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Mental Health Advice regarding mania

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Pinging brah

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So this is the worse ive been, or the best. Ive had maybe 8 hrs sleep in the past 3 days. 1 hour sleep last night,i have more energy then an athlete on coke, my words. Ive never had irrational thoughts of gandiosity.
Im at work, not much i can do about that, i feel it may be to late to prevent psychosis.
Anyway, i may or may not have a zyprexa lying around. What the fuck should i do?
And wheres this euphoria everyone speaks of, unlucky me, im just the same hateful cunt.
 
I dunno man, do you want mania? Kinda sounds like it. Its not good for you.

If you were manic I'd expect a longer post.

Mania can be "better" than heroin and meth combined or simply deep, tortured, energized depression. It usually ends with sorrow and regret though.

When it comes to mania, grandiosity, or the feeling of importance and/or supernatural/extremely exceptional ability and/or energy, is the name of the game.

We'd also probably detect a tone of bragging if you were manic.

But I'm not jumping to conclusions. Want to elaborate?

You should sleep, of course
 
I mean't i seemed to be on the verge, ive had hypomania before. I usually sleep 4-5 hours a night which is fine. yesterday i went home early, popped valium/codeine, really took the edge off. I wasn't psychotic your right. But my thoughts of being better then everyone is great, but extreme irritability, anger and agitation arn't. Anyway i slept last night thank god. Another day and i couldn't imagine.
Ofcourse ive only been diagnosed on 1 occassion but i don't trust doctors, especially doctors trying to hook me pills, i'd rather abuse drugs. I could actually just be superhuman. I know my episodes pale in comparrison to others. Its beyond coincidence, i am becoming worse and more unstable.
 
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If you want to stay non-manic, get a script instead of self-medicating please.

Its not that man lol. When you're truly manic you don't think you're "better than everyone" so much as are, like, the embodiment of human potential. Its hard to describe.

You'd rather abuse pills? Good luck with that.

Mine do too. I'm lucky enough to usually be extremely manic, but not so much that my cognition is impacted.
 
So basically become dependent on zyprexa is the way to go? Sorry i don't think so, no offence. The only problem is the lack of sleep, i can handle the energy to an extent. Both my grandfathers were bipolar 1, and violent. My mum a schitzophrenic, my dad a lifelong junkie. Its no coincidence i self medicate but doesn't give me an excuse to be weak.

Im not competing with you, i'd rather not go insane and hurt people, but i feel its innevitable. Im not self diagnosing but, i am assuming. Sometimes i wish these social restraints will break and ill be free, or crazy as society calls it.
 
Never said that dude.

Different people, different preferences. I personally can all but not tolerate any dose of any anti-psychotic.

If someone scripted you that they probably had a good reason. With all the hate on bluelight against neuroleptics they really aren't given out that often and are extremely potent medicines.

No offence taken whatsoever.

Weak...weak? Pfff, we're special. Damned, but Chosen at the same time.

You really want to run the risk of hurting people?

I feel the same way so much of the time nowadays.
 
Mania requires strong drugs to control it and its best if they are legal and obtained from a doctor. I didn't realize this for most of my life. I only take Seroquel occasionally during mania but most bipolar people that take Seroquel take it every day. Some people can take them on an as needed basis. And most of the medication needed for bipolar like benzos, ADD meds, and even anti psychotics are generic. I would say I take 200 mg a month max these days. It does require a lot of self control to dose an anti psychotic during mania. I prefer to ease myself into it and not take the whole dose at once (which is usually 25-50mg not much in the first place).

Benzos are great for mania until you get a tolerance and they may stop working very well. Nothing worse than a manic person on a high dose of benzos. Benzos are best used in conjunction with other medicine and not on its own for bipolar (which is what I did for two years).
 
You may not feel so bad now, but get help before your disease progresses - it's like a mental cancer, get help or you will lose. It's a horrible illness, I felt like you in the beginning - whey, this is great, I have so much energy, I'm so much more productive! But eventually those episodes faded out to give birth to a Demon of such proportions Stephen King would have nightmares about. You're either not sleeping or eating for a week, convinced you're on some special mission to decipher the most important meaning from sheer coincidences, or you're carving huge chunks of flesh out to stop the pain, wishing every day you'd never wake up. If you don't get help, one day you will not wake up.
 
I think there's debate as to whether the disease progresses more often than not, or not.

Please describe this demon.
 
Weak as in, my abuse of drugs. Funny when you look back and see all the warning signs. It does progress from early teens im sure, no debate there. Whether progression is accelerated by drugs or alcohol, i'd say so. I'd heard Bipolar is usually triggered by the use or abuse of a mood altering substance. Meaning something as simple as a coffee can be responsible. Rather then schitzophrenia which lays dormant and is innevitable if your predisposed, whether you abuse drugs or not.
 
No, i think inevitably most people will choose suicide when its bad enough. Shooting meth for a couple years will surely deepen your depression indefinately.
I think theres a choice between symptoms of addiction and symptoms of illness. Now if only we had an infinite supply of pharmaceutical heroin, i'd imagine i'd live in bliss forever. Ofcourse self medication never works though, we all run out of medicine eventually.

A great example is the alcoholic who beats the fuck out of he's wife, not the mentally ill person under the influence of alcohol. Symptoms are masked, obviously not for the better though.
 
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I feel manic very frequently. And I've learned, through painful trial-and-error, that dealing with it can be likened to dealing with crippling depression. Let me explain my take on it further:

When I'm severely depressed, it's as though I become paralyzed. I can't leave my house; my room; my bed for chrissakes! It's horrible. But I won't recover in any way unless I just 'force' myself up and out of bed. Force myself to eat. Drop down and do twenty push-ups. Walk out the door - no destination - and take an aimless walk.

EVENTUALLY (key word) this helps to relieve my depression. And really, even partial recovery is better than wasting away in that damned bed that I'm so sick of seeing and feeling.

In the same sense, I have to force myself to do the opposite of what I really want to be doing when manic. I try to allocate my unusual reservoir of energy doing relaxing things. For instance, I'll plant myself on the couch and watch a DVD or two. I'll pick this 900-some page book and just start reading. Eventually, the use of my cerebral energy drains much of my physical energy and I'm much more able to control my manic tendencies.

I don't really know if this will work for you after typing it out. But... FWIW!

~ Vaya
 
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