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Alcoholism Thread v. A sober life is a good life <3

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I've so far managed to keep my one and only, ever New Years resolution and havent had a drink this year.

Apart from a short break a few months back when I admitted myself to medical care but ended up starting up almost as soon as I left I've been drinking everyday it must be at least 3 years. TBH I'm just sick of it despite wanting a drink I am manging to get through the days and more suprisingly the nights and things are definatly no worse and I know they will get better, something I couldnt say when drinking.

Sleeping was a big issue for me, along with anxiety and depresion. I was on Zolpidem for quite a while but found I would wake after a 2-3 hours and could get back to sleep, increasing the dosage didnt help so i just gave them up. I thought drinking was helping me sleep but I'm managing without and waking up is a whole lot better.

My best wishes to everyone out there that is struggling with this<3, I've had problems with a number of substances but drink has a powerful way of creeping into your life and slowly gettings its claws in, I hope I'm rid of it but if I don't win this battle the war will go on;)
 
I'm struggling.

There are two champagne bottles in my refrigerator at present and my friend and the dude she is dating will be awake to have mimosas with breakfast in a short time. It's 6:45 a.m. here and I have to be somewhere in 5 hours, if my other friend's baby is not born (water broke last night).

Guess what we're bringing to the hospital? A bottle of cabernet sauvignon. :|

I definitely didn't expect to see two bottles of champagne in the fridge when I went to the kitchen for a glass of water... or to be up at this hour on a Saturday. I officially have an enabler if we want to get into addiction-speak.

The worst part is that I don't abuse anything aside from alcohol. I have 90 Valium sitting in a drawer and I only take 5 mg every second day. I have immense self-control in general, but the drink just catches up with me, and since it is socially acceptable, I have a false sense of security.

Another day is upon me, and I have to handle it with sobriety. I am putting myself to work and getting my shit together - that self-control and strictness I have innately is going to come through for me. Someday.
 
Sorry to hear that.

Honestly I took me admitting that I cannot quit on my own and seeking help to finally do it. Its going to be an ongoing struggle for people like us, but I can tell you that it gets easier over time.

I cannot believe that I am totally sober today. Its very hard work but its so worth it.

I found that its just easier to just fucking stop using everything. Smoking weed made me want to drink, using coke made me crave opiates, a beer made me want to do opiates to give it a boost. It was non stop and I just could not find what I was looking for anymore.

Best of luck to you all, please PM me anytime. More then willing to do phone calls and texts as well.
 
Had a frank conversation with my social worker/social psychiatry support (don't really know what's the correct term in english), and we decided that I should cut down to 2 drinks a day (except when I'm with friends). That part is easy, but I'm withdrawing. How could I be this stupid? I knew how addictive it was, I knew that being a former benzo/gbl abuser I would get withdrawals easier :/

The two drinks keep me from sweating too much, so it isn't too bad, but still. To be honest it makes me feel like a loser. I'm always the first to point out that Danes drink too much, and here I am, drinking too much. Well at least it's relatively easy for me to stop...

Sorry for the ranting, I just feel a bit shitty.
 
Day 2 with no drink. Not by choice, but now I'm considering just going with it. At the moment, there are no serious withdrawal symptoms. Just cravings.
 
^^ Sure man, just go with it. Make sure you have some distraction activities planned in case the cravings get worse. Good luck <3

mukaki said:
Had a frank conversation with my social worker/social psychiatry support (don't really know what's the correct term in english), and we decided that I should cut down to 2 drinks a day (except when I'm with friends). That part is easy, but I'm withdrawing. How could I be this stupid? I knew how addictive it was, I knew that being a former benzo/gbl abuser I would get withdrawals easier :/

The two drinks keep me from sweating too much, so it isn't too bad, but still. To be honest it makes me feel like a loser. I'm always the first to point out that Danes drink too much, and here I am, drinking too much. Well at least it's relatively easy for me to stop...

Sorry for the ranting, I just feel a bit shitty.
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Hi mukaki, I know sometimes it's really easy to feel negatively towards ourselves about the decisions we've made, especially if you're in withdrawals from alcohol and/or feeling a bit depressed in the first place. But please try not to beat yourself up about what you're currently going through. Any negativity will hinder your recovery. Positive thinking will help you so much more (even though, as I said, it can be hard at a time like this).
Keep us updated with how you're going <3
 
I'm doing better with moderation compared with the last time I wrote. :) Totally sober at present as I have to drive. :) I'm picking up some good things to cook, and tomorrow I really won't have any time to drink.

I'm *almost* ready to deal with my family being much worse with it than me. I'm going home for 9 days on Tuesday. The limit of 2 glasses of wine with dinner/2 pints while out with friends seems to me to be a sensible approach. The holidays are over and it's time to stop fucking around.

I just hope I don't get stuck at either airport for any length of time :| HUGE, huge trigger to have freaking 10 bars in 1 airport.
 
