Funny reading about people saying they would be happy to just be high on heroin for free for the rest of their lives...
Am i only only one who values being able to feel human emotion and have good sex? I mean being an opiate addict means no sex basically and any sex you do have is nothing compared to not being on opiates.
Coming out of a methadone addiction, surely im not the only person that is not disgusted by daily opiate use and craves deep meaningful relationships with people and good sex? I mean opiates are great, but having sex with someone you truly love, and being able to FULLY feel that love gets me happier than any shot of heroin ever did.
I'm on methadone, and sex is normal for me. I'm not on a dose high enough to turn me into a zombie like many others I see, in fact I'm usually uncomfortable in minor withdrawal for most of the day, partly because I've been reducing as often as possible. Anyway, I guess I'm saying everyone is different.
Edited to add:
I read that you don't feel human emotion on opiates. Well my friend, opiates affect us both very differently. I live my life on opiates like a real positive person, without the I'm a depressed wreck. It was like this before opiates too, to a lesser degree. But I am not numb to all feelings when I've had a shot of smack, in fact, that's when I'm most likely to spend time with loved ones, be interested in conversation with friends, and actually enjoy life. Now that I'm on methadone maintenance, most of the time I'm depressed, I never go out with the family, not from lack of want, but because everything is an effort and honestly, life is too depressing to be fucked. I feel like shit all the time, I try, but constantly fail with my intentions to spend more time with my family. Then when I occasionally get shouted a shot of smack, I'm the best family man there is. I'm happy for a day. Life seems worth living again. Plus, if the missus is keen, we'll have a great fuck at the end of it.
Yeah, it's definitely the benzos talking, but opiates affect us all differently, and maybe some of us just don't have enough natural "happy cells", endorphins, whatever they are, to enjoy life without some kind of drug. Speed, then opiates give me that.
Another edit: Talk about a shit drug for sex, speed. Ok, enough editing and opinions from me.