No idea what happened tonight, I only drank 10 to 12 beers tonight and seemed way drunker than other nights. For measure when I was driving back from kfc I managed to clip my side view mirror with someone elses car. Not good, last Time I smashed a part of my car I was also drunk. Was looking at my phone for sports results and smashed up the right front of my car. It wasn't legal for it to be on the road however no one reported me either as I had only smashed a metal barrier.
Drink driving is seriously playing 'Russian roulette' with both your life, and other peoples. I guess you already know this though. My father was killed from an accident where him and his friends decided to drink drive. From what I heard when I was older - they had been doing it for years beforehand, and were never caught or hurt, so they just thought it was yet another evening. Please don't drink and drive - both for your sake, and for others.
As for anxiety issues - I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety disorder. Alcohol is a known depressant, and makes anxiety 10 times worse when you're drinking. I tried tablets, thought that they made me feel better, but, of course drinking on the tablets didn't let them do their full work.
When I got towards the end of my alcoholism - my tolerance totally dropped. I think this was my body telling me enough is enough. I would get absolutely smashed from a few gulps of vodka. Then the vomiting started. It wasn't what I had ate - because I couldn't eat at that stage, it was my stomach lining and bile... (Ewwwwwww) My eyeballs were increasingly more and more bloodshot, my skin I swear was beginning to get a yellow tinge, I was constantly pale. Pale and thin. God, was I thin.
Alcohol too offers that safe place. That soon wears off when it becomes problematic - as you are finding. Alcohol used to be the centre of my universe. I thought that I couldn't enjoy life without a drink. This of course I've found to be utter BS. I've found plenty of things to stimulate and reward me - and you will too if you look. For instance, I really love computer gaming and consoles. Xbox One is coming out at the end of the month, so, I'm getting that. Had I still been drinking there would've been no way we could've afforded it - the total amount we used to spend on alcohol was frightening. I'm sure the amount you spend too is pretty large.
I'm so pleased that you have identified that you are 29, and now want out. I gave it up around the end of my twenties, and I've got 5 years sober. It totally can be done. Once the haze is gone, you will see what needs to be done to get what you want.
AA isn't for everyone - for example, I gave it up on my own. Yep, that was hard, but totally worth it. There are other ways though, and if you want it - go research what is help is available to you in your area. Remember this forum is always here to help and support you.
Good luck!
. Yesterday I had to put my tablets up to 200mg x 4 which has made me ultra sleepy, and ultra 'slurry' but I'm coping a little better. I think my tolerance is building because the morning tablets don't really have the same effect as they did on day 1 which is good. So, I get all of my housework/shopping done now in the morning before the afternoon tablets. My 'missus' is being super thoughtful - after a hard day at work, she comes home, makes sure that I'm ok, then makes me dinner when I feel like eating. I'm so lucky to have her. 
