Idk, bud, I have a difficult time posting in the PMs cause I always think I'm gonna post in the room or something...As you know I was doing good for like 11 days(dont even know now, the last week was a blur dude) I just had a beer this morning trying to get rid of this accumulated hangover...didnt help. Plus I smoked pot yesterday thinking that it will lessen the WDs (I swear I get WDs from just a six pack[if you consider real acute anxiety aWD])...wierd. The whole time I was high I was still thinking about getting drunk. My g/f took my wallet to work with her today so I don't bounce anymore shit at the bank... Too fucking sick to do shit today...Idk, maybe meetings are in order.LOL! The problem with that is by the time I feel good enough to go to meetings, thats when I forget why I should go in the first place. And at that point, drinking seems like alot more fun than a meeting.Yeah I just checked again, last message from you was last week
Idk, bud, I have a difficult time posting in the PMs cause I always think I'm gonna post in the room or something...As you know I was doing good for like 11 days(dont even know now, the last week was a blur dude) I just had a beer this morning trying to get rid of this accumulated hangover...didnt help. Plus I smoked pot yesterday thinking that it will lessen the WDs (I swear I get WDs from just a six pack[if you consider real acute anxiety aWD])...wierd. The whole time I was high I was still thinking about getting drunk. My g/f took my wallet to work with her today so I don't bounce anymore shit at the bank... Too fucking sick to do shit today...Idk, maybe meetings are in order.LOL! The problem with that is by the time I feel good enough to go to meetings, thats when I forget why I should go in the first place. And at that point, drinking seems like alot more fun than a meeting.
Thanks man.
Later.
Bahai seems awaesome dude, always wanted to go in there....Congrats, man. What was the international festival? It's a church of all religions right? I've been trying to moderate my drinking but to no avail. Every morning I wake needing a drink, like I'm gonna swallow my tongue..It reminds me of like a parrott with the toung hanging out....Fucking alcohol sucks...Maybe not if you can handle it but for me its a poison that I love to hate...Still clean and serene! Went to a great NA meeting. Like last time I am quickly finding myself more attracted to NA over AA, however, I am not going to make any rash decisions.
My sponsor isn't the greatest with contact (I do check in daily). However, I think I would be in major trouble if I didn't have the last experience/previous practice at being clean wasn't there. So anyways, I am thinking about it.
Had an amazing experience at a Bahai temple today. Kinda went on a whim and found out it was a major international festival. I felt so damn good after that. Yes, I was buzzing/glowing.
Card declined ^^^^ ?
A 5th is a considerable amount man and it may take you a little bit of time to find your bearings and to reestablish your sleep pattern but it's very doable with minimum withdrawls. My wds have always been anxiety not really the shakes. The first 2-3 days are the worst. But you better have a plan for what you are going to do with your alcohol-free freedom man.I'm worried of the wds I'll have coming off a 5th a day habit for 16 months straight
Go google HAMS alocohol reduction drinking...I'm worried of the wds I'll have coming off a 5th a day habit for 16 months straight
I've always drank but it's been everyday hardcore for 16 months now
Ya ima check with the hospital or see a dr for some benzos
I use opiates moderately kratom and oxy and methadone
No benzo use currently or anything?
Glad to hear you are going to see a medical professional.
I am clean today, 21 days! Charing a meeting next month. Switched from an AA to NA sponsor though, I've always liked NA better. Hit up a meeting earlier today already.
Congrats on your 21 days man! I remember whan we first started talking it was like 7 days or something.
How do you switch a sponsor? When I had a sponsor (before he vanished off the planet) he was like my friend...I would feel like I'm telling my friend "I don't want to be friends anymore".
Later man,
Take care.