Dodd33
Greenlighter
Long story here that I am going to try to keep as short as possible. I am a 31 year old guy coming up on 3 years together with my girlfriend. Almost the last year and a half I have slowly come to the realization that I am unhappy. I've thought a lot over the past year about ending it, for both our sakes, but I'm still in it at the moment. She's a great girl but I'm afraid the spark is just totally gone between us. We both dance around admitting that, but it's the truth and we both know it.
I have been in school the past two years, and have been crushing really hard on a girl in class. Never ever making my feelings known, because she has been in a relationship and, obviously so have I.
This past weekend was graduation and the whole class hits downtown. Flashforward to 2 in the morning, after admittedly way too much to drink we go from exchanging long glances, to holding hands, to feeling each other under the table, to sticking around until all of classmates have left and making out for well over an hour. Over the course of this time I find out she has left her boyfriend a month ago. She knows I have a girlfriend and keeps saying how what we're doing is wrong and we should stop and then turning around and grabbing my dick while pulling me in for another kiss. After the bar I attempt to walk her home, which turns into us stopping every 2 feet and making out hard. She keeps telling me through all of this how "it's obvious I have liked you all year long/I can't believe you didn't know" lots of stuff like that. All told we spend over 2 hours kissing, dry humping, talking dirty, she's asking me to take her back to her place but I am starting to sober up and realizing that I need to be home to my own GF before the sun comes up.
The next day I wake up frankly not feeling as terrible as I thought I was going to. I've never cheated on my GF but because of our deteriorating situation, and because this girl is just so goddamn awesome I'm feeling like I might finally be working up the courage to end it. Anyways she texts me saying she is "so sorry" and how she "feels terrible" as her last bf cheated on her and she knows how it feels. She does say she "really liked me" in the message, but makes an effort to blame the alcohol for what happened. Which is fine, I understand. She is a 100% classy, respectable girl who is probably not used to making out with other guys boyfriends. I'm sure she legitimately does feel terrible on some level.
My question to you guys is how much of what happened between us was actually the booze talking? Like I realize we've all done and said things while drunk that we wouldn't normally do, but doesn't the fact that it went on for SO LONG kinda cancel that out? Hehe, maybe just wishful thinking on my part I don't know.
I do think I am going to leave my GF but I guess I would just like to know if myself and this girl may have a future. I don't want to ask her that as I'm afraid it would freak her out. Did she really like me all year long or was this just a thing a wasted girl did for fun?
I have been in school the past two years, and have been crushing really hard on a girl in class. Never ever making my feelings known, because she has been in a relationship and, obviously so have I.
This past weekend was graduation and the whole class hits downtown. Flashforward to 2 in the morning, after admittedly way too much to drink we go from exchanging long glances, to holding hands, to feeling each other under the table, to sticking around until all of classmates have left and making out for well over an hour. Over the course of this time I find out she has left her boyfriend a month ago. She knows I have a girlfriend and keeps saying how what we're doing is wrong and we should stop and then turning around and grabbing my dick while pulling me in for another kiss. After the bar I attempt to walk her home, which turns into us stopping every 2 feet and making out hard. She keeps telling me through all of this how "it's obvious I have liked you all year long/I can't believe you didn't know" lots of stuff like that. All told we spend over 2 hours kissing, dry humping, talking dirty, she's asking me to take her back to her place but I am starting to sober up and realizing that I need to be home to my own GF before the sun comes up.
The next day I wake up frankly not feeling as terrible as I thought I was going to. I've never cheated on my GF but because of our deteriorating situation, and because this girl is just so goddamn awesome I'm feeling like I might finally be working up the courage to end it. Anyways she texts me saying she is "so sorry" and how she "feels terrible" as her last bf cheated on her and she knows how it feels. She does say she "really liked me" in the message, but makes an effort to blame the alcohol for what happened. Which is fine, I understand. She is a 100% classy, respectable girl who is probably not used to making out with other guys boyfriends. I'm sure she legitimately does feel terrible on some level.
My question to you guys is how much of what happened between us was actually the booze talking? Like I realize we've all done and said things while drunk that we wouldn't normally do, but doesn't the fact that it went on for SO LONG kinda cancel that out? Hehe, maybe just wishful thinking on my part I don't know.
I do think I am going to leave my GF but I guess I would just like to know if myself and this girl may have a future. I don't want to ask her that as I'm afraid it would freak her out. Did she really like me all year long or was this just a thing a wasted girl did for fun?
