alcohol with a blood level of 0.69.

Blood Alcohol Content/ Typical Effect
0.02-.03/ Noticeable cognitive changes

.10-.15/ obviously intoxicated, delerium

.24-.36/ Loss of consciousness

.48/ Severe coma and death



Unless a person has developed a high tolerance, a BAC rating of 0.20 represents very serious intoxication (most first-time drinkers would be passed out by about 0.15), and 0.35 represents potentially fatal alcohol poisoning. 0.40 is the accepted LD50, or lethal dose for 50% of adult humans. For a long-time, heavy drinker, those numbers can at least double. In extreme cases, individuals have survived BAC ratings as high as 0.914.




jesus fucking christ mine was .69, however every single male in my family is a alcoholic and, like my uncle (but unlike the rest of the family) have the ability to drink with zero hangover, sounds like bullshit, but its true
 
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allot of people can drink with no hang over. it was in slight jest, and perhaps hope, that i said maybe you were 'under the weather' so to speak.
 
usdathashield said:
jesus fucking christ am i lucky to be alive. im getting some fucked up pins and needles sensations in my different spots in my head (which panicked me im gonna go to a doc but check this out (via wikpedia)

Paresthesia or paraesthesia (in British English) is a sensation of tingling, pricking, or numbness of a person's skin with no apparent long-term physical effect, more generally known as the feeling of pins and needles or of a limb being "asleep".

Other known causes of paresthesia (aside from pressure on the affected area):

* Alcoholism
* Anticonvulsant drugs such as topiramate, sulthiame, and acetazolamide


since im feeling excellent physically (working out, eating a good diet) im gussing that my pins and needles sensation (only had it once or twice for a few times in 2 different spots in my head)
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I nodded out and woke up with a completely limp left wrist, unable to raise it, and I couldn't straighten the fingers on my left hand. It took quite a few months, and some very strenuous/painful rehab to regain normal nerve function. Beware!
 
On topic : I drink something like one bottle of wine everyday since I'm 17 (I'm 20).
You're not alone. è_é
 
usdathashield said:
my post above was also because i overdosed on alcohol with a blood level of 0.69.

Blood Alcohol Content/ Typical Effect
0.02-.03/ Noticeable cognitive changes

.10-.15/ obviously intoxicated, delerium

.24-.36/ Loss of consciousness

.48/ Severe coma and death



Unless a person has developed a high tolerance, a BAC rating of 0.20 represents very serious intoxication (most first-time drinkers would be passed out by about 0.15), and 0.35 represents potentially fatal alcohol poisoning. 0.40 is the accepted LD50, or lethal dose for 50% of adult humans. For a long-time, heavy drinker, those numbers can at least double. In extreme cases, individuals have survived BAC ratings as high as 0.914.




jesus fucking christ mine was .69, however every single male in my family is a alcoholic and, like my uncle (but unlike the rest of the family) have the ability to drink with zero hangover, sounds like bullshit, but its true
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dude, i've been WALKING home w/a .45. purchasing a breathalyzer has really opened my eyes to how drunk i REALLY am and how drunk i FEEL
 
I.... am drunk. But I haven't been in a few days... and given the other shit totally FUCKING up my life right now, I don't give a rat's ASS. I totally deserve this! Thanks for the concern Xorkoth :)
 
gP, you really remind me of one of my friends. if i hadn't seen pictures of you before, i would swear you are the same person.

btw, PM if you want to talk anymore about alcoholism, i don't feel like being super open in a thread.
 
The major hurdle for me stopping drinking is working out what to do on the weekends. The days are alright because they're jam packed with sport. At night I'm fucked. I'll be damned if I'm going to the pub to watch the footy when I can't have a beer.

Also just about every social event that we do involves drinking. Sport, dinner, festivals, whatever. It ALL involves having a beer.

Thanks for all the useful stories here. I'm still don't really think I have a problem as yet, however I can definitely see that if I don't reign myself in a little bit then things can quickly get out of control. I guess its got a lot to do with knowing your limit and not just drinking to get written off.
 
chopped_chimp said:
I'll be damned if I'm going to the pub to watch the footy when I can't have a beer.
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lmao, actually, when i OD'd i was watching that hammers/spurs game, your right, an excellent soccer/football game when your mashed is awesome entertainment (i guess as with any sport)

ive learned ive done damage to myself, somewhat. alcoholism is a privelage to me, i really really regret ODing because i could have hid my drinking (my dad knew he just kept putting it off). want to know the scoop? im 15. ive done all these drugs and drank and im 14, now isant THAT fucked up. my brain will be fucked, when your in a lose lose situation.

all being aside, i think someone else also mentioned in an earlier thread that anytime you start to feel shaking when you dont drink you really should stop quick cuz your body begins to get adjusted.

what i really want inside is to make things better and just binge, just binge. ive lost the urge to do drugs and alcohol. im in adangerous place because i just want to binge, thats how i know im an addict if i wasnt before iam now. i dont want to use, just binge and never, ever stop
 
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its to unbelievable to explain. but no laws were broken. lol i hijacked a thread my mistake OP, ill finish by saying im not an addict at all because i dont struggle with addiction. i would make an excellent crack user because of my willingness to do whatever it takes to get high. scum of the earth, but once your off earth, then your in the white matrix room, your set.
 
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i still have this problem since the benzos, words seem to be moving a little tiny bit on the screen if i focus hard.

and no, ive fucked my brain. so im going to dxm tonite (knowing perfectly well ill cause myself to fuck myself probably not die but how many times can you kick a developing brain when its down?)

and ive got a problem where everyone i meet likes me except me. ive got a very big problem, and its going to be solved soon (not suicide, but luckily i think my plan of drugs+booze till i die as a version of suicide is going work soon).

people look at suicide as a cry for help, i look at it as getting help. just my 2 cents, and please no one in that depression use that advice, its just my personal daily motto.

i am an insomniac always have been,

i flick the channels from 1am-5am thinking about posting on bluelight about how im not sure what ive done or how ive done it
 
^^ I wonder how it is that despite realizing that you'll be fucking yourself up even further, you're still going to take DXM tonight. You really need to give your brain a rest, dude.

I take it you're very young. Please, try to understand that when you pass the end of adolescence, life will become much easier than it is now. That's not to say it will become easy, but your mind is going to calm the fuck down and you may even be able to find happiness. However, that will never happen if you die first, and it will most likeoly not happen if you continue to nearly kill yourself with chemicals.
 
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