I joined BL last year when I first knew there was a problem or admitted there was a problem and here I am a year later just in deeper water. On my one and only past post somebody replied and suggested that I post in this forum in order to get the best response.
I started like probably many others taking Norco's for leg and back pain legally prescribed with no intention of taking them to get high! I was taking them as prescribed for the first 2 to 3 years four pills a day 10/325.
My overmedicating began when my daughter passed away last July and I started taking a couple more here and a couple more there just to help deaden the mental pain I am now built up to approximately 30-40 Norcos a day ( depending on availability) and I have ventured into getting Roxicodone's 15 or 30's when I cannot obtain any Norcos after my prescription is ran out. I take 250 mg of the roxis a day
I know that this run is fixing to come to an end abruptly so I need advice on how maybe I can do it myself before things blowup and I have to do it cold turkey. Since this last Friday I've taken180 10/325
I am just not sure where to begin. My family knows I take them but nowhere near to the extreme that I take them I spend about $2-300.00 a day and have for the last year. I have tried tapering but the pain gets too extreme and I always give in, I can't take Xanax or Valium.
I'm scared to death of withdraws I'm not physically in very good shape I have COPD plus high blood pressure I've only been through minor withdraws and I honestly thought they were going to kill me .
I could go on and on regarding the deceitful actions I've taken to hide my addiction from my husband. He has worked out town Monday through Friday but he is soon to come home and I won't be able to hide it much longer.
I've been down the road of addiction before I am 15 years clean from a 20 year iv meth addiction but there was no physical withdrawal.
I'm not necessarily looking for a shortcut I'm just looking for a way to do this in which I can still function each day. I have a high stress job with a lot of responsibility I can't just go to bed till it passes .
I need all of your experience and suggestions please!!!!
I started like probably many others taking Norco's for leg and back pain legally prescribed with no intention of taking them to get high! I was taking them as prescribed for the first 2 to 3 years four pills a day 10/325.
My overmedicating began when my daughter passed away last July and I started taking a couple more here and a couple more there just to help deaden the mental pain I am now built up to approximately 30-40 Norcos a day ( depending on availability) and I have ventured into getting Roxicodone's 15 or 30's when I cannot obtain any Norcos after my prescription is ran out. I take 250 mg of the roxis a day
I know that this run is fixing to come to an end abruptly so I need advice on how maybe I can do it myself before things blowup and I have to do it cold turkey. Since this last Friday I've taken180 10/325
I am just not sure where to begin. My family knows I take them but nowhere near to the extreme that I take them I spend about $2-300.00 a day and have for the last year. I have tried tapering but the pain gets too extreme and I always give in, I can't take Xanax or Valium.
I'm scared to death of withdraws I'm not physically in very good shape I have COPD plus high blood pressure I've only been through minor withdraws and I honestly thought they were going to kill me .
I could go on and on regarding the deceitful actions I've taken to hide my addiction from my husband. He has worked out town Monday through Friday but he is soon to come home and I won't be able to hide it much longer.
I've been down the road of addiction before I am 15 years clean from a 20 year iv meth addiction but there was no physical withdrawal.
I'm not necessarily looking for a shortcut I'm just looking for a way to do this in which I can still function each day. I have a high stress job with a lot of responsibility I can't just go to bed till it passes .
I need all of your experience and suggestions please!!!!