I'm wondering how hard it would be to find a doctor in my area qualified to dispense a benzo to help people survive the withdrawal process. I can't do it on my own, and I don't even get a 24 hour window before I start to fall apart, motor skills out the window, can barely talk, shaking.. can't stop or I fell like I'll die. don't want to keep doing this anymore but have no idea where to go
Congratulations D's!!!!!!!!!!! You've definitely put the work into it!
got 30days sober today. :D
hang n there blah, u ever thought about going to a state funded rehab? yeh they may not be as fancy as betty ford. i got sober in one before.
alot of people here can help u find one if ur interested.
Had a good speaker meeting tonight, guy has 28 fucking years of soberity. man he got sober in the early 80's. like right when crack came around.
my sponsor has 19 years and continues to work on himself through stepwork. Its pretty much a program of growth. He doesn't have cravings and using drugs/alcohol is the last thing on his mind but there are other things the steps help us with.
I only know about other folks who have significant amounts of clean time (I only have a few months under my belt) but these folks want to give something back to others since they have taken from others for so long. We might not be able to get rid of all of our defects of character but we can always work on improving on being aware of the flaws that we have and working to beter ourselves.
Its a valid question and one I have asked myself. Some folks say that its no longer about the drugs after significant periods of complete abstinence. I get that to an extent but for someone like me, right here and right now, its ALL about the drugs first and foremost. I can't work on my personal flaws if I keep using so I need to take measures to eliminate potential triggers, self-sabotage and manufacturing unrealistic justifications to go out and use 'just a little'. Maybe in 30 years I'll understand what these folks mean when they say 'its no longer about the drugs' completely. I'm just not there yet
Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these steps, we tried to carry this message to alcoholics, and to practice these principles in all our affairs.