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this thread is for serious discussion only about alcohol, your experiences, or what you are experiencing, strategies to start stopping, or to just bitch about a hang over. feel free to say what you need to, there are plenty of alcoholics/binge drinkers here who can relate, such as my self. your problem no matter how large or small is serious to you, and us too.

we are here to listen and learn, not to glamorize or condone the drink.
 
I have been a drinker since 13. Was in rehab at 14 and did a year of AA. It finally caught up to me and gave me pancreatitis. I had 7 acute attacks in one year, and now have chronic pancreatitis. I went from drinking 8-9 beers + half pint of tequila a day to now only drinking a couple times a month. You are not supposed to drink at all with my condition, but I am an alcoholic if there ever was one. Hell, I watched them pull the plug on my dad. Cause of death? Respiratory failure due to an acute attack of pancreatitis. I much prefer my percocet addiction, but when I'm out that is when I treat my self to a few drinks. The above poster is correct. It is an evil drug if ever there was one.
 
Agreed. I will be 34 in a few months time and have been drinking since I was 14/15. I'm now pretty sure that I'm an alcoholic. I had to drink at 6:30 this morning to make sure I stopped shaking for work at 8 am.

I'm quite shy and reserved I think and from when I discovered alcohol I think I loved the ability to give me confidence, but all it's doing nowadays is giving me anxiety. I feel like I'm agoraphobic now because all I want to do is lock myself away from the world and lie in bed drinking vodka/wine/beer and watch TV.

Drinking is ruining my life. I just wanted to get this off my chest. I have managed to eat earlier and got 30 minutes sleep but I know I am in for a night of sweating and shaking and not much sleep :(

I haven't had a drink for about 4 hours and it is 8pm here in England and I'm determined not to drink tonight and try and sleep. I feel so tired all the time but can't sleep. Feel like crying but can't cry. It is definitely alcohol that is doing this to me, as I am really down all the time now. I am going to start going to AA again and try and turn my life around when I get dried out. This is a really bad place to be so if you think you might be pre-disposed to alcoholism do something about it now because I wouldn't wish anyone to be as depressed and worried as I am right now. Alcohol sucks man. :(
 
Laser and sleepless...
make sure you check out the last thread it was really helpful for me as a newly admitted alcoholic: http://www.bluelight.ru/vb/showthread.php?t=365638

Know here on BL you aren't going it alone...but in some case you may need to see a doc to help you...IT IS VERY DANGEROUS to go cold turkey off of alcohol. The WDs suck and can even be FATAL.

Make sure you aren't just abstaining to abstain, do it safely!
 
Nice reply Ryka. Cold turkey is a bitch indeed. I had not gone a day without a drink for years when I had my first acute attack. Those attacks usually landed me in the hospital for 1-2 weeks. So after the second night of my first stay I had the shakes pretty bad and night sweats. 3rd night I kept hearing things and seeing things that I knew were not real. This went on for about another day(at least when I got my pain med injection I was able to sleep) and then things started to clear up. When I got home I looked up this new disease I had and it talked a lot about alcoholics. That is when I found out that all that weird shit I went through in the hospital was from alcohol WD.

Laser, I am sure as long as you have been drinking you know the ropes already. If you can get your hand on 6-7 valium it would really help with the shakes, lowers the chance of DTs and after about the 4th day you should be feeling much better.
 
Well I think I'm winning: it's 1:30 am and I still havent drank since 4 pm. I was a bit worried that I would have bad shakes, and I have but they are subsiding slightly. I just wish I could sleep.

I had a scare a couple of months ago when I felt like this and woke up with a real startled dream going on. I can't remember details but I think I shouted out and just felt mentally unstable for a minute or two so I'm worried about that. I really can't stand the constant anxiety :(

I keep filling a 500ml Lucozade bottle up from the tap and must have drunk 10 of these now!
 
^^ Hang in there Laserhosen, you're doing really well okay? Could you try and have a lie down, to just rest? You might drift off to sleep, you never know.
It's pretty hard to fall asleep when you're in front of the computer screen ;)
Good luck man <3
 
Well n3ophy7e, I'm lying in bed with Bluelight on my big screen and my wireless keyboard. I fell quite drained but I ofter get 'mental chatter', to borrow a phrase from Radioheads Thom Yorke.

