Cheesecake_Pirate
Greenlighter
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First of all i will give a bit of background into previous drug use which may have triggered this.
I am 23 and have been into taking drugs since I was around 17. It started just mdma and mephedrone but then when i moved to a larger city for university i began to get much more involved, basically over the course of my 5 years at university my drug intake increased and the variety of drugs used widened. For the first couple of years it was ketamine and mdma/pills every weekend and then when I got into his 3rd year I started to develop a coke habit which got worse and worse. I was partying all weekend every weekend and also started taking DMT and other psychedelics, basically just whatever was available, but coke was becoming increasingly more frequent, there would never be a session where coke wasnt involved.
I would mix drugs all the time too, just basically always trying to get as fucked up as possible and staying awake for days. I didnt seem to have an off switch, that is, until exam time came and i would stay off the party scene for a month to cram for exams, then go straight back to party mode. No idea how i did it but i somehow managed to get reasonable grades up until the end of third year. But during the summer after his third year thats when things started to go bad.
I spent the summer in the city just partying non stop, and this is when the coke habit began to get out of control. I started taking it by myself in the evenings and then scoffing lots of valium to get to sleep. By the time 4th year uni started i was pretty off the rails, and thats when the coke intake stated to get chronic, My care for uni went out the window, just partying all the time taking every party drug available to stupid levels. taking coke daily and becoming incredibly paranoid, and combating this by taking huge amounts of valium. Also started dabbling with crack, would often end up sitting in flat battering lines and cooking up at the same time.
This got worse and worse and I was just totally off the rails, loosing friends, ruining relationships and then started getting into heroin(only ever smoking), but this became more and more of a thing; battering huge amounts of coke and then smoking heroin to come down. I was doing a lot of this on my own now. Thankfully my friends and family saved him. I left the city for the summer for the summer to work in a factory.
when home i was still far from clean living, but more drinking a lot and taking drugs when they were available(but stopped the heroin and crack). I came back after summer to repeat the year I had failed previously. This time around was slightly better, not partying every weekend but still maintaining a cocaine habit, pretty much daily up until exam time. Did satisfactorily enough in xmas exams, so when I was finished there was only one thing on my mind, a very very messy druggy Christmas season.
Now, this is when the acid nightmare happened. Sorry for such a long intro but I am experiencing some truly grim experiences due to this trip and would love some advise or any sort of insight into what may be the root of it. Basically after a night out where a large amount of coke had been consumed I ended up back at a party. i continue to snort coke , and was already noticeably paranoid.But i was in such a messed up state i stupidly took 2 acid tabs and a 2cb in a one-er. thats when the horror started. everything started to go dark and sinister and then he started to hallucinate rats all over the place, in every corner of the room all running towards me. I could feel them on my body ad started stripping down screaming. this lasted for hours. I couldnt sleep properly for the next 2 nights and every dark object i looked at reminded me of those rats.
Now 5 months later, my life is more back on track thankfully, but I still takes drugs a lot. In the 3 months after the trip i was still taking coke every day, and also smoking a lot of hash daily. I have now cut out the coke but still smoke and takes k now and again. Since stopping coke my mental health has improved hugely.
Apart from this one horrible thing that I believes the acid trip triggered. At around twighlight every evening(i know this makes Me sound totally nuts but i always seems to be same time every evening), everything starts looking very bleak and i notice the black in everything promiently, reminding me of the rats and making me shiver. now whenever i take k or smoke I starts getting dark flashes all over the place, as if the rats are hinting at appearing, and when i get into bed I have sensations on my body that resemble something creeping on my skin. When i close my eyes i still visuallises a sea of black rats flooding towards me and can almost feel them under his covers sometimes. I often lash out when in bed as the slightest sensation on my body triggers that belief that its a rat even though i knows it is not. It is so so grim and i am really worried .
Will this ever end? Will I have to stop dabbling in drugs for good? I would really appreciate any advice, or maybe someone who has experienced anything similar and how they dealt with it.Thanks for listening.
