Hi everyone!
As I've said in some other posts I made on this forum today, I'm very, very new to the world of drug use. I've experimented a bit with MDMA (powder), XTC, weed (I faint from smoking that shit), ... I recently got into using coke. The problem is that I seem to have lost the little self control I had. I've always been prone to addiction, from alcohol to tobacco, but I fear that the way I'm handling my usage of cocaine might really get out of hand... I get it from someone I trust for 99%, I know he gives me good coke, I know the quality is good, I know the high I get from it is amazing, but that's the problem... Today, I used coke alone for the first time, and I haven't stopped yet. Every time the effects seem to start wearing off, I just do more. I love this feeling, but I have to work tonight (at the moment I'm typing this it's 10:30am, I have to start work at 7pm, so I have enough time to sober up before work). The problem is I don't ever want to be sober again, and the biggest problem about that is I KNOW it's a wrong way to think. I just need some support, perhaps some advice on how to stay in control of how much I use... I can't go to work high, it's just a bar work in, so most people probably wouldn't even notice, but my boss is hardcore against drugs of any kind, so I really can't risk working on coke, no mather how much I would like to, that would be the end of my job...
Anyway, thanks for reading my rant, any and all tips or advice are more than welcome, even just a litle supportive word would mean the world to me right now.
As I've said in some other posts I made on this forum today, I'm very, very new to the world of drug use. I've experimented a bit with MDMA (powder), XTC, weed (I faint from smoking that shit), ... I recently got into using coke. The problem is that I seem to have lost the little self control I had. I've always been prone to addiction, from alcohol to tobacco, but I fear that the way I'm handling my usage of cocaine might really get out of hand... I get it from someone I trust for 99%, I know he gives me good coke, I know the quality is good, I know the high I get from it is amazing, but that's the problem... Today, I used coke alone for the first time, and I haven't stopped yet. Every time the effects seem to start wearing off, I just do more. I love this feeling, but I have to work tonight (at the moment I'm typing this it's 10:30am, I have to start work at 7pm, so I have enough time to sober up before work). The problem is I don't ever want to be sober again, and the biggest problem about that is I KNOW it's a wrong way to think. I just need some support, perhaps some advice on how to stay in control of how much I use... I can't go to work high, it's just a bar work in, so most people probably wouldn't even notice, but my boss is hardcore against drugs of any kind, so I really can't risk working on coke, no mather how much I would like to, that would be the end of my job...
Anyway, thanks for reading my rant, any and all tips or advice are more than welcome, even just a litle supportive word would mean the world to me right now.