Hey,
So, I don't know why I'm embarrassed to admit that I have serious issue with caffeine of all things, I guess cause there are heroin addicts on here.
It's fucking weird, but even having experimented with a number of substances before (not tons like some on here but whatever), the only one that's ever given me serious issues is caffeine.
However, there are other drugs and factors that may come into play like: melatonin, Klonopin, alcohol, sleeping odd hours, too much computer, not enough sunlight, etc.
Here's the background info:
For at least the past 10 years I really cannot control my caffeine intake.
I have quit multiple times by using Dexedrine of all things, but now I have no access to dex and probably never will again so I can't use that.
I drink approximately 4-6 cups a day right now, which might not seem that bad to some people, but it has been as much as 8 cups a day, either way, it effects me badly.
I don't know for sure if the Klonopin makes me more tired but I really feel that it generally doesn't seem to unless I am already tired and take extra but honestly it's hard to say because I've had this problem for years before I started taking Klonopin but it possibly got worse after that.
Basically, I am almost always tired.
I have managed over the years to find ways of doing work and school at unusual hours and sleeping odd hours and somehow I keep my life together, but at the price of always feeling like shit.
I know not keeping regular sleep hours is a problem, but they aren't 100% irregular either, I tend to go to sleep quite late like 2:00AM and sleep quite late and take care of priorities in the afternoons and early evenings and then take monster naps, sometimes as long as 3 hours, whenever I get the chance.
In order to fall asleep I take melatonin, these days 3.4 ml's, but I am extremely sensitive to it, and it gives me really vivid dreams but horrible sleep and I will even talk in my sleep, which I think is symptomatic of not sleeping well.
However, if I take any less melatonin, I can't sleep because of the amount of caffeine I drink, and I wake up feeling like shit from the amount of melatonin I take so need more sleep and the cycle continues.
I've tried cutting down slowly and it never works.
I've tried dealing with the withdrawals but what can I say, eventually the mood swings, depression and exhaustion becomes too much and I inevitably go back to it.
I know for a fact that the caffeine is probably what is making my sleep so much less sound cause of the increase of cortisol, but I don't really know all the science behind it.
I use a daylight (sunlamp) sometimes which helps, try to get exercise as much as I can which also helps, but the cycle is still endless and continues throughout the years.
My goal is to get down to 1 cup a day in the morning, and maybe 1 extra cup in the early afternoon if I absolutely need it to keep me going, absolute max.
Again, I think my differing neurology may be a factor, but every time I seek advice from anyone, doctors or otherwise, people basically shrug their shoulders or even laugh and tell me to just fucking deal with it.
Obviously none of that is working, as I'm constantly tired and can sleep for 12 hours without feeling truly rested.
Any advice would be awesome.
So, I don't know why I'm embarrassed to admit that I have serious issue with caffeine of all things, I guess cause there are heroin addicts on here.
It's fucking weird, but even having experimented with a number of substances before (not tons like some on here but whatever), the only one that's ever given me serious issues is caffeine.
However, there are other drugs and factors that may come into play like: melatonin, Klonopin, alcohol, sleeping odd hours, too much computer, not enough sunlight, etc.
Here's the background info:
For at least the past 10 years I really cannot control my caffeine intake.
I have quit multiple times by using Dexedrine of all things, but now I have no access to dex and probably never will again so I can't use that.
I drink approximately 4-6 cups a day right now, which might not seem that bad to some people, but it has been as much as 8 cups a day, either way, it effects me badly.
I don't know for sure if the Klonopin makes me more tired but I really feel that it generally doesn't seem to unless I am already tired and take extra but honestly it's hard to say because I've had this problem for years before I started taking Klonopin but it possibly got worse after that.
Basically, I am almost always tired.
I have managed over the years to find ways of doing work and school at unusual hours and sleeping odd hours and somehow I keep my life together, but at the price of always feeling like shit.
I know not keeping regular sleep hours is a problem, but they aren't 100% irregular either, I tend to go to sleep quite late like 2:00AM and sleep quite late and take care of priorities in the afternoons and early evenings and then take monster naps, sometimes as long as 3 hours, whenever I get the chance.
In order to fall asleep I take melatonin, these days 3.4 ml's, but I am extremely sensitive to it, and it gives me really vivid dreams but horrible sleep and I will even talk in my sleep, which I think is symptomatic of not sleeping well.
However, if I take any less melatonin, I can't sleep because of the amount of caffeine I drink, and I wake up feeling like shit from the amount of melatonin I take so need more sleep and the cycle continues.
I've tried cutting down slowly and it never works.
I've tried dealing with the withdrawals but what can I say, eventually the mood swings, depression and exhaustion becomes too much and I inevitably go back to it.
I know for a fact that the caffeine is probably what is making my sleep so much less sound cause of the increase of cortisol, but I don't really know all the science behind it.
I use a daylight (sunlamp) sometimes which helps, try to get exercise as much as I can which also helps, but the cycle is still endless and continues throughout the years.
My goal is to get down to 1 cup a day in the morning, and maybe 1 extra cup in the early afternoon if I absolutely need it to keep me going, absolute max.
Again, I think my differing neurology may be a factor, but every time I seek advice from anyone, doctors or otherwise, people basically shrug their shoulders or even laugh and tell me to just fucking deal with it.
Obviously none of that is working, as I'm constantly tired and can sleep for 12 hours without feeling truly rested.
Any advice would be awesome.
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