ok so I've been clean for 2 years. had a single other relapse a tear ago. Bought a teener...and threw half of it away. I dont throw drugs away. but that one was definitely not what we were wanting. so anyways recently I left my last job and decided to go on a binge before locating a new job. which isn't hard considering im no professional...
well I went on a binge for a bit over 2 weeks and did around 7g....way too much I know. IV all of it. I was definitely expecting to be sluggish and depressed but what I've been feeling is worse than that. those I can push through as I feel that every damn day. Im T1 diabetic so I never went more than 12 hours without eating. this is my 6th day sober and I feel vertigo. oh yeah probably doesn't help I poped a bunch of those bluechew viagra during this and wanked it to hell and back cause my chick wouldn't play much lol
for the last few days I've just been laying down. eating too much junk like peanut butter and my usual fruit. sausage and eggs with a muffin for breakfast. I still feel badly nutritioned....and my head space...
My only other drug choice is good ole MJ. I smoke good sativa. it has and will remain with me until the end. I haven't been smoking much of that or cigarettes in this last week....
a lesson has been learned yet again though...
I'm far from invincible
this head space needs to go though as I'm broke and already landed a new job that I'm not comfortable starting like this
well I went on a binge for a bit over 2 weeks and did around 7g....way too much I know. IV all of it. I was definitely expecting to be sluggish and depressed but what I've been feeling is worse than that. those I can push through as I feel that every damn day. Im T1 diabetic so I never went more than 12 hours without eating. this is my 6th day sober and I feel vertigo. oh yeah probably doesn't help I poped a bunch of those bluechew viagra during this and wanked it to hell and back cause my chick wouldn't play much lol
for the last few days I've just been laying down. eating too much junk like peanut butter and my usual fruit. sausage and eggs with a muffin for breakfast. I still feel badly nutritioned....and my head space...
My only other drug choice is good ole MJ. I smoke good sativa. it has and will remain with me until the end. I haven't been smoking much of that or cigarettes in this last week....
a lesson has been learned yet again though...
I'm far from invincible
this head space needs to go though as I'm broke and already landed a new job that I'm not comfortable starting like this