I am 23 and have been into taking drugs since I was around 17. It started just mdma and mephedrone but then when i moved to a larger city for university i began to get much more involved, basically over the course of my 5 years at university my drug intake increased and the variety of drugs used widened. For the first couple of years it was ketamine and mdma/pills every weekend and then when I got into his 3rd year I started to develop a coke habit which got worse and worse. I was partying all weekend every weekend and also started taking DMT and other psychedelics, basically just whatever was available, but coke was becoming increasingly more frequent, there would never be a session where coke wasnt involved.
I would mix drugs all the time too, just basically always trying to get as fucked up as possible and staying awake for days. I didnt seem to have an off switch, that is, until exam time came and i would stay off the party scene for a month to cram for exams, then go straight back to party mode. No idea how i did it but i somehow managed to get reasonable grades up until the end of third year. But during the summer after his third year thats when things started to go bad.
I spent the summer in the city just partying non stop, and this is when the coke habit began to get out of control. I started taking it by myself in the evenings and then scoffing lots of valium to get to sleep. By the time 4th year uni started i was pretty off the rails, and thats when the coke intake stated to get chronic, My care for uni went out the window, just partying all the time taking every party drug available to stupid levels. taking coke daily and becoming incredibly paranoid, and combating this by taking huge amounts of valium. Also started dabbling with crack, would often end up sitting in flat battering lines and cooking up at the same time.
This got worse and worse and I was just totally off the rails, loosing friends, ruining relationships and then started getting into heroin(only ever smoking), but this became more and more of a thing; battering huge amounts of coke and then smoking heroin to come down. I was doing a lot of this on my own now. Thankfully my friends and family saved him. I left the city for the summer for the summer to work in a factory.
when home i was still far from clean living, but more drinking a lot and taking drugs when they were available(but stopped the heroin and crack). I came back after summer to repeat the year I had failed previously. This time around was slightly better, not partying every weekend but still maintaining a cocaine habit, pretty much daily up until exam time. Did satisfactorily enough in xmas exams, so when I was finished there was only one thing on my mind, a very very messy druggy Christmas season.
Now, this is when the acid nightmare happened. Sorry for such a long intro but I am experiencing some truly grim experiences due to this trip and would love some advise or any sort of insight into what may be the root of it. Basically after a night out where a large amount of coke had been consumed I ended up back at a party. i continue to snort coke , and was already noticeably paranoid.But i was in such a messed up state i stupidly took 2 acid tabs and a 2cb in a one-er. thats when the horror started. everything started to go dark and sinister and then he started to hallucinate rats all over the place, in every corner of the room all running towards me. I could feel them on my body ad started stripping down screaming. this lasted for hours. I couldnt sleep properly for the next 2 nights and every dark object i looked at reminded me of those rats.
Now 5 months later, my life is more back on track thankfully, but I still takes drugs a lot. In the 3 months after the trip i was still taking coke every day, and also smoking a lot of hash daily. I have now cut out the coke but still smoke and takes k now and again. Since stopping coke my mental health has improved hugely.
Apart from this one horrible thing that I believes the acid trip triggered. At around twighlight every evening(i know this makes Me sound totally nuts but i always seems to be same time every evening), everything starts looking very bleak and i notice the black in everything promiently, reminding me of the rats and making me shiver. now whenever i take k or smoke I starts getting dark flashes all over the place, as if the rats are hinting at appearing, and when i get into bed I have sensations on my body that resemble something creeping on my skin. When i close my eyes i still visuallises a sea of black rats flooding towards me and can almost feel them under his covers sometimes. I often lash out when in bed as the slightest sensation on my body triggers that belief that its a rat even though i knows it is not. It is so so grim and i am really worried .
Will this ever end? Will I have to stop dabbling in drugs for good? I would really appreciate any advice, or maybe someone who has experienced anything similar and how they dealt with it.Thanks for listening.
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