I'm seriously thinking of stopping alcohol use, ever since I quit weed a year or two ago I've been drinking quite a bit of alcohol and can feel my brain turning to mush and not being anywhere near as sharp as it was. My body just feels weaker and more flabby as well. Alcohol has so many shitty effects and can make you say or do the most stupid things. As soon as I start drinking I feel the need to drink myself into a stuper, my logic just switiches off. Then when I wake up in the morning I feel all depressed. I don't get bad headaches or sickness much just a depressed and fragile feeling. So I am going to attempt to stop abusing myself and go to the gym.
 
hey guys my step mum is a full on alco and codiene addict (she drinks atleast a bottol of vodka and 24 panadine extra a day!)about 3-4 years ago she tried to top her self by taking a bunch of sleeping tablets n panadiene i wont bore you all with the details...well she ended up in hosptiable and the doctors were more worryed about how her liver was from the constant large dose's of paracetamol in her liver.they put 6 bags of charcole threw her or somthing cos her liver was green!The doctors said to her if she keeps going the way she is she is gonna die or somthing.well she cheated on my dad a fucked off about 2 years ago and i have never been happyer.She has cut off all contact with me cos im my dads son and her new partner (some old cunt whos 20 years older than her and is a full on speed head and sucks down bongs every miniut) and hes super jelouse and basicly (or my step mum makes out)that he dosent want me to see her cos mum n dad will get back together (witch they wont cos we have never been happyer)anyways i know shes been hitting the piss harder and codiene harder (upto 48 tablets a day)and now we find how shes banngin up gear!!!so a few days ago shes talkin to my step sister and says shes getting shooting sharp pains up her back....Whats going on with her does she have much time left????

sorry to rant guys n gals i think i just needa vent :( mods feel free to delete if this isent suitable
 
That sounds seriously rough junkie_skumbag. I'm not that proficient with liver damage (I hope :s), but maybe someone else on this thread knows the answer.

Thanks n3ophy7e. Keeping a positive mindset is hard with all that's going on. I have recently moved away from home, not because there was anything wrong with living at home, but I'm 21 and well... So I moved. Now I'm sitting in my apartment, barely eating. My parents knows that things aren't going as they are supposed to, but they are keeping their distance at my request.

I have some socialpsychiatric help (the one I mentioned before. Basically a person that helps me with whatever I need help with. Anything from getting admitted to a hospital to getting furniture from IKEA.), and I'm meeting her tomorrow, but it's difficult to ask for help....

Turns out that cutting down drinking is harder than it "should" be. Should as in that I've never had a problem with alcohol before. But then again, I'm depressed so why shouldn't I be drinking? At least that's what my substance abuse side is telling me :(

:(
 
I've been boozing and abusing everything else for a very long time. The drugs have come and gone, but the booze was ALWAYS there. The typical cycle was, wake up hungover, smoke weed to feel better, weed made me tired so I'd drink a few pots of coffee, made me jittery so I'd drink some whiskey, one drink turns into 6+, smoke a bowl to "go to sleep" but end up jacked and drinking/taking sleeping pills, finally pass out to repeat the next day.

I tried to stop, moderate, only drink this or that, only drink here or there, only smoke weed, only drink, blahh blahh blahh. Nothing worked for long. I'm truly an alcoholic in the most real sense of the word.

Luckily I became a victim of the drug war and was forced to stop drinking or face 4 years in prison. I've been in AA since then. Never being hung over is amazing. Its only 3 weeks sober so far but "one day at a time" has been very powerful for me. I don't have to worry about being sober in 20 years, or next vacation, or even next week....I only have to stay sober today. Peace and love to you all.
 
^^ I agree 100% with the never being hungover part!! its awesome!!


and well done on stopping - high five! :D
 
Mariposa said:
I'm struggling.

There are two champagne bottles in my refrigerator at present and my friend and the dude she is dating will be awake to have mimosas with breakfast in a short time. It's 6:45 a.m. here and I have to be somewhere in 5 hours, if my other friend's baby is not born (water broke last night).

Guess what we're bringing to the hospital? A bottle of cabernet sauvignon. :|

I definitely didn't expect to see two bottles of champagne in the fridge when I went to the kitchen for a glass of water... or to be up at this hour on a Saturday. I officially have an enabler if we want to get into addiction-speak.

The worst part is that I don't abuse anything aside from alcohol. I have 90 Valium sitting in a drawer and I only take 5 mg every second day. I have immense self-control in general, but the drink just catches up with me, and since it is socially acceptable, I have a false sense of security.

Another day is upon me, and I have to handle it with sobriety. I am putting myself to work and getting my shit together - that self-control and strictness I have innately is going to come through for me. Someday.
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Mari, sometimes our parallels surprise me. I am also the pinnacle of responsibility with my valium, and I too use social pretext as an excuse to drink.

Take tonight for example. A friend texts me in the middle of the day, asking to come over 'for a beer' to talk about an upcoming sports tournament. Of course, I agree to come for 'a beer' which turns into 4 beers, and 3 shots (he showed me his well stocked bar, and I expressed much interest in such novelty) which turned into a trip to the liquor store.

I had no intention of drinking tonight, but you know, my friend had me over for a beer..

Even when Jammy came over last week, one of my first questions was, "What would you like to drink?" "No, no, I insist.." I'm such a kind host. ;)
 
well, once again you've provided a text book example.

its sooo routine, and works almost every~time.


i dont mind being around it anymore, after so much exposure and time looking in...
its pretty disturbing honestly.
but, hopefully you can get your arse kicked just enough to make seriously wonder,
why would i want to do that again,? really?
the responses you give yourself start to sound pretty silly after so many times.
it makes it easier, as it gets easier.
 
I had my alcoholism [pretty much] under control until I started bupe. drank a couple of times a week. With bupes 'level' mood... I started to feel like I needed something else.... but it wasn't easy to drink on this drug. It gave me a headache and no buzz. So I had to drop my dose below 1mg to get anything at all from the booze. Now i'm drinking everyday but try to wait till 4-5pm and usually I'm able to limit it to about 1/2 pint... but mix it with benzo. Not a good situation for sure.
 
^^ Yeah man that's a bit of a tricky situation to be in. You're clean from opiates but you're still chasing some kind of escape through substance use. Do you go to any drug counselling/therapy??


I am so very pleased and proud that I've gotten through today without a drop of alcohol. First day in I don't even know how long. I'm about to try melatonin for the first time to help me sleep, fingers crossed it helps because I've hardly slept at all this week. I'm not going to drink tomorrow either. I absolutely refuse to give in.
 
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