It's so hard to kind of switch the brain off and relax and go to sleep but I am guessing this is linked to my alcoholism?
 
Yep it could definitely be directly linked to drinking man. Whenever I attempt sobriety, I cannot sleep for the life of me! But on the other hand, when I'm drinking, the "sleep" you get is not of a good quality, so you feel just as drained anyway. Double-edged sword 8)

Keep us updated though. I hope you get to sleep soon <3
 
God i want a drink and it's just my luck that there is a full bottle of rum out in the cupboard. If i don't give into a few shots to kick the sleeping pills in it will be a miracle.
 
Well I had a few hours (maybe 3 tops) and have been lying in a limbo state since 5:30 am. I did that without a drink but now that my alarm has gone off for work I am anxious and shaky. It's 6:30am and I've just cracked a beer in order to get up and stay calm. I also found two Paracetamol 500s that I wish I'd known about last night so I'm gonna take them. Maybe if I can get through the day without any dramas I can finally kick it tonight.

n3ophy7e yeah, I know what you mean about the quality of sleep being bad due to REM brain cycles. I've knocked myself out with booze night after night and then ended up more and more shattered until my eyes were almost rolling shut at work before. Double-edge sword indeed.
 
hi belarki. I just threw up my half a can of beer. Felt the familiar tightness in my gut and knew I was gonna hurl. Instead of rushing to the toilet I popped the plug in the sink and threw into the sink so that I could sift through the puke for one of the Paracetamol I'd taken but it had dissolved.

I need to stop doing this shit to myself.
 
^^ Oh mate, I am so sorry to hear you're having such a rough time tonight/this morning. Feel free to PM me if you need to talk to someone <3


Oh, and PIP, re: the title version....I don't get it? What does it mean? *feels stupid*


*edit* Oh NOW I geddit!!! It's a spoonerism. Ahhh I will sleep tonight having solved that riddle....


The moral of the story: alcohol kills brain cells :|
 
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fuck yes it's an evil drug. I'm a 12 pack a day guy almost. I pat attention to my body and ride ftb/bmx but am ALL FUCKED on alcohol. it is the worst drug.. by far! nothing feels like drinking 12-18 drinks bit the again... not even 80mg of OC can make me do what a 1/5th will make me do. praise alcohol and fuck it. i gots a thread on here in TDS.. alcohol is THE WORST drug. there is no argument. try me.

/just went on a 2 hour anaeorbic threshold ride after drinking 10 60 minute IPA's. exersize cures hangover buut you bever gain. going to get liver/kidney function tests done next week, bout 3 years too late then never. I'm fast, drunk an asshole and I run a 5 minute mile (5:09 last sunday) yeah we huck 10 foot gaps where i come from FUCK EVERYTHING LOVE EVERYTHING. ya'll ain't got nothin' to worry about. ever
 
hey android your luck you got sleeping pills. Off this alcohol after the doctor. no drugs (dex, lithium, lamictal, klonopin, xanax,) been able to calm be down. opiates yeah but that's it. wish I could tell a doctor that. I don't even abuse opiates, I respect them. alcohol different sunrise/sunset.
 
I got mildly wasted last night. 2 beers and a glass of that godawful captain morgan rum. Eww yuck. I could have drank more but lost the taste for it then. The sleeping pills and clonazepam where kicking in by then so i just sat out on the deck for awile and watched the sunrise kinda nodding off.

Thankfully i don't have a hangover or the crushing depression that comes with it.
 
Well I got through they day at work without having a drink, except for this morning before work. It's taken me four days and ruined my week really just because of me bingeing at the weekend and my inability to not have a hair of the dog in the morning if I do get drunk. There lies the problem: I just can't drink responsibly any more: therefore I'm an alchy.

I had a totally drained, sepressed day at work. I hardy spoke until this afternoon. I went swimming at lunchtime and that helped, although it was scary getting in the water even though I'm a strong swimmer. Anxiety has gone now and I'm just tired and slightly shaky and have a dull throbbing feeling in my kidneys. Not good but I've eaten and rehydrated.
 
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